Secrets of Us A Forbidden Love Romance (Alina)

Chapter 250

On the envelope, in Zaid's handwriting, it says: Letter 1 of 365.

I blink. My heart hammers in my ears and I rip open the envelope, taking out the single piece of paper.

My love,

You're probably confused right now. Maybe a little mad. Maybe even ad. I'm sorry I didn't pick up when you called.

I need to give you space. I know I've said that so many times that you probably want to smack the words out of my mouth. But f want you to understand what I mean.

You need space. You deserve this. Every piece of it. You deserve to figure out who you are when you're not worried about me and what I'm doing and how I'm feeling.

I didn't answer when you called, not because I don't want to hear your voice, fuck, I'd kill to hear your voice right now. But because if I did, I would've begged you to stay.

I've had to keep my mouth shut the entire last week we spent together. I promised myself that I wouldn't ask you to stay. That I wouldn't be selfish when it comes to you.

I swore I would never love you selfishly.

Still, I know how hard it could be to be in a completely different country. I don't want you to feel alone, so I wrote your 365 letters. One for everyday you'll be gone.

Your aunt has graciously agreed to be my partner in crime and she has every single letter I have written for you. She has agreed to give you one every morning.

You don't have to read them all. But I hope you do. I hope each one becomes a small reminder for you when the world feels too heavy or too far from home.

That I love you and I am cheering you on from the other side of the world.

This is my way of being there without being there. This year is for you, my love.

Not for us. Not for me. Just you.

worry about me. I'll

my words written on paper can

of that? Focus

you. It's ridiculous how much I love you. So much it hurts in my chest when I think of you walking streets I'm not on, breathing air

in detention, I was obsessed. I didn't try to fucking

like you wanted to hide. Like

fuck, did

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my bed and get you out of my system. That's what I had always done up until then. That's what I knew. But then, saw the sadness in your eyes. The pain you thought

armor? I've worn it too. And knew, right then, I couldn't let you walk away. Not witho knowing you. Not without

more

fell too fast, too hard. I'll admit that. But loving you fast doesn't make it mean less. If anything, it made it impossible

everything I never let myself

look at me, I can't breathe. I'd do

you this year is easy

you fall in love

joy means more

365 days, know that I'll be waiting.

worry about what I would

that time that you were never given before you met

be here. Every day. In every letter. Loving you in

Zaid

reach the end of the letter. The pages are crumpled between my fingers, my chest so tight it feels like breathing is something I have to remember

the letter to my

shut.