Shackled (The Lord Series) by Amy T

310. Rueben - Unlovable I

Diva knocks me on my back and starts licking my face. I can't say a word because as much as I like women to stick their tongues inside my mouth, Diva doesn't fall in that category. Besides, Olivia kissed me, and I want her taste on my lips, not Diva's drool. Nor can I use my hands to push her away since Olivia will get angry if I mess up my nails, so here I am, laying on the snow, waiting for Diva to get off of me. "Should we help him?" Olivia asks.

Yes! I definitely need help with my dog.

Diva licks the seam on my lips, and I press them together because who knows where the fuck she has been or what she has eaten, and I'm not about to find out. "Nah, he and Diva love each other to death," Tyson replies.

Fucking bastard! He is doing it on purpose so he can have Olivia all to himself right when she is finally warming up to me. I get why she hates my guts, but I'm trying to change. I've been angry for so long; it's all I know.

If only I knew how to be... husband material. I should try to be her boyfriend first, but I'm more than ready for the finish line. A family of my own was never my goal, but I want it with Olivia and my blood-brothers.

Now that I know the truth of how Camila died, I no longer blame Olivia for it. Sure, she might be the one who killed my sister, but it didn't happen the way the Senator told my parents it did. Despite knowing how sweet Olivia was, I made up lies inside my head about her until they became my new reality. Now that I can finally see her for who she is, it's hard not to go after the Dukes and torture them until they reveal where Carlos is hiding.

There are many who want him dead. If we want to find him, we need to be smart about it and not let every Duke out there know our plans.

Besides, Olivia needs us now more than ever. If we go chasing after Carlos, and something happens to her....

of her father and brother, hurt. I had enough with the days she was

my initial idea to seduce Olivia, to win her heart. I wanted to fuck her, to force her to accept us; Tyson was the one who warned me about all the things that would go wrong if I did this. He didn't give any advice either, so I'm trying to sort out shit on my own. For days, I've been thinking about how to make Olivia fall for me, but nothing comes to my

that case, I'll go get ready for the Blood Lodge,"

My fingers twitch with the need to push her in the snow. My demon wants to be with

"Don't you even think about screwing things up with Olivia. Not now. I'm keeping an eye on you. Hurt

how. I've never had a girlfriend, only fuck buddies, and I've never been

her until she accepts me as hers. He doesn't understand why she doesn't want us. That I...push away all those around me. That I hurt Olivia in a way no man should ever hurt a woman. That I have no fucking clue how to make it up to her. How the fuck do I even

tied up together, even if our son is no longer here. Spencer might not have been mine biologically, but if he were to be alive, he would have five dads. I would be a...dad. Fuck. The Senator took that away from me. He took my son from me. I let that sink deep.

took the final step was because I wanted to kill Olivia.

minutes to calm down and let me get up. "Good girl. Now, go guard the horses," I tell her. Then I go inside the

second chance. I hope she did. Tyson might have made many mistakes, but he loves her. If not for Jason, they would be married with kids by now. After I change my clothes, I go to Jasper's room. Olivia spends more time here than anywhere

side. She looks...stunning. She pretends I'm not here and looks in the mirror before taking something out from the closet and sitting

of a woman. All I ever sought before was release; now I want a... connection. Tyson might be my half-brother, but I don't think he ever saw me as such. To

me as she