Secrets of Us A Forbidden Love Romance (Alina)

Chapter 170

What Are We Even Doing?

One line.

Relief floods through me so fast my knees buckle.

"It's negative," I say, half laughing.

Nikki gasps.

I drop my elbows onto the counter and let my hand fall onto my palms. "Oh, my. It's negative."

I want to cry, want to shudder as the tension and anxiety leaves my body like it is being pulled out of me with a force much stronger than mine. I'm not pregnant. My mind floods open, finally letting myself think about the things I have been shoving back.

The panic hits just as fast. My throat tightens.

I was so stupid, reckless. I didn't want to use protections, but now that I was facing the consequences firsthand, I wanted to slap myself.

What if next time I'm not so lucky? What does that mean for us? For me? For them?

"Wait,

," Nikki says, leaning down to look at the test.

The panic in me rises further and I watch her as her eyes narrow.

"I see... I think I see a faint line."

No. No, no, no, no. I look again. I can't tell if it's real or my brain playing tricks. “I don't

know. If there's a line, it's really faint."

Nikki grabs the box and reads the instructions again. "It says even a faint line could mean

you're pregnant."

I stare at the test, my stomach twisting. We're both staring at it now, silent, like if we look

long enough, it will be clearer.

I grab the test and pick it up, holding it closer and up against the light. Maybe

see

1/4

We

determine what

need to make an appointment

slowly, dragging my fingers through my

I grab some toilet paper and wrap the test, walking out of the

follows me with a curious look, her steps soft

of the room, down the stairs, through the back door. The warm air hits my skin and snaps me into focus for half a second. I toss the test in the big trash

my room where I find the

my bed.

the tears. "I don't know

pulling me in for a

if I am pregnant?" I ask, letting her lead me to sit at the edge of

okay,” she soothes, her hands going up

mean, what would that even mean?" I pull away from her hold so we can look

and Zaid be fathers or brothers? Would I

say something, but she closes her mouth and frowns, clearly thinking it's complicated,

the words. "If it's Aiden's,

at

2/4

We

even something that can last?

as my entire life explodes around me. I was never made to really face the consequences and difficulties of being with more

a future with all of

mom is still Jake's wife. Forgot about that," Nikki whispers, looking

voice breaks. "It's too

back, her head tilting as she looks

I nod, hyperventilating.

figure out

nod, closing my eyes. A

this relationship means to all of you.

more than sex?"

is for me. I don't know

is it

eyes. "Then you all

having the same questions. It's good to talk

with mine, trying to add some lightness to

your age."