My Love for You Broke Me

Chapter 90

"I'll always be here waiting for you, my lady." His twinkling eyes were filled with concern as he gazed at me under the night sky. I was certain that I would be able to embrace the entire universe in his eyes if I had the courage to take one step forward. However, I couldn't bring myself to do it in the end. "I'm sorry," I cried while shaking my head.

Christopher sighed as he lowered his gaze. "You ended up choosing Nicholas two months ago too. I don't know what you're thinking, but I've decided to support any decision that you make. My greatest wish is for you to find happiness! I just want you to live a good life. But, my lady, you don't seem to be happy at all, so why don't you give us a chance to return to the past?"

The past?! Christopher and I don't share a past at all. It was all one-sided—I was the one going after him for nine years, I thought. The lights by the school corridor were dim, and I stood beneath it as I fidgeted around helplessly. I didn't know how to respond to him. However, I knew for a fact that Christopher was just a teenage dream that I had.

I knew that I couldn't get close to him or hold hands with him, and I knew that I could offer myself to him with the knowledge that I was an infertile woman. So, I shifted my gaze up and looked at him before opening up to him. "I used to love you so, so much—just the sound of your name used to send tingles down my spine. I would've jumped in front of a car for you! I still feel nervous even as I look at you now. But, Christopher, too many things have happened throughout the nine years I had been chasing after you. For example, I got married to your twin brother, Nicholas; I was diagnosed with cancer and deemed infertile; I turned myself into a nationwide joke… Christopher, how could we go back to the past after all that's happened?"

Christopher could hear the fear in my voice, and he comforted me in a gentle tone. "You don't have to think about anyone or anything else for now. Just answer me—do you want to be with me?"

Do I want to be with him? What he wanted was a simple and clear answer, but I simply couldn't see myself getting back together with him. I knew that things could never go back to the way it was. After a slight pause, he spoke in his warm and gentle voice. "I watched the video… and I genuinely felt sorry for you. I was wondering, how did my lady allow herself to be bullied by someone else without standing her ground?"

I didn't stand my ground when I was being bullied… I pressed my lips together before rejecting him with a heavy heart. "I'm sorry. I don't know how I turned into this person, and I don't know why I'm so afraid to be with you now. But I'm really thankful for all the care and love you've given me," I ended up rejecting Christopher. He didn't reveal any emotion on his face, but I could sense that he seemed rather gloomy.

"Can you bear to give up on me just like that?" he asked in a soft and meek tone. A look of shock spread across my face—I never would've expected him to ask such a humble question. I thought about it before responding sincerely, "You once said that there are too many people in this world who never get what they want. Regardless of whether I can bear to let you go, I'll have to do it in the end," I replied. Christopher deserves to find his own happiness. He shouldn't be with an infertile woman like me! He deserves a perfect family with children.

I had to admit—what Nicholas uttered about my infertility was too much of a blow to me. It resulted in a scar that would lay in my heart forever.

"Can you listen to me playing Street Where Wind Resides for one last time?" he asked. This was the song that initiated everything between Christopher and me, so I figured that things should end at the same point as well. However, it seemed like we were still in each other's lives even after bidding goodbye a few times. We were like old friends who would gather together to talk about our sweet past. "I'd love to," I uttered with a wide grin. Christopher walked into the classroom, and I sat by the wall while listening to the piano, just like the good old days. Tears streamed down my cheeks. I guess I'll never be able to return to my teenage years! The four-minute-long tune eventually came to an end. Right before it ended, I stood up and walked off. The summer breeze lifted the hem of my skirt, and it blew away my nine years of unforgettable love.

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It was late by the time I drove home. I lay on my bed and scrolled through the texts that my assistant sent. 'President Felix, the company's shares saw a 5% reduction after all the crazy rumors in the past two months. However, everything else is fine, and our finances are looking good. We look forward to having you back." Crazy rumors… He's probably talking about the video of me begging Nicholas in the rain. I'm the face of the Felix Family, so this must've caused some impact on the company.

I didn't reply to my assistant's text—I simply lowered the phone and fell into a restless bout of sleep. I woke up sometime in the afternoon, and my phone, which was on silent mode, had tons of missed calls from Clair, May, Kevin, my assistant, and so on. I felt drained just looking at all of these calls. In the end, I decided to check my WhatsApp to see the text that my assistant had sent me.