Pregnant and Rejected by My Alpha Mate

Chapter 160- Selene Confides in Helene

Selene

Shadows surround me, downing me in darkness so impenetrable even my supernatural eye site cannot stand against it. Moments ago I could have sworn Helene was standing next to me, talking me through yet another training exercise, but now when I reach for her she’s nowhere to be found. I cannot hear her anymore, and I cannot find even the tiniest sliver of light to help me find my way out of this place.

I’m alone, completely lost in the artificial night I created with my own hands, and a stab of fear slices into me as I realize I’m truly stuck. The obsidian cloud pulses with energy I can feel but not see, and I will the shadows to part, to take shape rather than blinding

1. me.

They don’t budge, instead smothering me in pitch blackness, choking me with it until I’m gasping for air. Panicking, I send out an energy burst, hoping my power will shatter the darkness and return the shadows back to the fringes and hollows where they belong. But my power only feeds the nightmare, and suddenly the gloom transforms, just not in the way

Thoped.

Suddenly I’m ten years old again, locked in Garrick’s basement after losing my mother and wondering if I’ll ever see the outside world again. I’m too afraid to cry out, he always hurts me when I complain or call for help. My body is already covered in bruises, I don’t want any more pain.

Luna? I think weakly, calling to my wolf. Are you there? 

She doesn’t answer, and I can feel tears of despair burning in my eyes. She can’t be gone, she’s the only thing I have left – my only friend in the world. Besides, it’s not possible for a wolf to live without their wolf… right?

Wait, my delirious mind thinks weakly, Why does this feel so familiar? Has this happened before?

“Selene!” A voice calls in the distance, sounding miles and miles away. “Luna?” I jerk my head up, hope zinging through my veins.

When the voice sounds again, I realize it’s not my wolf after all. “Come back to me now, Selene.” I know that voice. I just can’t place it. “You’ve gone too deep.”

Helene! I realize suddenly, returning to the present. All at once the details come

flooding back, Garrick’s basement was just a waking nightmare. I’m in Helene’s workshop, practicing my powers. But I didn’t mean to create so much darkness, I just wanted to make a trick of light – and I don’t have the first clue how to find my way back out of this mess.

can’t!”I cry, “I don’t know how to

you do, Selene.” She encourages. “You created the darkness,

simple!” I insist, “It’s

the shadows Selene, it belongs to you.” Helene

to pull the electrical currents swirling through the air back into my body. Come back, come back, come back. I think manically, I can’t stay trapped here, I have to get

appears in my mind’s eye, and some of the crushing darkness eases. Luna help me. I beg,

She advises. They need you. But I started out channeling my feelings, I remind her, what if I get

a mother’s love is stronger than

web of shadows unwinds. Strands thin and break, letting in dappled rays of light

• Helene kneels down next to me. “Just breathe darling.” She croons, “In and out, slowly. ”I’m still gulping in air like a fish out of water, and she squeezes my hand, “slower, Selene. Just inhale and hold it for a moment. Good, just like that.” She praises when I obey.

calm enough to speak, I gasp,

couple of lessons i quickly discovered that being in the right frame of mind often made the difference between success and failure – and nothing grounds me better than my mate. “He always makes me feel stronger than

started thinking about him too much, about why I

.

emotion. “I’m starting to show. He promised he’d

the betas. “They keep assuring me everything will be fine, but they haven’t heard from him

“I share.

afraid he’s dead?” She

answer simply. “I know he’s still alive, but something is wrong. I’m sure of it. He’d never go this long without checking on us, and if he knew what was going on in the pack, he’d never stay away… if he could come back, he would have by

curious. “Alphas don’t give up easily, especially when it comes to their family’s safety. He might not know everything that’s happening here, and if he does,

danger

her hands, studying me closely. For anyone else her behavior would be considered odd, but

him. Something… or someone.” She releases me, striding

it how?”

question her methods. Some things are not meant

ground myself instead of Bastien.” I decide, remembering Luna’s words. . “No.” Helene replies, surprising me. “Running from the problem isn’t going to help anything. I think it’s good for you to get lost like you did today, and to work through the darkness rather than avoiding it altother. I know it wasn’t pleasant, but the more comfortable you become