Secrets of Us A Forbidden Love Romance (Alina)

Chapter 170

What Are We Even Doing?

One line.

Relief floods through me so fast my knees buckle.

"It's negative," I say, half laughing.

Nikki gasps.

I drop my elbows onto the counter and let my hand fall onto my palms. "Oh, my. It's negative."

I want to cry, want to shudder as the tension and anxiety leaves my body like it is being pulled out of me with a force much stronger than mine. I'm not pregnant. My mind floods open, finally letting myself think about the things I have been shoving back.

The panic hits just as fast. My throat tightens.

I was so stupid, reckless. I didn't want to use protections, but now that I was facing the consequences firsthand, I wanted to slap myself.

What if next time I'm not so lucky? What does that mean for us? For me? For them?

"Wait,

," Nikki says, leaning down to look at the test.

The panic in me rises further and I watch her as her eyes narrow.

"I see... I think I see a faint line."

No. No, no, no, no. I look again. I can't tell if it's real or my brain playing tricks. “I don't

know. If there's a line, it's really faint."

Nikki grabs the box and reads the instructions again. "It says even a faint line could mean

you're pregnant."

I stare at the test, my stomach twisting. We're both staring at it now, silent, like if we look

long enough, it will be clearer.

I grab the test and pick it up, holding it closer and up against the light. Maybe

can't see the

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We Even

what

an appointment with an OB. Get a

nod slowly, dragging my fingers through

grab some toilet paper and wrap the test, walking out

says nothing, but she follows me with a curious

my skin and snaps me into focus for half a second. I toss the test in the big trash bin and slam the lid

walk back in and head to my room where I find the box of pregnancy tests and hide it in my bottom drawer beneath a

my

to stop the tears. "I don't know what to

feet fast, pulling me in for a hug. I

I ask, letting her lead me to

she soothes, her hands

I pull away from her hold so we can look at each other. She

Aiden and Zaid be fathers or brothers?

lips part like she's going to say something, but she closes

to stop the words. "If

at

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Are We Even

Is this even something that can

to really face the consequences and difficulties of being with more than

future with all of

Forgot about that," Nikki whispers, looking just a tad disgusted with

breaks. "It's too

head tilting as she

I nod, hyperventilating.

figure out if you're pregnant

my eyes. A

talk to them. Figure out what this relationship means to all of you. I

more than sex?"

my chest. "It is for me.

is it

understanding the pain in my eyes. "Then you all need to

be having the same questions. It's

bump her shoulder with mine, trying to add some lightness to the situation. "So

your age."