32. Limits YILEYNA 

‘Obviously. There’s no way a wolf-less female would be worth anything more to me than to be an object to use and discard when I’m done.’

His words rang in my mind, and I sighed as I locked the door quietly behind me. I looked around my cabin, feeling exhausted, and dropped onto the bed. His scent still lingered. I closed my eyes, not wanting to think about anything, but I couldn’t stop the thoughts from swirling in my mind. At times, it was as if he cared… and then at others… I curled into a ball, taking deep, steady breaths.

I would not let it affect me.

A light knock on the door made me sigh.

“I’m trying to get some sleep. What is it?” I called out, really not wanting to talk to anyone, but I knew it was Charlene.

“Open up darling.” Her soft voice came.

Sighing, I got up, unlocking the door and getting back into bed. I heard the door open and Charlene sigh softly as she locked the door, then sat down on the bed. “I’m angry at you, Leyna.” Her soft voice came. I sighed, pulling the blanket down from my face and looked over at her, feeling guilty. “I know.” “Theon, want to share?” I sighed and sat up; this was a conversation I knew was going to happen at some point. “Not really.” I mumbled, keeping my arms hidden under the blanket. I didn’t need her worrying over my injuries. “Since when?” She asked quietly. “Since the festival.” I muttered, staring down at the blanket. I heard her gasp, and I looked up to see the wave of sadness in her eyes. “Since then and you didn’t tell me?”

“He didn’t want anyone to know,” I whispered, feeling ever so guilty. “But… not even me?” She asked, I don’t think I had ever felt worse. “I’m sorry, I truly am my queen.” I whispered. “When I told you he was interested in you, you vehemently denied it!” She exclaimed, as if suddenly remembering that and frowning at me.

“I know! But I’m sorry… Are you… Umm, are you ok with it?” I asked, knowing that she had liked Theon for ages too. “I know it’s stupid that I’m asking this now... After stuff happened…”

I felt awful.

“I want to say I am, I mean, I’m jealous too! But I’m just a bit concerned… Are you sure he’s serious? I don’t want you to get hurt.” She replied, ending hesitantly.

His words rang in my mind, and I lay back down. “We have an agreement, it’s just physical.” I replied quietly. Her eyes softened, and she sighed.

“You know, I would say go get it girl, and enjoy that piece of sexiness while you can, but why do I feel like you will get hurt?” She asked softly.

“I won’t, I know he considers me nothing more than trash.” I said, feeling my stomach twist at those words.

Then why was I allowing him to have me, when he couldn’t even respect me? I remembered our moment from down in the hold, the way he playfully tickled me and licked my foot. Do you do that to someone you consider trash? Maybe? I didn’t know.

Charlene moved over and wrapped her arms around me tightly as she slipped under the blanket beside me.

“Goddess, this bed smells of him!” She yelped.

I couldn’t resist the smile that cross my lips as I rested my head on her shoulder.

“Well, he did sleep here for a bit.” I giggled.

“Wait, did you do the deed in here?!”

“No, relax! We’ve only done it once.”

We didn’t do much on this bed, and what we did do, she didn’t need to know.

“Once? On the night of the festival?”

I nodded.

“Yeah…”

“So is he good? He seems rough if your neck is anything to go by.” She teased. “I can’t believe you have actually kissed Theon!” “He is rough.” I admitted, staring at the ceiling. “Well, details! Since he is now claimed by my friend, the least you can do is share the details. Wait! Wait… is he big?” She whispered, I blushed and nodded. “Yes, although I haven’t really seen it much, it was all just so fast…” I frowned, thinking we had actually only fucked once… For someone who wanted to simply use me, he sure hadn’t taken advantage of that. “Well, next time then.” She replied with a gentle smile, brushing my hair off my face before

we both snuggled down, letting sleep come to us.

