Shackled (The Lord Series) by Amy T

287. Olivia - Opening up II

That's why I keep taking the drugs Jason gives me because I want to forget ever loving Tyson. But then I'd have to forget about Spencer, but the memory of him is the only thing that kept me going all this time.

Trembling fingers caress my cheek. "I wanted to ask for your forgiveness even before the videos." Such a lair. "But then your father came here and ruined my plans.... I love you so much. Seeing how much I hurt you it's breaking me apart." Good. I hope his heart shatters in a million pieces, just like mine did.

"How convenient of you to love me now when you saw the truth. Whatever you feel, it's not love. It's a mirage, an illusion, the want of something that doesn't exist anymore."

I get out of bed. Tyson doesn't try to stop me. Instead, he says, "Little Rabbit, don't run away from me."

"I am not your Little Rabbit anymore. Don't call me that ever again. I am Olivia."

I go to the door.

"I don't know what's worse-not being on drugs and remembering everything or knowing that your feelings for me suddenly returned just because you saw men rape me and beat me for years while you got your dick wet without any remorse whatsoever."

"It wasn't like "

I don't wait for him to finish and leave his office.

The house is quiet, and I'm glad because I don't want to bump into any of the other guys until I clear my head. The things I said to Tyson... I'd be surprised if he doesn't kill me in the next minute or so. It would be a small mercy if he does. I go to the kitchen to drink a glass of water because all that talking left my throat dry when I hear the noise again. This time, I know I wasn't imagining it. I rush to open the backdoor.

"There you are,” I say. Moments later, I'm running through the house. "Jasper!" I'm pretty sure my screams will wake up everyone, but I'm too happy to care. Jasper doesn't want to see me. Maybe it was another lie. I shouldn't trust what Rueben tells me. "Jasper!"

of his room. "Olivia, what's

rush

I burst

help of a crutch. His gaze lands on me. "Little Love."

it makes me forgive him for abandoning me

I was calling his name. "I just wanted to let you know that Miss Teacup is back." Jasper hobbles to where I

don't seem

I was more worried about you." Between us, Miss Teacup starts to purr. "My woman is back.

for your leg," I

kisses me again. "What

but the rest of them. Maybe returning to the farm wasn't such a bad idea. It's not that I wanted to leave Mose alone. That was a lie I told myself. I...missed Jasper and Ansel. Maybe Tyson too, but just a little bit. How awful to miss someone, but how beautiful to see they felt the

Miss Teacup. She looks like she needs a good meal.

How about I

his bad leg before my gaze trails

flash red. "Yes,

If it means he's going to stay put, then I'll let him believe that when I crawl into his bed to take a nap since last night

my lips to Jasper's cheek. "Good boy," I whisper against his skin. A groan leaves

the hallway. It stings that Tyson and Rueben have already returned to their

far away from you, not fanning all over you like they are

he doesn't want to see me, but Rueben could at least have the decency to explay why he lied about