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Chapter 150: I Can't Turn Off My Feelings Chapter 150: I Can't Turn Off My Feelings Marshall

"You are right, that is hypocritical of me." I said, I had always planned to forgive my friends, I just needed a bit of time.

"I am glad you agreed." Angelia said and the corner of her lips tugged upwards slightly like she was about to smile but she didn't. "What about our situation?" She asked.

""What do

what do you mean?"

"If we ever work this out, how will it go with you as my professor?"

"Simple, I will quit."

I

"You have already handed in your resignation letter, right?" She asked.

"Yes, but that is after this semester. I meant, I will quit at once." I shrugged like it wasn't a big deal, and in the grand scheme of it all, it wasn't. I wanted her back more than I wanted my last semester. She blanched.

"I can't let you do that."

"And I will not let you risk expulsion." I said and her eyes narrowed.

"It is a good thing that we were not together because I won't allow you to lose last semester. I know how much you love your job."

Not as much as I love you, I thought, shocking myself speechless at the realization.

"Why do you care about that?" I asked softly when I was able to collect my thoughts.

"I hurt you." I added.

"Yes, you did but I haven't stopped caring about you just because you hurt me. I can't turn my feelings off, even though I might wish to." The last part was said in a whisper but I still heard it.

I didn't focus on that, though, instead I focused on the fact that she still cared even after what we had done. If she still had feelings for us, there was hope.

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just....I will text you when I have figured my feelings out." She

as much time with her as would allow and she shook her

She stood up from her seat but paused by

Riccardo and Kingston.

that should be treasured."

a chance to say anything back, she walked away. She was right though, I should forgive them, I already had. I was just too stubborn to admit it

after she was gone

had ever had, I just hoped she had found what she was looking for in my answers, and I hoped it

The second thing I learned was that words wouldn't help me. Those two things were something I had brought with

to me, it hadn't been enough. She was a thinker, a speculator, a twisting and turning each thought and a what if kind of girl. So while I had been busy showing her what I felt for her, she might not have seen it all. She needed to hear it, so there would be no second guessing about what I actually meant. Words were important, that was something I had learned recently. Words were significant because there were things not even action could express. I was baking when my phone vibrated at the kitchen island behind me, indicating a text message. Whenever I needed to calm down or just needed someplace to think, I found myself either baking something or cooking. But it wasn't helping me now, though. Sharing my kitchen with her had somehow made the experience into something more, and now without her, I found

to myself, remembering the text message I had sent to her yesterday before my fight. Turn

a piece of 'me didn't like that, I could also see how much she meant to me when she was starting to impact me as a person. There were few I would change for, and she was one of them. Drying my hands on my apron, I turned around and grabbed my phone, checking the text I had expected to be from Riccardo. So it surprised me when it was from the one person I

in Ogume in one hour.

lips twitched as I looked down

like my kind I of f place, I will be there." T I replied to her text message and a

me at the thought of seeing her after everything that had happened, the pain I had amassed yesterday in the ring was just a distant throbbing and my mind was too busy thinking of her to give any attention to the bruises. There wasn't a parking space near the cafe, so I had to walk a few minutes to get there. I didn't mind, though, it was a nice enough evening. The sun had set but the temperature was still warm. It wasn't

She

was

the table beside. The couple were gazing into each other's eyes with so much adoration and it twisted my heart. I couldn't see her expression but I knew the longing she felt because I felt it too. While I wasn't sure about the flirty type, what we had between us was just as carefree and sweet as what the other couple had. The second I got near, she turned around as if she had sensed me. Even sadder, she was still the most beautiful woman I had ever seen. Although, it wasn't just the kooks that made her so, it was who she was as a person that really got to me. I had never met anyone quite like her, she was brave yet

in, from the bruises on my cheek to the

the hell

guys." I said, taking a seat on

demanded, her words cut but

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she couldn't understand why