My Hot Alpha

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I didn't want to get up. I could hear the shower running so I knew Jake was awake. I didn't get to sleep till late because my mind wouldn't shut off. I had all the time in the world to think.

No distractions. Nothing to focus on other than my thoughts. Everything running around in my head over and over again.

Could I have done something different? Was I to blame for the loss of our child?

I woke up sad, I already knew today wasn't going to be a good day. I didn't want to be sad, I wanted to push past this and move on, but I couldn't. I couldn't stop the guilt. The constant reminder that I wasn't pregnant anymore.

"Morning baby. I made you coffee". He nodded towards my bedside drawer.

He only wanted to be there for me, to look after me and yet every fiber in my body wanted

mind dealing with this on my own was the only way through. But I promised I wouldn't shut him out. I promised myself I'd lean on him whenever I needed to. I know deep

still wanted to do it

"Leah are you okay?".

feel sad". I spoke. "I want to push you away

bed. "It's okay to feel sad, it's okay to cry, to be angry, to scream through the pain. But I

wake up positive, be productive, go out for breakfast with my friends. I wanted today to be the start of something fresh. I would never forget but a line had to be drawn so I could move on and yet I couldn't get myself out of

guess today wasn't that

to happen

don't have

we have no control over. We just have to deal