Secrets of Us A Forbidden Love Romance (Alina)

Chapter 170

What Are We Even Doing?

One line.

Relief floods through me so fast my knees buckle.

"It's negative," I say, half laughing.

Nikki gasps.

I drop my elbows onto the counter and let my hand fall onto my palms. "Oh, my. It's negative."

I want to cry, want to shudder as the tension and anxiety leaves my body like it is being pulled out of me with a force much stronger than mine. I'm not pregnant. My mind floods open, finally letting myself think about the things I have been shoving back.

The panic hits just as fast. My throat tightens.

I was so stupid, reckless. I didn't want to use protections, but now that I was facing the consequences firsthand, I wanted to slap myself.

What if next time I'm not so lucky? What does that mean for us? For me? For them?

"Wait,

," Nikki says, leaning down to look at the test.

The panic in me rises further and I watch her as her eyes narrow.

"I see... I think I see a faint line."

No. No, no, no, no. I look again. I can't tell if it's real or my brain playing tricks. “I don't

know. If there's a line, it's really faint."

Nikki grabs the box and reads the instructions again. "It says even a faint line could mean

you're pregnant."

I stare at the test, my stomach twisting. We're both staring at it now, silent, like if we look

long enough, it will be clearer.

I grab the test and pick it up, holding it closer and up against the light. Maybe

line? I chew on my lips. I can't see the line Nikki does, but what if I'm just letting

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what I'm

sighs. "You need to make an appointment with an

slowly, dragging my

and wrap the test, walking out

a curious look, her steps soft and

back door. The warm air hits my skin and snaps me into focus for half a second. I toss the test in the big trash bin and slam the lid shut like

to my room where I find the box of pregnancy tests and

of my bed. "Why are you being so

the

on her feet fast, pulling me in for a

am pregnant?" I ask, letting her lead me to sit at the

she soothes, her hands going up and down

it? I mean, what would that even mean?" I pull away from her hold so we can look at

and Zaid be fathers or brothers?

lips part like she's going to say something, but she closes her mouth and frowns, clearly thinking it's

words. "If it's Aiden's, is Jake a father or

grimaces at

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hell are we doing? Is this even something that can last? Will I

life explodes around me. I was never made to really face the consequences and difficulties of being

future with

Forgot about that," Nikki whispers, looking just a

voice breaks. "It's

back, her head tilting as she

I nod, hyperventilating.

to figure out if you're pregnant

my eyes. A plan. Steps. I can

to them. Figure out what this relationship means to

more than sex?"

lurches in my chest. "It is for me. I don't know about

is it

understanding the pain in my eyes. "Then you all need to talk.

be having the same questions. It's good to talk

add some lightness

your age."