Shackled (The Lord Series) by Amy T

219. Olivia - Panic III

Rueben is right. So is Jason. I'm so stupid I can't follow one simple order. Don't cum. So simple. "I'm s-sorry," I whimper.

Tyson growls. "I'm not going to ask again. Because if I do, you'll be choking on your teeth."

"Tyson, let us make this right," Jasper says.

"Don't fight me over this because I fucking swear I'll cut all your hands before you can touch her again," Tyson grits his teeth. "Just give her to me!"

Reluctantly, Ansel hands me over to Tyson. I cling to him and bury my face in the crock of his neck, my tears wetting his skin.

"I'm going to take care of you," Tyson says as he walks out of the kitchen and takes me to his office and locks the door behind us. He sits on a sofa and puts a blanket around us. "You did well."

I shake my head. More tears escape my eyes, landing on Tyson's neck. He rubs my back while letting me cry, rocking me gently back and forth, helping me calm down.

"I screwed up everything like I always do. Mose prepared a lovely dinner and what did I do? Cum when I was specifically told not to do it. I'm so fucking stupid."

Tyson has me look at him. He frowns before cleaning my face with a corner of the blanket. "You're not stupid. Also, Jasper, Mose, and Ansel didn't spank you because they were angry at you." "But they punished me. Surely, they must be angry at me. What is wrong with me?"

Tyson grabs my face between his palms. "There's nothing wrong with you."

"There must be because I keep getting punished even when it's not my fault. I didn't want to cum but I couldn't... I couldn't..."

I choke on my words and Tyson pulls me back into his chest.

"It's alright to cum and to enjoy yourself during sex."

I shake my head. More tears swirl in my eyes. "No, it's wrong. I learned my lesson. It was better when my body never reacted to what men did to me. It was better when I was fucked until blood ran down my legs." "Look at me!"

from

as I

you were having a panic attack. They didn't spank you because you had an orgasm but because they wanted you to have

could I have fun when I was being punished? They meant to harm

"They didn't mean it like that. You see, Mose...has some kinks. Spanking is one of them. It can be

punishment be erotic? "I don't

me show you," he says before

to stop him, instead

any man's touch, but Tyson knows how to kiss. I melt in his arms. His tongue strokes mine. His fingers flips my hair over my shoulder and his lips descend to my neck. He bites my flesh and sucks it while his fingers pinch my nipples to the point of pain. But it also feels good enough to encite a moan

nod. "Even if

but it's best to stop talking about it.

palms cup my

you cleaned. You still

more of Tyson's time, I say, "I'll leave then. Probably, the

trauma. Besides, you are staying

bottom lip. My ass hurts but I can endure it. "You warned me about stepping inside your office. And why would I want to spend the night

want you with me because you

"I don't believe for one second that you won't hurt me. Also, you didn't give a shit about me all these years. Neither did Rueben or Ansel. Suddenly you do. Right. After what you did to me in the shed, I'm more scared of you than I am of Ansel, Jasper, or Mose." Tyson

something but something snaps inside me and I

take down my father with the help of

His tone is calm but he doesn't fool me. "I mean, that was

snort. "And what am I doing here

"You already know."

"No, Tyson, I don't."

interrupts our come to Jesus