She fell asleep first, whilst I couldn’t help but mull over everything that had happened…

I had stayed in bed, saying I wasn’t feeling too great. Ailema had delivered some food, but aside from that, I had decided to stay in my room. I just needed a little space, if Patrick and Valentin knew about us, then I was sure

get up and make sure there were no splinters from the wooden crates stuck in my arms. Charlene had spent most of the afternoon with me, but I had lied that I was feeling a little under the weather, and she had left me when night had come. Raiden had popped in earlier to ask how I was doing, but I hadn’t

cast shadows on the wall from where it hung in a bracket, the slight sway of the ship was lulling me to sleep when I heard the door open and

snapped to the door, all traces of sleep vanishing, and I sat up sharply. My eyebrows furrowed when I saw it was none other than Theon. “I’m not feeling great, I don’t have time to entertain you.” I said, trying to keep my voice level. “Then don’t.” Came his short reply. “I want to be alone.”

the two mugs of what smelled like coffee he was holding on a small

Don’t fall for it.

chanting that in my head. He placed the two mugs down and

well. What’s wrong with you? You look perfectly

gave him a

hissed, raising my arms and showing my arms that were still not fully healed from

to my irritation, he took hold of them, twisting my arms in front of him so he could get a look at the injuries. He brushed his thumb gently over the part that had almost healed, sending little

Not this time.

free from

coldly, glaring into his

eyes that were such a

“No.”

frowning as he looked down at it, this one was worse. “Why didn’t you get these checked?” “Theon, you can stop pretending to care.” I whispered, pulling out of his hold. His eyes met mine, but I looked away, trying

The hollow emptiness in my chest was excruciating, but I wanted him gone. I heard the door open and shut. I kicked the blanket off, rushing to lock the door, only to see he had

I go get it back, or is

opened again and to my utter dismay, he was back, holding a small box. He shut and locked the door, slipping the key into his pocket, only making me even angrier. He placed the box on the bed, then without

I hissed, feeling

me, opened the box and took out one of the bottles. Pouring some of the disinfectant or

“Don’t worry, I’m used to pain, I’m sure you don’t care if it hurts

my jaw to stop myself from crying out, but I just needed to get this

doing further damage to

done

had never felt so angry at him as I

I said

you, but to insult me like that to someone else? That, I won’t tolerate. I may have agreed to give myself to you, but I have not agreed for you to ruin my reputation. Now

and

tossed the gauze on the bed and stood up. “Think what you

door shutting behind him with a snap. I cradled my sore arm, trying my best

me… He was cleaning my

was also

deep down, he had his hot and cold moments, but I

as its contents spilt across the floor and I glared at it in anger. I

I threw myself down on the bed, refusing to cry. I turned on my side, my eyes falling

For us…

guilty, I closed my eyes, trying to make sense

I’m doing, I honestly

My Advice YILEYNA

alone with Theon like a wolf avoiding silver and wolfsbane. I stayed with Charlene

mornings, but I asked Raiden or Ryan to accompany me to watch as well. Theon would make one of the men train with Charlene, but he too didn’t talk to

him. However, even then, the emotions coursing through me. Every time our eyes connected, I felt the intense rush of

dangerous addiction and one I was consumed with. I knew if he tried, the chances that he would break my walls once more were high, and so I didn’t even try to rile him

when Leto begged me to sing along to his sea shanty, I refused. Mom said my voice was beautiful, and she always asked me to sing

my voice was too precious to share with others. It wasn’t that I didn’t enjoy singing, but it reminded me of Mom, and I didn’t want Theon to get

waters, apart from the occasional moments when she was allowed to come above deck or to train, she

she spent a lot more time trying to talk to Theon. He would reply, but by the end of the first day, it was obvious he had grown tired of her and made his

waters beneath us, it felt good to not have to layer so many pieces of clothing on, although it

had gone through more brutal training at the hands of Theon. I did see what she meant, that sometimes he seemed to look at her with hatred. But it was fleeting and I often doubted if it was just my mind playing tricks, but why would

was just venting all his anger

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