Secrets of Us A Forbidden Love Romance (Alina)

Chapter 170

What Are We Even Doing?

One line.

Relief floods through me so fast my knees buckle.

"It's negative," I say, half laughing.

Nikki gasps.

I drop my elbows onto the counter and let my hand fall onto my palms. "Oh, my. It's negative."

I want to cry, want to shudder as the tension and anxiety leaves my body like it is being pulled out of me with a force much stronger than mine. I'm not pregnant. My mind floods open, finally letting myself think about the things I have been shoving back.

The panic hits just as fast. My throat tightens.

I was so stupid, reckless. I didn't want to use protections, but now that I was facing the consequences firsthand, I wanted to slap myself.

What if next time I'm not so lucky? What does that mean for us? For me? For them?

"Wait,

," Nikki says, leaning down to look at the test.

The panic in me rises further and I watch her as her eyes narrow.

"I see... I think I see a faint line."

No. No, no, no, no. I look again. I can't tell if it's real or my brain playing tricks. “I don't

know. If there's a line, it's really faint."

Nikki grabs the box and reads the instructions again. "It says even a faint line could mean

you're pregnant."

I stare at the test, my stomach twisting. We're both staring at it now, silent, like if we look

long enough, it will be clearer.

I grab the test and pick it up, holding it closer and up against the light. Maybe

chew on my lips. I can't see the line Nikki does, but

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determine what I'm

need to make an appointment with an

nod slowly, dragging my fingers through my

grab some toilet paper and wrap the test, walking out of the

but she follows me with a curious look, her steps soft and

the stairs, through the back door. The warm air hits my skin and snaps me into focus for half a second. I toss the test in the big trash bin and

stands at the door with wide eyes. We walk back in and head to my room where I find the box of pregnancy

onto the edge of my bed. "Why

stop the tears. "I don't know

in for

ask, letting her lead me to

soothes, her hands going

from her hold so we can look at each other. She frowns slightly,

it's Jake's, would Aiden and Zaid be fathers or brothers? Would I then break up with

going to say something, but she closes her mouth and frowns, clearly thinking it's complicated,

stop the words.

grimaces at that

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even something that can last? Will I marry one of them? All

purses her lips together as my entire life explodes around me. I was never made to really face the consequences and difficulties of being with more

even a future with all of

Forgot about that,"

breaks. "It's

rubs my back, her head tilting as she looks at me. "One step at a time,

I nod, hyperventilating.

to figure out if

eyes. A

what this relationship means

more than sex?"

heart lurches in my chest. "It is for me. I don't

is it

understanding the pain in my eyes. "Then you all need to

same questions. It's good to

add some lightness to the situation. "So

your age."