Secrets of Us A Forbidden Love Romance (Alina)

Chapter 170

What Are We Even Doing?

One line.

Relief floods through me so fast my knees buckle.

"It's negative," I say, half laughing.

Nikki gasps.

I drop my elbows onto the counter and let my hand fall onto my palms. "Oh, my. It's negative."

I want to cry, want to shudder as the tension and anxiety leaves my body like it is being pulled out of me with a force much stronger than mine. I'm not pregnant. My mind floods open, finally letting myself think about the things I have been shoving back.

The panic hits just as fast. My throat tightens.

I was so stupid, reckless. I didn't want to use protections, but now that I was facing the consequences firsthand, I wanted to slap myself.

What if next time I'm not so lucky? What does that mean for us? For me? For them?

"Wait,

," Nikki says, leaning down to look at the test.

The panic in me rises further and I watch her as her eyes narrow.

"I see... I think I see a faint line."

No. No, no, no, no. I look again. I can't tell if it's real or my brain playing tricks. “I don't

know. If there's a line, it's really faint."

Nikki grabs the box and reads the instructions again. "It says even a faint line could mean

you're pregnant."

I stare at the test, my stomach twisting. We're both staring at it now, silent, like if we look

long enough, it will be clearer.

I grab the test and pick it up, holding it closer and up against the light. Maybe

a line? I chew on my lips. I can't see the line Nikki does, but what

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We

what

to make an appointment with an

dragging my fingers through

toilet paper and wrap the test, walking out of the

nothing, but she follows me with a curious look, her steps soft and

skin and snaps me into focus for half a second. I toss the test in the

head to my room where I find

herself onto the edge of my bed. "Why are you being so

to stop the

pulling me in for a

if I am pregnant?" I ask, letting her lead me to sit at the

she soothes, her hands going up and

would that even mean?" I pull away from her hold so we can look at each other. She frowns slightly, not

or brothers? Would I then break

something, but she closes her mouth and frowns, clearly

able to stop the words. "If it's

grimaces at

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Are We Even

something that can

me. I was never made to really face the consequences and difficulties of being with more

even a future

about that," Nikki whispers, looking just a tad

voice breaks.

head tilting as she looks at me.

I nod, hyperventilating.

need to figure out

eyes. A plan. Steps. I can do

talk to them. Figure out what this relationship means to all of

more than sex?"

"It is for me. I don't

is it

eyes. "Then you

be having the same questions. It's good to talk about

her shoulder with mine, trying to add some lightness to

your age."