My Hot Alpha

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I didn't want to get up. I could hear the shower running so I knew Jake was awake. I didn't get to sleep till late because my mind wouldn't shut off. I had all the time in the world to think.

No distractions. Nothing to focus on other than my thoughts. Everything running around in my head over and over again.

Could I have done something different? Was I to blame for the loss of our child?

I woke up sad, I already knew today wasn't going to be a good day. I didn't want to be sad, I wanted to push past this and move on, but I couldn't. I couldn't stop the guilt. The constant reminder that I wasn't pregnant anymore.

"Morning baby. I made you coffee". He nodded towards my bedside drawer.

from the shower, a towel hung around his waist. He only wanted to be there for me, to look after me and yet every fiber in my body wanted

own was the only way through. But I promised I wouldn't shut him out. I promised myself I'd lean on him whenever I needed to. I know deep down

wanted to do it alone because it

"Leah are you okay?".

spoke. "I want to push you away so bad

His voice soft he sat on the edge of the bed. "It's okay to feel sad, it's okay to cry, to be angry, to scream through the

to wake up positive, be productive, go out for breakfast with my friends. I wanted today to be the start of something fresh. I

guess today wasn't

happen to

question I don't have an

had an answer, things in life happen, cruel things that we have no control over. We just have to deal with it and