Shackled (The Lord Series) by Amy T

286. Olivia - Opening up I

Tyson presses his lips to my jaw. "It's probably nothing."

I'm sure I heard something coming from outside, but I drop the issue, not wanting to get Tyson angry since he wants some pussy. This is why I'm here: to open my legs whenever one of the guys wants some release. And pop out babies for them. Thank fuck, that will never happen.

Tyson's hand slides inside my pants, his fingers brushing against my skin. My body ignites. I bite my bottom lip. I resist the urge to spread my legs for him, but all the training from the Celestial Heaven rushes to my mind, and my body takes

over.

"That's it, Little Rabbit." His finger slips between my folds. "Look how wet you are," he murmurs. "This is going to be our first time."

He's killing me with how loving he is right now. I hate how my body wants him despite everything he did to me. I bite the inside of my cheek, trying to clear my head. He can fuck me since there's no way of me stopping him, but I refuse to enjoy this. I refuse to give him even more power over me.

trail down my

fucking," I say. Tyson jerks up his head. I yank his hand away from my pussy. "You

destroyed myself to keep him safe. All the years that I suffered, he was living his best life, not giving a shit about me. "Your first time was awful," he tries to argue with me.

time was special because it resulted in me getting pregnant. Spencer might not mean anything to you, but he was everything

about him, but you don't know how much it hurts to learn that I'll never get to hold him. To be his dad. Leo and Sean mocked me, one moment claiming

don't believe Tyson. How could he possibly love Spencer when he came from me, a slut without morals? That's how all men see me damaged goods. Unworthy of their time and affection. Tyson doesn't have to pretend to care for me to

the first to make love to me. Jasper was the first to show me my kindness when I was brought here. He saw me. He saw my pain. If not for him, I would be dead right now," and I see pain in his eyes, I don't care. I'm too emotionally drained to

times while here because of you and Rueben. You hurt me. You broke my toes. Remember? You tortured me. If

do to control my emotions. I talk over him. "Nothing is going to be the same. Not us, not our relationship. I was raped for years while you bounced from woman to woman. The bond between us means nothing. I don't want it to mean anything." I know I shouldn't say this, but even so, the words come out. "If you would have truly loved me, Spencer would still be here. I can never trust another man with my heart because of you. You are the reason why I don't want to have more children. You have no idea how much it hurts because I wanted to be Spencer's mom so badly. I still want a large family, but I can't. The idea of being pregnant makes me psychically ill because all I think about is the life fading away from my baby's eyes, of

and you thought I betrayed our love. You are the one who broke us." Tears run down Tyson's cheeks. I hope he's in pain

my mouth, sharper than

and you changed after Ansel showed you the