Shackled (The Lord Series) by Amy T

287. Olivia - Opening up II

That's why I keep taking the drugs Jason gives me because I want to forget ever loving Tyson. But then I'd have to forget about Spencer, but the memory of him is the only thing that kept me going all this time.

Trembling fingers caress my cheek. "I wanted to ask for your forgiveness even before the videos." Such a lair. "But then your father came here and ruined my plans.... I love you so much. Seeing how much I hurt you it's breaking me apart." Good. I hope his heart shatters in a million pieces, just like mine did.

"How convenient of you to love me now when you saw the truth. Whatever you feel, it's not love. It's a mirage, an illusion, the want of something that doesn't exist anymore."

I get out of bed. Tyson doesn't try to stop me. Instead, he says, "Little Rabbit, don't run away from me."

"I am not your Little Rabbit anymore. Don't call me that ever again. I am Olivia."

I go to the door.

"I don't know what's worse-not being on drugs and remembering everything or knowing that your feelings for me suddenly returned just because you saw men rape me and beat me for years while you got your dick wet without any remorse whatsoever."

"It wasn't like "

I don't wait for him to finish and leave his office.

The house is quiet, and I'm glad because I don't want to bump into any of the other guys until I clear my head. The things I said to Tyson... I'd be surprised if he doesn't kill me in the next minute or so. It would be a small mercy if he does. I go to the kitchen to drink a glass of water because all that talking left my throat dry when I hear the noise again. This time, I know I wasn't imagining it. I rush to open the backdoor.

"There you are,” I say. Moments later, I'm running through the house. "Jasper!" I'm pretty sure my screams will wake up everyone, but I'm too happy to care. Jasper doesn't want to see me. Maybe it was another lie. I shouldn't trust what Rueben tells me. "Jasper!"

of his room. "Olivia,

guns in their hands, also rush to the hallway, but when

as I burst

leg in a cast, and he is trying to stand with the help of a crutch. His gaze lands on me. "Little Love." He sounds

his head. "A little accident." He doesn't blame me or my father-which I'm sure is behind Jasper's broken leg-and it makes me forgive him for abandoning me when he found out

being upset about something he can't control. I finally show him why I was calling his name. "I just wanted to let you know that Miss Teacup is back." Jasper hobbles to where I am. "I missed you much,"

"You don't seem that happy that Miss

pets Miss Teapot. "I'm glad that she's back safe and sound, but I was more worried about you." Between us, Miss Teacup

leg," I

kisses me

Maybe returning to the farm wasn't such a bad idea. It's not that I wanted to leave Mose alone. That was a lie I told myself. I...missed Jasper and Ansel. Maybe Tyson too, but just a

needs a good meal. Are her things still in

I help?" Jasper

leg before my gaze trails up. "How about you wait for

flash red.

then I'll let him believe that when I crawl into his bed to take a nap since last night left me exausted, I'll actually jump on his

whisper against his skin. A groan leaves him. "I'll be quick," I say before stepping

Ansel are waiting for me in the hallway. It stings that Tyson and Rueben have already returned to

from you, not fanning

to explay why he lied about Tyson and Jasper not wanting to see me. But to expect that of Rueben is like wishing that the sun would never