Secrets of Us A Forbidden Love Romance (Alina)

Chapter 250

On the envelope, in Zaid's handwriting, it says: Letter 1 of 365.

I blink. My heart hammers in my ears and I rip open the envelope, taking out the single piece of paper.

My love,

You're probably confused right now. Maybe a little mad. Maybe even ad. I'm sorry I didn't pick up when you called.

I need to give you space. I know I've said that so many times that you probably want to smack the words out of my mouth. But f want you to understand what I mean.

You need space. You deserve this. Every piece of it. You deserve to figure out who you are when you're not worried about me and what I'm doing and how I'm feeling.

I didn't answer when you called, not because I don't want to hear your voice, fuck, I'd kill to hear your voice right now. But because if I did, I would've begged you to stay.

I've had to keep my mouth shut the entire last week we spent together. I promised myself that I wouldn't ask you to stay. That I wouldn't be selfish when it comes to you.

I swore I would never love you selfishly.

Still, I know how hard it could be to be in a completely different country. I don't want you to feel alone, so I wrote your 365 letters. One for everyday you'll be gone.

Your aunt has graciously agreed to be my partner in crime and she has every single letter I have written for you. She has agreed to give you one every morning.

You don't have to read them all. But I hope you do. I hope each one becomes a small reminder for you when the world feels too heavy or too far from home.

That I love you and I am cheering you on from the other side of the world.

This is my way of being there without being there. This year is for you, my love.

Not for us. Not for me. Just you.

worry about me. I'll be

if you ever need me, if it's truly too much to where not even my words written on paper can silence the nightmares, just send me an SOS.

that?

much I love you. So much it hurts in my chest when I think of you walking streets I'm not on, breathing air I

I saw you for that first time in detention, I was obsessed. I didn't try

eyes and pursed lips, like you wanted to hide. Like you

did I notice

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seen. I told myself 14 get you into my bed and get you out of my system. That's what I had always done up until then. That's what I knew. But then, saw the sadness in your eyes.

worn it too. And knew, right then, I couldn't let you walk away. Not witho knowing you. Not without learning how to make

I got to know you, the more I

that. But loving you fast doesn't make it mean less. If anything, it made it impossible to

everything I never let

can't breathe. I'd do anything for you.

you this year is easy

one day you fall in love with

more to me

after these 365 days, know that I'll be waiting. My soul is already

my love. Go be fun and brave and messy. Don't worry about what I would think, about what might make me jealous, about what I would want

that you were never given before

day. In

Zaid

crumpled between my fingers, my chest so

press the letter to my chest and

shut.