My Hot Alpha

Chpater 68

"You acknowledged the bond, you accepted his wolf and until he marks you it's not going to go away, if anything it'll only intensify. Everything will heighten, the way you feel right now is just a little of what's to come". "It's the world we live in Leah. This is how it works".

"I-I can't do it". I cried breakfast forgotten about. "Why did he do this to me?". I asked.

"Well it's a stupid world". Squeezing my legs together I sighed at the little bit of release. I needed something, anything.

"You're strong you'll get through this. I know you will". She whispered.

"I-I need-....

"You need him". Cutting me off she placed her hand on top of mine but I pulled it back. I didn't like that, why did it feel like it burned. She made a face.

"What, what is it?". I panicked.

"The bond". She sighed. "Until he marks you the discomfort you'll feel to the slightest touch by anyone but him will feel like that".

"Please tell me you're lying". I groaned placing my head in my hands. "How many days will I feel like this?". I couldn't handle it already, this bond, what it was doing to me.

"It doesn't have a time spam Leah. It's nature let it run it's course".

"Is it effecting me like this because I'm not like him?". The coolness of the counter against my face was nice, soothing even.

"No it happens to us all. Regardless if you're a werewolf or not. The bond is a beautiful thing". Lifting my head up I glared. It wasn't beautiful, it was anything but beautiful. My emotions were running high and I didn't know if I wanted to burst out crying or punch something.

Sighing I pushed my chair back and got to my feet. I needed to cool off. I had to find a way to try and settle the burning inside. Unlocking my back door I pulled it open. "Leah it's pouring rain".

The coolness of the air was welcoming, satisfying. Closing my eyes I breathed deeply. It wasn't shifting the pain but it was easing it, it was calming. I wonder if the rain against my skin would feel better. Glancing at Alanna I shrugged my shoulders before I ripped the T-shirt from my body.

"Leah don't that's-..."

Pulling off my jeans I stepped outside. I didn't care that I was only in my underwear. I laughed when the water touched my skin.

This helped.

a cold".

The burning dimmed, the tingling easing. Walking further

inside". She

I was crazy but I didn't care. If this was the

she pulled me back up the yard and through the back door. She

me go". I cried. She couldn't touch me, no one could touch

stupid". She hissed. "It's torrential rain outside and you thought standing in it would be

wrapping the towel around my

took a bath". She shrugged.

at my breakfast. I wanted to go back outside. I was on edge, my body felt like it was shaking from

Your hair is soaking".

my shoulders I lifted my plate emptying what

will get

"When?".

to mark you. Once you wear his mark all of the

I could feel this

"Potentially yes". She whispered.

his decision? Didn't I have a say? He knew what I was going through and if he was going through the same then what was

not as bad as me is he?". I asked. I already knew he wasn't. No one would suffer this is they knew how

but

sarcastically. "So he's willingly making me suffer, because that's what this is. It's torture, I want-..." I stopped talking. What was the point, Alanna couldn't do anything, she couldn't take the pain away. "You got this". She whispered. "He'll break before you

"What do you mean?".

seeing you like this. It's killing him Leah but he has to wait it out. He has to make sure you want

when I thought about

being Jake right now, imagine having your wolf clawing you on the inside desperate to

he in pain?".

surprised if he ends up on your doorstep