My Hockey Alpha by Eve Above Story PDF

Chapter 0477

Nina

The three minutes that we had to wait for the test results felt like an eternity, each second somehow stretching longer than the last one. The air in the bathroom seemed to grow heavier with the weight of my thoughts as my mind whirled with possibilities.

This tiny stick on the bathroom counter had the potential to change our lives in an instant, to rewrite all the plans we had or didn't have. If I was pregnant, would we keep the baby, or would it be best to get an abortion? And if we did somehow decide to keep the baby after all, what would become of our dreams? What would happen to Enzo's coaching career? What would happen to medical school for me?

As I waited, my heartbeat thudded in my ears like a distant drum, and my fingers fidgeted restlessly with the hem of my shirt.

Enzo stood beside me, his hand as warm and steady as ever on my shoulder. I could feel the tension radiating off him, too, but his eyes held a certain calm when they met mine. A calm I sorely needed but couldn't find within myself.

Finally, the timer on my phone chirped, pulling me out of my spiraling thoughts. I took a deep, shaky breath before leaning over to read the results on the test.

Negative.

A wave of relief washed over me, so strong it nearly knocked me off balance. I felt Enzo's grip on my shoulder tighten for a moment before he relaxed, clearly sharing in my sense of relief.

*Negative," he whispered, pulling me into a hug.

yet, at the same time, I also couldn't deny the sense

sensing my emotions, shot me a glance. "You okay,

nodded at the same time, a gesture of uncertainty. "... I think so," I murmured, although I couldn't quite deny the fact that there was a tinge

my cheek. "Don't worry, Nina. We'll get to have our family

Secure. Loved. Relieved. And yet, a small but significant part of me couldn't ignore that faint feeling of disappointment that still lingered in the back of my

I hadn't admitted it even to myself, I had let myself believe that I was pregnant, let myself imagine what it might be like to be a mother, to create

I hugged him back. But was he right? Were we okay? Were we making the

into his eyes. As always, they were open and loving, but I could see his own struggle mirrored there in

outcome awaited us, willing to face it head-on like he did with everything in his life. There was a willingness to jump into the deep end, even if we had no idea how to swim. And maybe that was what both thrilled and terrified me. The thought of having a baby with him had filled me with an

I could surreptitiously blink away the tears that

shoulder. "Don't think about it too much, Nina," he said gently. "We'll have a family someday,

Enzo's words. He was right; it wasn't meant to be. Not right now, at least. And it was likely for the best, not only because of the fact that our lives were on the precipice of change, but

hadn't dealt with yet. Something that came to me in

back to reality. He glanced at it and then back at me, a silent

said, offering him a

phone and read the message, his brow furrowing slightly before he