Secrets of Us A Forbidden Love Romance (Alina)

Chapter 170

What Are We Even Doing?

One line.

Relief floods through me so fast my knees buckle.

"It's negative," I say, half laughing.

Nikki gasps.

I drop my elbows onto the counter and let my hand fall onto my palms. "Oh, my. It's negative."

I want to cry, want to shudder as the tension and anxiety leaves my body like it is being pulled out of me with a force much stronger than mine. I'm not pregnant. My mind floods open, finally letting myself think about the things I have been shoving back.

The panic hits just as fast. My throat tightens.

I was so stupid, reckless. I didn't want to use protections, but now that I was facing the consequences firsthand, I wanted to slap myself.

What if next time I'm not so lucky? What does that mean for us? For me? For them?

"Wait,

," Nikki says, leaning down to look at the test.

The panic in me rises further and I watch her as her eyes narrow.

"I see... I think I see a faint line."

No. No, no, no, no. I look again. I can't tell if it's real or my brain playing tricks. “I don't

know. If there's a line, it's really faint."

Nikki grabs the box and reads the instructions again. "It says even a faint line could mean

you're pregnant."

I stare at the test, my stomach twisting. We're both staring at it now, silent, like if we look

long enough, it will be clearer.

I grab the test and pick it up, holding it closer and up against the light. Maybe

I chew on my lips. I can't see the line Nikki does, but what if I'm

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what I'm

sighs. "You need to make an appointment

dragging my fingers through

grab some toilet paper and wrap

but she follows me with a curious look, her steps soft

the room, down the stairs, through the back door. The warm air hits my skin and snaps me into focus for half a second. I toss

to my room where I find the box of pregnancy tests and

the edge of my

stop the tears. "I don't

fast, pulling me in for

ask, letting her lead me

she soothes, her hands going

from her hold so we can look at each other. She frowns slightly, not really understanding

be fathers or brothers? Would I then

she closes her mouth and frowns, clearly thinking it's complicated,

words. "If it's Aiden's, is

grimaces at

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this even something that can last? Will I marry one of them? All

purses her lips together as my entire life explodes around me. I was never made to really face the consequences and difficulties of being with more than one person. How will this

future with

mom is still Jake's wife. Forgot about that," Nikki whispers, looking just

breaks. "It's

my back, her head tilting as she looks at me. "One step at a time,

I nod, hyperventilating.

out if you're pregnant

nod, closing my eyes. A plan.

to them. Figure out what this relationship means

more than sex?"

"It is for me. I

is it

in my eyes. "Then you all need

be having the same questions. It's good to

mine, trying to add some lightness

your age."