Secrets of Us A Forbidden Love Romance (Alina)

Chapter 170

What Are We Even Doing?

One line.

Relief floods through me so fast my knees buckle.

"It's negative," I say, half laughing.

Nikki gasps.

I drop my elbows onto the counter and let my hand fall onto my palms. "Oh, my. It's negative."

I want to cry, want to shudder as the tension and anxiety leaves my body like it is being pulled out of me with a force much stronger than mine. I'm not pregnant. My mind floods open, finally letting myself think about the things I have been shoving back.

The panic hits just as fast. My throat tightens.

I was so stupid, reckless. I didn't want to use protections, but now that I was facing the consequences firsthand, I wanted to slap myself.

What if next time I'm not so lucky? What does that mean for us? For me? For them?

"Wait,

," Nikki says, leaning down to look at the test.

The panic in me rises further and I watch her as her eyes narrow.

"I see... I think I see a faint line."

No. No, no, no, no. I look again. I can't tell if it's real or my brain playing tricks. “I don't

know. If there's a line, it's really faint."

Nikki grabs the box and reads the instructions again. "It says even a faint line could mean

you're pregnant."

I stare at the test, my stomach twisting. We're both staring at it now, silent, like if we look

long enough, it will be clearer.

I grab the test and pick it up, holding it closer and up against the light. Maybe

see the line Nikki does, but what if I'm just

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We

what

appointment with an OB. Get a real

nod slowly, dragging my fingers through my

and wrap the test, walking

but she follows me with a

my skin and snaps me into focus for half a second. I toss the test in the big trash bin and slam the lid shut like that will

We walk back in and head to my room where I find the box of pregnancy tests and hide it in my bottom drawer beneath a bunch of

the edge of my bed. "Why are

don't even try to stop the tears.

me in for a hug. I collapse

letting her lead me

be okay,” she soothes, her hands going up and down

I pull away from her hold so we can look at each other. She frowns slightly, not really

Zaid be fathers or brothers? Would I then

lips part like she's going to say something, but she closes her mouth and frowns,

going, not able to stop the words. "If it's Aiden's, is

at that

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We Even

mean, what the hell are we doing? Is this even something

her lips together as my entire life explodes around me. I was never made to really face the consequences and difficulties of

future

that your mom is still Jake's wife. Forgot about

voice breaks.

her head tilting as she looks at me. "One step

I nod, hyperventilating.

need to figure out if you're

my eyes. A plan. Steps. I

this relationship

more than sex?"

is for

is it

understanding the pain in my eyes. "Then you all need to talk.

be having the same questions. It's good

with mine, trying to add some lightness to the situation.

your age."