Shackled (The Lord Series) by Amy T

310. Rueben - Unlovable I

Diva knocks me on my back and starts licking my face. I can't say a word because as much as I like women to stick their tongues inside my mouth, Diva doesn't fall in that category. Besides, Olivia kissed me, and I want her taste on my lips, not Diva's drool. Nor can I use my hands to push her away since Olivia will get angry if I mess up my nails, so here I am, laying on the snow, waiting for Diva to get off of me. "Should we help him?" Olivia asks.

Yes! I definitely need help with my dog.

Diva licks the seam on my lips, and I press them together because who knows where the fuck she has been or what she has eaten, and I'm not about to find out. "Nah, he and Diva love each other to death," Tyson replies.

Fucking bastard! He is doing it on purpose so he can have Olivia all to himself right when she is finally warming up to me. I get why she hates my guts, but I'm trying to change. I've been angry for so long; it's all I know.

If only I knew how to be... husband material. I should try to be her boyfriend first, but I'm more than ready for the finish line. A family of my own was never my goal, but I want it with Olivia and my blood-brothers.

Now that I know the truth of how Camila died, I no longer blame Olivia for it. Sure, she might be the one who killed my sister, but it didn't happen the way the Senator told my parents it did. Despite knowing how sweet Olivia was, I made up lies inside my head about her until they became my new reality. Now that I can finally see her for who she is, it's hard not to go after the Dukes and torture them until they reveal where Carlos is hiding.

There are many who want him dead. If we want to find him, we need to be smart about it and not let every Duke out there know our plans.

Besides, Olivia needs us now more than ever. If we go chasing after Carlos, and something happens to her....

anger at the idea of Olivia in the hands of her father and brother, hurt. I had enough with the days she was missing because

me about all the things that would go wrong if I did this. He didn't give any advice either, so I'm trying to sort out shit on my own. For days, I've been thinking about how to make Olivia fall for me, but nothing comes to my mind.

that case, I'll go get ready for the Blood Lodge," Olivia

the need to push her in the snow. My demon wants to be with Olivia,

needs. When Olivia is probably out of earshot, he tells me, "Don't you even think about screwing things up with Olivia. Not now. I'm keeping an eye on

how. I've never had a girlfriend, only fuck buddies, and I've never been in love. The only one I have ever liked is Olivia. Part of my anger was that she didn't choose me. That she still doesn't

me. That I hurt Olivia in a

I let that sink deep. A wave of rage hits me hard. I will

that finding my way back is difficult. The only reason why I never took the final

few minutes to calm down and let me get up. "Good girl. Now, go guard the horses," I

Something happened between them. Maybe he finally convinced her to give him a second chance. I hope she did. Tyson might have made many mistakes, but he loves her. If not for Jason, they would be married with kids by now. After I change my clothes, I go to Jasper's room. Olivia spends more time here than anywhere else in the house or around

royal blue dress with a slit on the left side. She looks...stunning. She pretends I'm not here and looks in the mirror before taking something out from the

arms against my chest and lean against the doorframe so I can take my time to admire her better. I don't think I've ever done this before, but I appreciate the beauty of a woman. All I ever sought before was release; now I want a... connection. Tyson might be my half-brother, but I don't think he ever saw me as such. To be honest, I rarely think of him that way. But Olivia? She is more than blood. She

acknowledges me as she puts on