Shackled (The Lord Series) by Amy T

314. Olivia - Blood Lodge II

Tyson stares at me for a moment. "While this is not about me, I want you to know that I live in constant agony and fear that you will never truly forgive me. That you'll never love me again. I am sorry, Olly, for everything."

While his words are sincere, I feel angry. "You should be scared because I'll never let anyone in my heart again. You can fuck me and do whatever you want to me, but I'll never love *any* of you." I turn my attention to Mose. "Maybe I'll make an exception for you."

Mose flashes me a grin before smashing his lips against mine and kissing me roughly.

The bonds with Tyson and Ansel let me know how much my words hurt them, but I can't be as weak and stupid as I once was.

Tyson clears his throat. "Rueben is waiting for us."

Reluctantly, Mose breaks the kiss, and we get out of the car. Mose grabs my hand while Ansel and Tyson walk behind me. Rueben and Jasper are in front of the Blood Lodge. Rueben looks calmer now.

"Where are Rin and Steven?" Tyson asks.

Rueben jerks his head toward the entrance. "Already inside. We shouldn't waste any more time as we are late as it is," he mutters.

it up for a night,"

those from the Celestial Heaven bombard my nose, making my vision tunnel. This has never happened to me before, probably because

falling. One of the guys grabs me by the waist. Tyson. His familiar cologne

feeling sick?" Tyson sounds

heart leaps in my chest. It's not fair that he has so much power over my feelings. But moments like this make me wonder if I should risk it and let him regain my trust. He did shitty things to me only because he thought I cheated on him. I'm not making any excuses for him, but cheating is probably the biggest trigger Tyson has. If I had been more clear about what happened the night Jason let his friends abuse me, maybe Tyson would have believed me. But all these years, I felt as if I had cheated on him. Even now, I feel the same. Maybe if I had fought

pornais waiting on their knees around the entrance. They are mingling with the Lords, talking or serving them drinks. They don't look scared or unhappy. Almost all of them have a smile on their lips. Those who are being

five empty armchairs around

flood my mind. Coming here was a bad idea. There's no turning back now.

in his lap. "If you want to

the others punished fills me with rage. My darkness is more than ready to protect them. They might have tormented me and hurt me initially, but I prefer them over anyone else on this planet. I might not trust them when it comes to my heart, but I trust them with my body as I know

They are my tormentors.

who sits next to Tyson, starts rubbing my left leg with his palm. "You are more important than anything that the old farts want to tell us. Besides, I already survived the Catacombs." The blood drains from my face.

Lord had to stay three days down there because he mistreated his bonded,"

broken wings come to my mind. Just because I could heal them once doesn't mean I can do it again. My darkness is good only because I