Shackled (The Lord Series) by Amy T

287. Olivia - Opening up II

That's why I keep taking the drugs Jason gives me because I want to forget ever loving Tyson. But then I'd have to forget about Spencer, but the memory of him is the only thing that kept me going all this time.

Trembling fingers caress my cheek. "I wanted to ask for your forgiveness even before the videos." Such a lair. "But then your father came here and ruined my plans.... I love you so much. Seeing how much I hurt you it's breaking me apart." Good. I hope his heart shatters in a million pieces, just like mine did.

"How convenient of you to love me now when you saw the truth. Whatever you feel, it's not love. It's a mirage, an illusion, the want of something that doesn't exist anymore."

I get out of bed. Tyson doesn't try to stop me. Instead, he says, "Little Rabbit, don't run away from me."

"I am not your Little Rabbit anymore. Don't call me that ever again. I am Olivia."

I go to the door.

"I don't know what's worse-not being on drugs and remembering everything or knowing that your feelings for me suddenly returned just because you saw men rape me and beat me for years while you got your dick wet without any remorse whatsoever."

"It wasn't like "

I don't wait for him to finish and leave his office.

The house is quiet, and I'm glad because I don't want to bump into any of the other guys until I clear my head. The things I said to Tyson... I'd be surprised if he doesn't kill me in the next minute or so. It would be a small mercy if he does. I go to the kitchen to drink a glass of water because all that talking left my throat dry when I hear the noise again. This time, I know I wasn't imagining it. I rush to open the backdoor.

"There you are,” I say. Moments later, I'm running through the house. "Jasper!" I'm pretty sure my screams will wake up everyone, but I'm too happy to care. Jasper doesn't want to see me. Maybe it was another lie. I shouldn't trust what Rueben tells me. "Jasper!"

out of his

guns in their hands, also rush to the hallway, but when they realize what's happening,

I burst into Jasper's

is trying to stand with the help of a crutch. His gaze lands

is behind Jasper's broken leg-and it makes me forgive him for abandoning me when he found out I couldn't have children. "Stupid leg," he

because Jasper is so funny about being upset about something he can't control. I finally show him why I was calling his name. "I just wanted to let you know

don't seem that happy

and sound, but I was more worried about you." Between us, Miss Teacup starts to purr. "My woman is back. My cat is back. Mose is back. My life is

your leg," I

kisses me again.

I wanted to leave Mose alone. That was a lie I told myself. I...missed Jasper and Ansel. Maybe Tyson too,

take care of Miss Teacup. She looks like she needs a good meal. Are her things still in

I help?" Jasper

zero my eyes on his bad leg before my gaze trails up. "How about you wait for me in

flash red. "Yes,

stay put, then I'll let him believe that when I crawl into his bed to take a nap since last night left me exausted, I'll actually jump on his dick and ride

press my lips to Jasper's cheek. "Good boy," I whisper against his skin.

that Tyson and Rueben have

away from you, not fanning all over you like they

Tyson, I don't wonder he doesn't want to see me, but Rueben could at least have the decency to explay why he lied about Tyson and Jasper not wanting to see me. But to expect