Shackled (The Lord Series) by Amy T

314. Olivia - Blood Lodge II

Tyson stares at me for a moment. "While this is not about me, I want you to know that I live in constant agony and fear that you will never truly forgive me. That you'll never love me again. I am sorry, Olly, for everything."

While his words are sincere, I feel angry. "You should be scared because I'll never let anyone in my heart again. You can fuck me and do whatever you want to me, but I'll never love *any* of you." I turn my attention to Mose. "Maybe I'll make an exception for you."

Mose flashes me a grin before smashing his lips against mine and kissing me roughly.

The bonds with Tyson and Ansel let me know how much my words hurt them, but I can't be as weak and stupid as I once was.

Tyson clears his throat. "Rueben is waiting for us."

Reluctantly, Mose breaks the kiss, and we get out of the car. Mose grabs my hand while Ansel and Tyson walk behind me. Rueben and Jasper are in front of the Blood Lodge. Rueben looks calmer now.

"Where are Rin and Steven?" Tyson asks.

Rueben jerks his head toward the entrance. "Already inside. We shouldn't waste any more time as we are late as it is," he mutters.

can suck it up for a night," Jasper says

tunnel. This has never happened to

I feel like falling. One of the guys grabs me by the waist. Tyson. His familiar cologne calms me.

feeling sick?" Tyson sounds so

me, maybe Tyson would have believed me. But all these years, I felt as if I had cheated on him. Even now, I feel the same. Maybe if I had fought harder, or been smarter, or not gone with Camila to the party.... Perhaps then I would have had that life Tyson and I always dreamed of. The guys guide me around the Blood Lodge until we enter a big room. A small dais is in the middle of it. Elderly men occupy the three seats on it.

their knees around the entrance. They are mingling with the Lords, talking or serving them drinks. They don't look scared or unhappy. Almost all of them have a smile on their

reach a table with five empty armchairs around it. The

Coming here was a bad idea.

in his lap. "If you want to

tormented me and hurt me initially, but I prefer them over anyone else on this planet. I might not trust them when it comes to my heart, but I trust them with my body as I know

They are my tormentors.

Besides, I already survived the Catacombs." The

three days down there because he mistreated

once doesn't mean I can do it again. My darkness is good only