Pregnant and Rejected by My Alpha Mate

Chapter 160- Selene Confides in Helene

Selene

Shadows surround me, downing me in darkness so impenetrable even my supernatural eye site cannot stand against it. Moments ago I could have sworn Helene was standing next to me, talking me through yet another training exercise, but now when I reach for her she’s nowhere to be found. I cannot hear her anymore, and I cannot find even the tiniest sliver of light to help me find my way out of this place.

I’m alone, completely lost in the artificial night I created with my own hands, and a stab of fear slices into me as I realize I’m truly stuck. The obsidian cloud pulses with energy I can feel but not see, and I will the shadows to part, to take shape rather than blinding

1. me.

They don’t budge, instead smothering me in pitch blackness, choking me with it until I’m gasping for air. Panicking, I send out an energy burst, hoping my power will shatter the darkness and return the shadows back to the fringes and hollows where they belong. But my power only feeds the nightmare, and suddenly the gloom transforms, just not in the way

Thoped.

Suddenly I’m ten years old again, locked in Garrick’s basement after losing my mother and wondering if I’ll ever see the outside world again. I’m too afraid to cry out, he always hurts me when I complain or call for help. My body is already covered in bruises, I don’t want any more pain.

Luna? I think weakly, calling to my wolf. Are you there? 

She doesn’t answer, and I can feel tears of despair burning in my eyes. She can’t be gone, she’s the only thing I have left – my only friend in the world. Besides, it’s not possible for a wolf to live without their wolf… right?

Wait, my delirious mind thinks weakly, Why does this feel so familiar? Has this happened before?

“Selene!” A voice calls in the distance, sounding miles and miles away. “Luna?” I jerk my head up, hope zinging through my veins.

When the voice sounds again, I realize it’s not my wolf after all. “Come back to me now, Selene.” I know that voice. I just can’t place it. “You’ve gone too deep.”

Helene! I realize suddenly, returning to the present. All at once the details come

flooding back, Garrick’s basement was just a waking nightmare. I’m in Helene’s workshop, practicing my powers. But I didn’t mean to create so much darkness, I just wanted to make a trick of light – and I don’t have the first clue how to find my way back out of this mess.

can’t!”I cry, “I don’t know how to make it

created the darkness, you can make it

that simple!” I insist, “It’s

to the shadows Selene, it belongs to you.” Helene guides me firmly. “Take

pull the electrical currents swirling through the air back into my body. Come back, come back, come back. I think manically, I can’t stay trapped here, I

pup’s sweet face appears in my mind’s eye, and some of the crushing darkness eases.

you. But I started out channeling my feelings, I remind her,

because you let your fear take over, but a mother’s love is stronger than

as she says, I direct all my determination into getting home to my daughter and caring for my baby. Little by little, the web of shadows unwinds. Strands thin and break, letting in dappled rays of light until with one final tug, the darkness breaks and I collapse on the

• Helene kneels down next to me. “Just breathe darling.” She croons, “In and out, slowly. ”I’m still gulping in air like a fish out of water, and she squeezes my hand, “slower, Selene. Just inhale and hold it for a moment. Good, just like that.” She praises when I obey.

I

that being in the right frame of mind often made the difference between success and failure – and nothing grounds me better than my mate. “He always makes me feel stronger than

She prompts, “But then I started thinking about him too

.

confess, my voice thick with emotion. “I’m starting to show. He promised he’d be back by now… and the more time that passes, the more I think he’s never

and the betas. “They keep assuring me everything will be

“I share.

you afraid he’s dead?” She

something is wrong. I’m sure of it. He’d never go this long without

curious. “Alphas don’t give up easily, especially when it comes to their family’s safety. He might not know everything that’s happening here, and if he does,

we’re in danger here too.” I confess, explaining about

Helene abruptly takes my face in her hands, studying me closely. For anyone else her behavior would be considered odd, but

a minute. “He lives, but something is waylaying him. Something… or someone.” She releases me, striding to her shelves. “T’U look into it,

how?”

her methods. Some things are not meant for me to know – or so Helene says. “In the meantime, you need to work on controlling your

using Lila to ground myself instead of Bastien.” I decide, remembering Luna’s words. . “No.” Helene replies, surprising me. “Running from the problem isn’t going to help anything. I think it’s good for you to get lost like you did today, and to work through the darkness rather than avoiding it altother. I know it wasn’t pleasant, but the more comfortable you become facing your fears, the better.” She continues, multitasking as she pours varying amounts of herbs and oils into a bowt.