Shackled (The Lord Series) by Amy T

311. Rueben - Unlovable II

I finish with the first stiletto and then switch her left foot for her right one. "You should have put on a green dress to match my nails." Olivia inhaled deeply. "I don't have a...." Her eyes narrow. "Was that a...joke?"

After I finish tying the laces, I put my palm on the inside of her leg and slowly inch it up as I leisurely get up, not wanting to scare her. She lowers herself onto the bed, and I lay on my side next to her. "It was," I admit. "Oh," she breathes.

Scars cover her skin, but I don't mind them. Most men would. They would want a flawless woman, but I see beyond that when I look at Olivia. The things she went through made her strong.

There are more videos of her to watch, but I don't think I can without going insane with rage. But I need to know everything that was done to her, and I believe my blood-brothers will agree. "How does one learn to laugh again?" she murmurs more to herself than to me.

I don't know how to say sorry to someone. I've never said that word aloud to anyone. My fingers reach her thigh; this is where most of her scars are. I try not to concentrate on them.

Heat emanates from her pussy. I want to sink deep inside her until our souls are united forever, but I need to be patient. She's been abused for far too long. Forcing her will only break her spirit even more. Under the care of Ansel, Mose, and Jasper, she has blossomed. She needs to be loved, not be reduced to nothing.

I don't know how to show her what I feel for her, but I'll fucking try.

"Olivia," I groan as my palm finally reaches her pussy. How would it feel when I'm finally inside her? Is it as good as I always imagined or better? I run my fingers on top of her panties. I no longer have the ones that I stole years ago. Thank fuck, because that's just...sick. But now things are different. Her panties will start to disappear, little by little. "I destroy everything I touch," I snarl as I try to hold back and not rip her clothes and fuck her until we are both covered in sweat. "There's so much anger and hate inside my heart." Tears swirl in her eyes. "Not for you but for you." She doesn't understand.

I was never good at expressing myself. Women always flocked around me until I opened my mouth. How do I tell the woman I've always liked that I want her as my wife? I grab her braid with my free hand and bring her mouth to mine. I want to kiss her, but there are things I need to tell her.

apart. He resented her for it, but he still loved her. Me, not that much. She grew distant soon after, and I was forgotten." My throat bobs because I never talked to anyone about this. I kept all this fucking pain inside me for years. "They never knew I heard them. I was the one who separated them; Camila was the one who brought them together. I loved her so much for fixing what I destroyed. When Tyson showed up, claiming he was my father's bastard, I was happy to have him around

me. A knot forms in my throat. "I didn't tell you all of this to make you feel pity but to make you see why I am so...broken. So unlovable." Olivia shakes her head. "I don't pity you. I'm just surprised. You always seemed happy, and you loved your family so much." Her chin trembles. "I took them away from you. It is only fair that you

quickly say. "What I did to you is unforgivable. Let

be with my son, not stuck in this place, suffering day and night." My heart breaks for her, and I remove my hand from between her legs and gather her in my arms. She lets me hold her. It's a small victory, but I savor

say against her

give purpose to my life." She makes a strange sound. "I've come to think

at her face as I say, "Do you

bonded if that's what you want, but I'll never let anyone have the same kind of power Tyson once had over

in years. "I want you to love us. We

life ended the moment I killed Camila; my heart got shattered when Tyson, Ansel, and you abandoned me; my soul

ask questions that I didn't want answered, but I'm not the type of person to listen to advice. "What must Tyson and I do to

path because then, I'll really go insane." Making up her mind, she gives me her real answer, "I want to be the one who kills my father." Well fuck. I wanted to kill that son of a bitch. But at least this is something I can do for her. "Take that away from me, and I'll ally with

killed many, but I

don't think Olivia understands how powerful she

Neither did I.

Until now.