Shackled (The Lord Series) by Amy T

287. Olivia - Opening up II

That's why I keep taking the drugs Jason gives me because I want to forget ever loving Tyson. But then I'd have to forget about Spencer, but the memory of him is the only thing that kept me going all this time.

Trembling fingers caress my cheek. "I wanted to ask for your forgiveness even before the videos." Such a lair. "But then your father came here and ruined my plans.... I love you so much. Seeing how much I hurt you it's breaking me apart." Good. I hope his heart shatters in a million pieces, just like mine did.

"How convenient of you to love me now when you saw the truth. Whatever you feel, it's not love. It's a mirage, an illusion, the want of something that doesn't exist anymore."

I get out of bed. Tyson doesn't try to stop me. Instead, he says, "Little Rabbit, don't run away from me."

"I am not your Little Rabbit anymore. Don't call me that ever again. I am Olivia."

I go to the door.

"I don't know what's worse-not being on drugs and remembering everything or knowing that your feelings for me suddenly returned just because you saw men rape me and beat me for years while you got your dick wet without any remorse whatsoever."

"It wasn't like "

I don't wait for him to finish and leave his office.

The house is quiet, and I'm glad because I don't want to bump into any of the other guys until I clear my head. The things I said to Tyson... I'd be surprised if he doesn't kill me in the next minute or so. It would be a small mercy if he does. I go to the kitchen to drink a glass of water because all that talking left my throat dry when I hear the noise again. This time, I know I wasn't imagining it. I rush to open the backdoor.

"There you are,” I say. Moments later, I'm running through the house. "Jasper!" I'm pretty sure my screams will wake up everyone, but I'm too happy to care. Jasper doesn't want to see me. Maybe it was another lie. I shouldn't trust what Rueben tells me. "Jasper!"

his room. "Olivia,

and Mose, with guns in their hands, also rush to the

as I burst into Jasper's

his left leg in a cast, and he is trying to stand with the help of

me or my father-which I'm sure is behind Jasper's broken leg-and it makes me forgive him for abandoning me when he found out I couldn't have children. "Stupid leg," he mutters when he gets up,

his name. "I just wanted to let you know that Miss Teacup is back." Jasper hobbles to where I am. "I missed you much," he

him, too. "You don't seem

"I'm glad that she's back safe and sound, but I was more worried about you." Between us, Miss Teacup starts to purr. "My woman is back. My cat is back. Mose is back. My

for your leg," I

me again. "What

a bad idea. It's not that I wanted to leave Mose alone. That was a lie I told myself. I...missed Jasper and Ansel. Maybe Tyson too, but just a little bit. How awful to miss someone, but how beautiful to see

of Miss Teacup. She looks like she needs a good meal. Are her things still

How about I help?"

leg before my gaze trails up. "How about

eyes flash red. "Yes,

to stay put, then I'll let him believe that when I crawl into his bed to take a nap since

lips to Jasper's cheek. "Good boy," I whisper against his skin. A groan leaves him. "I'll be quick," I say before stepping

Rueben have already returned to their usual routines. I

them far away from you, not fanning all over you like

decency to explay why he lied about Tyson and Jasper not wanting to see me. But to expect that of Rueben is like wishing that the sun would