My Hot Alpha

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I didn't want to get up. I could hear the shower running so I knew Jake was awake. I didn't get to sleep till late because my mind wouldn't shut off. I had all the time in the world to think.

No distractions. Nothing to focus on other than my thoughts. Everything running around in my head over and over again.

Could I have done something different? Was I to blame for the loss of our child?

I woke up sad, I already knew today wasn't going to be a good day. I didn't want to be sad, I wanted to push past this and move on, but I couldn't. I couldn't stop the guilt. The constant reminder that I wasn't pregnant anymore.

"Morning baby. I made you coffee". He nodded towards my bedside drawer.

wanted to be there for me, to look after me and yet every fiber in my

him out. I promised myself I'd lean on him whenever I needed to. I know deep down I needed him more than anything

still wanted to do it alone

"Leah are you okay?".

feel sad". I spoke. "I want to push you away so bad and deal with this on

to be angry, to scream through the pain. But I won't sit back and let you go through

wanted to wake up positive, be productive, go out for breakfast with my friends. I wanted today to be the start of something fresh. I would never forget but a line had to be drawn so I could

guess today wasn't that

happen to me, to us?". I

I don't have an answer

things in life happen, cruel things that we have no control over. We