Secrets of Us A Forbidden Love Romance (Alina)

Chapter 250

On the envelope, in Zaid's handwriting, it says: Letter 1 of 365.

I blink. My heart hammers in my ears and I rip open the envelope, taking out the single piece of paper.

My love,

You're probably confused right now. Maybe a little mad. Maybe even ad. I'm sorry I didn't pick up when you called.

I need to give you space. I know I've said that so many times that you probably want to smack the words out of my mouth. But f want you to understand what I mean.

You need space. You deserve this. Every piece of it. You deserve to figure out who you are when you're not worried about me and what I'm doing and how I'm feeling.

I didn't answer when you called, not because I don't want to hear your voice, fuck, I'd kill to hear your voice right now. But because if I did, I would've begged you to stay.

I've had to keep my mouth shut the entire last week we spent together. I promised myself that I wouldn't ask you to stay. That I wouldn't be selfish when it comes to you.

I swore I would never love you selfishly.

Still, I know how hard it could be to be in a completely different country. I don't want you to feel alone, so I wrote your 365 letters. One for everyday you'll be gone.

Your aunt has graciously agreed to be my partner in crime and she has every single letter I have written for you. She has agreed to give you one every morning.

You don't have to read them all. But I hope you do. I hope each one becomes a small reminder for you when the world feels too heavy or too far from home.

That I love you and I am cheering you on from the other side of the world.

This is my way of being there without being there. This year is for you, my love.

Not for us. Not for me. Just you.

about me. I'll be

much to where not even my words written on paper can silence the nightmares,

short of that? Focus

ridiculous how much I love you. So much it hurts in my chest when I think of

in detention, I was obsessed. I didn't try to fucking

lips, like you wanted to hide. Like you didn't want anyone to notice

did I

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you out of my system. That's what I had always done up until then. That's what I knew. But then, saw the sadness in your eyes. The

around like armor? I've worn it too. And knew, right then, I couldn't let you walk away. Not witho knowing you. Not without learning how to make that

more I got to know you, the more I knew you

I'll admit that. But loving you fast doesn't make it mean less. If anything, it

everything I never

look at me, I can't breathe. I'd do anything for

is easy for me to

as much as I don't want to admit this, if one day you fall in love

joy means more to me than

be waiting. My soul is already yours,

Don't worry about what I would think, about what might make me jealous, about what I would want or would

you were never

be here. Every day. In

Zaid

time I reach the end of the letter. The pages are crumpled between my fingers, my chest so tight it feels like

I press the letter to my chest and squeeze

shut.