One More Chance by Jaycelle Rodriguez

Chapter 105: Hating the truth

~~~Here I am playing with those memories again and just when I thought time had set me free, those thoughts of you keep taunting me. Holding you, a feeling I never outgrew. Though each and every part of has tried, but only you can fill that space inside. So there's no sense pretending, my heart is not mending~~~

-Nina Girado-

I sat down next to her and watched her cry even though I'm still confused about the reason why. I leaned back against my seat and watched her in silence. Seeing how devastated she was at the moment, I never tried to ask her nor open my mouth to talk to her. I know she'll open up to me when she's ready, so I've decided to wait until she calms down.

I took the box of tissue from her desk and gave it to her and the moment she accepted it, her reddened eyes met the confused mine. I know what's going through her mind as she stared at me. I'm sure she was also confused and asking herself as to why I'm not scolding her or why I'm not asking her about what happened.

And when she finally opened her mouth, I confirmed that I was right.

"Are you not going to ask me about what happened?" She asked with a sad yet bitter smile that played on her lips.

I sighed, reciprocating her sad smile.

"No." I shook my head.

"I'm sure you have lots of questions. Aren't you going to ask me anything?"

"Nope, because all the questions in my head that I've wanted to ask you since you came earlier, have already been answered."

She sighed, lowering her head.

"He lied about the divorce papers." The first sentence she uttered as she wiped her face with the tissue I gave her. "The last time I asked him about it, he said yes and then now he suddenly broadcasted the truth!"

I stared at her, taking a deep breath.

"Hmm... so why are you crying?"

"Because I told you he lied to me. All these years when all I thought I was already free from the past, but then all of a sudden I will find out it was all a lie and that I'm still married to him."

"Alright, but do you really have to cry and be devastated over that thing?"

"Jack, you don't understand, it's not just a thing!"

"So what if he lied to you about the real status of your marriage? And so what, if you found out you're still married to him over these years? Then sign another divorce paper and this time make sure

what do you think I feel

she raised her voice, but that just awakened

at me, I wasn't the one who lied to you."

hearing what he said! It seemed that all the efforts I made to break free from him were useless! It's

you say that?" I asked, furrowing my eyebrows. "Well, it really would all be useless if not only your marriage were

didn't miss the shock that suddenly registered in her

right? Then I hope you would answer this question straight. You said all your efforts seemed to be useless because you found out you're still tied to him. Is that really the reason or is it because you realized that after more than

"I wasn't hiding---"

than four years of trying to forget him, you realized that you still have feelings for him, that you're still in love with him and

in mid-air as she stared at me in

"Am I right?"

didn't answer my question, instead, she stood up and walked over to the

oh, you're not divorced yet, so I'll change the question. Do you still love your husband?" I kept bombarding her questions and I didn't

when she suddenly turned around and screamed with

love him and that's the fucking reason I cried because I hate it! I hate that feeling, I hate that realization and I hate myself as much as I

yourself?" I asked, taking the rest of the steps

she dropped down and sat on the floor, screaming.

took her hand and motioned for her to stand up, but she didn't

chest and

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SAM's POV:

thought I had already moved on. I thought I had already forgotten him, but I was wrong." I said between

and I looked at her. The expression in

He's a good man. He's my dream man. A man of every girl's dream. He's the exact opposite of Luke and he never hurt me physically, mentally, emotionally like what Luke did to

I don't love him? Of course, I love him. You were there

was there and

telling me I

watching you earlier, I

love him, Sam. You're just in love with the idea of having someone like him, a man of every girl's dream next to you. The exact words came from you, he's the exact opposite of your ex--- I mean, your husband and you became fascinated by David's personality

what are you trying to say, that he