Shackled (The Lord Series) by Amy T

310. Rueben - Unlovable I

Diva knocks me on my back and starts licking my face. I can't say a word because as much as I like women to stick their tongues inside my mouth, Diva doesn't fall in that category. Besides, Olivia kissed me, and I want her taste on my lips, not Diva's drool. Nor can I use my hands to push her away since Olivia will get angry if I mess up my nails, so here I am, laying on the snow, waiting for Diva to get off of me. "Should we help him?" Olivia asks.

Yes! I definitely need help with my dog.

Diva licks the seam on my lips, and I press them together because who knows where the fuck she has been or what she has eaten, and I'm not about to find out. "Nah, he and Diva love each other to death," Tyson replies.

Fucking bastard! He is doing it on purpose so he can have Olivia all to himself right when she is finally warming up to me. I get why she hates my guts, but I'm trying to change. I've been angry for so long; it's all I know.

If only I knew how to be... husband material. I should try to be her boyfriend first, but I'm more than ready for the finish line. A family of my own was never my goal, but I want it with Olivia and my blood-brothers.

Now that I know the truth of how Camila died, I no longer blame Olivia for it. Sure, she might be the one who killed my sister, but it didn't happen the way the Senator told my parents it did. Despite knowing how sweet Olivia was, I made up lies inside my head about her until they became my new reality. Now that I can finally see her for who she is, it's hard not to go after the Dukes and torture them until they reveal where Carlos is hiding.

There are many who want him dead. If we want to find him, we need to be smart about it and not let every Duke out there know our plans.

Besides, Olivia needs us now more than ever. If we go chasing after Carlos, and something happens to her....

snarls in anger at the idea of Olivia in the hands of her father and brother, hurt. I

accept us; Tyson was the one who warned me about all the things that would go wrong if I did this. He didn't give any advice either, so I'm trying to sort out shit on my own. For days, I've been thinking about how to make Olivia fall

go get ready for

twitch with the need to push her in the snow. My demon wants to be with

Tyson gives Olivia the last push she needs. When Olivia is probably out of earshot, he tells me, "Don't you even think about screwing things up with Olivia. Not now. I'm keeping an eye on you. Hurt her in any way, and you are out," before

only fuck buddies, and I've never been in love. The only one I have ever liked is Olivia. Part of my anger was that she didn't choose me.

her until she accepts me as hers. He doesn't understand why she doesn't want us. That I...push away all those around me. That I hurt Olivia in a way no man should ever hurt a woman. That I have no fucking clue how to make it up to her. How the fuck do I even make up

Spencer might not have been mine biologically, but if he were to be alive, he would have five dads. I would be a...dad. Fuck. The Senator took that away from me. He took my son from me. I let that sink deep. A wave of rage hits me hard. I will rip him to

only reason why I never took the final step was because I wanted

minutes to calm down and let me get up. "Good girl. Now, go guard the horses," I tell her. Then

past. They were alone in his office today for at least an hour. Something happened between them. Maybe he finally convinced her to give him a second chance. I hope she did. Tyson might have made many mistakes, but he loves her. If not for Jason, they would be married with kids by now. After I change my clothes, I go to Jasper's room. Olivia spends more time here than anywhere else in the house or around the farm. Maybe it's the only place she

blue dress with a slit on the left side. She looks...stunning. She pretends I'm not here

fold my arms against my chest and lean against the doorframe so I can take my time to admire her better. I don't think I've ever done this before, but I appreciate the beauty of a woman. All I ever sought before was release;

Olivia finally acknowledges me as she puts on a