Tangled in Moonlight: Unshifted (Ava and Lucas)

Chapter 86 Ava: Missed Timing

The warmth of our linked fingers burn my skin with a thousand unspoken accusations that prickle at my conscience.

"I didn't stop looking. I had scouts in the area, keeping an eye on your father's home as much as they could, but we've historically had a problem keeping any scouts alive in Blackwood territory. We escalated the issues we had, brought our problems to Council, trying to escalate the situation so we could infiltrate. It took a long time before we got the evidence we needed.

I hated it, but I couldn't risk a war with the Council without anything to back up my actions."

As Lucas recounts his efforts to find me, I can't help but tune out, stressing over the secrets that I never felt were secrets at the time.

Now, with this fragile peace between us—after he's sacrificed in order to save me…

It seems like a pretty fucking shitty move to say nothing, no matter how innocent it was.

I should tell him. I know I should.

But the words catch in my throat, tangled with a web of emotions I can't seem to untangle. How will he react when he learns that I sought refuge from my heat with another alpha? Will he see it as a betrayal? A violation of our fated bond?

When Selene and I spoke, it seemed so simple. He rejected me, so he has no right to be upset.

Now?

With his fingers linked through mine?

With me, alive, here, in his territory?

The thought of losing his trust, of shattering the fragile connection that's blooming between us, fills me with dread. And yet, keeping secrets from him feels like a disservice to what he's done for me.

I take a deep breath, steeling my resolve. "Lucas, there's something I need to tell you about—"

His phone rings, the sudden sound shattering the moment like a rock through a glass window.

It's Kellan. Hold on,

hand squeezes mine in a casual intimacy that breaks my

smile. "Of course. Go

the call, I can't help but berate myself for taking too damn

Stupid, stupid, stupid.

is going to end up being a

happen to have an insane heat and I kind of went crazy, and some alpha helped me out in

See?

Easy.

knees to my chest, I rest my forehead against them and breathe long, slow breaths as

will understand. This isn't going to be a repeat of the

think you're a

still be accepted for who you

It's okay, Ava.

to be

breathing. I settle into the silence with my eyes closed, concentrating on the rhythm of oxygen filling my lungs,

my breath stinks. That would be embarrassing. I should

my forced peace. At first, my body tenses, until

I'm safe.

It's just Lucas.

to happen

glance up at Lucas. His face is so gentle that my heart aches, and I curse my past self for taking

of a lot easier right now if I didn't have to worry about telling him I'd lost my virginity to

alpha who wants me

idea I'm safe. Damn. I didn't think about that. I should get a phone call

am not prepared. Not trained. I haven't read

concern. I guess my panic is showing.

through the window haloes his dark hair, highlighting the gold in his eyes. He's so beautiful