Shackled (The Lord Series) by Amy T

190. Olivia - Taken I

*I'm still dealing with that pain.*

Ansel arranges the pillows before helping me get in a comfortable position. It's been a few minutes since I came to my senses and after making sure I was okay, Jasper and Mose went to the kitchen to bring me something to eat, despite me insisting that I wasn't hungry. The pain in my lower abdomen is mainly gone, but I feel sick and I don't think I can stomach anything right now.

Ansel helps me put on a t-shirt and a pair of warm socks. "What happened? Was I too rough with you?"

He sounds worried and he isn't faking it either. I place a hand against his cheek, wanting to comfort him. "You were perfect. No one has ever made love to me before." A lump forms in my throat. "You are giving me so many firsts and I don't deserve them."

Why am I so vulnerable with him? It's been years since I've been so open with someone.

Ansel sits next to me on the bed. "You deserve to be happy and loved—”

I put a finger against his lips, not wanting him to say another word. "If you knew the things I did. If you understood the gravity of my actions, you would hate me as much as Tyson and Rueben do. You would regret bonding with me. It's not too late to break it."

His jaw clenches. “No, Honey. You are mine for eternity. And whatever you did, let me help you. Let me love you.” I shake my head, but he keeps talking. “What really happened the night Camila died?”

My chin trembles and tears fall down my cheeks. "I... It should have been me. This is all my fault. All of it."

Ansel pulls me into his arms and kisses the top of my head. "You are safe now, Olivia. No one will ever harm you again."

"You don't understand. I broke "

Someone clears his throat, stopping me from revealing too much.

eyes to the open door. Tyson is standing there

bowl to the same level as

rises to my throat and I rush to the bathroom and empty my stomach in

follows me and holds my hair back while rubbing my back as

Mose?" Ansel asks and I

sink and rinse my mouth with water. "Tell Tyson that, while I appreciate his, um, gesture, I hate macaroni and cheese. Even thinking about it makes me sick." "I

face before looking into the mirror. Tyson is in the bathroom's

me for trying to do something

“I didn't ask you to

Tyson snarls before storming

arm to steady myself. "I hope you won't fuck me, ever,” I mutter to

need to find Jason and get

need to get

me up in his arms and running out of the

the poor little cat hiding under a thin blanket. I never saw her leave

"What happened?" Ansel asks.

the shed, talking to Jason when he told me 'tick, tock,' Given

in the shed. Did they torture

is, we have to find

and he glares at me but picks me up in his

and I have to go inside and look for the bomb while Tyson and Mose look around the house. Since we can't leave Olivia alone, I thought it would be best if she stayed with you,” Ansel replies. Looking at the others, he says, “Come on, we have a job to do!" Jasper and Ansel run inside the house while Mose and Tyson go to search the

Miss Teapot and take her out of the basket and cradle her to my chest. She is shivering as hard as I am. "Where is Diva?" I