Tangled

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231 Ava: Water

The rune for water swims before my eyes, its curves and lines blurring as I try to focus. My mind, however, has other plans. It drifts to Vanessa, her soft smile as she spoke of Vester. The ache in her voice. The longing.

I know that feeling all too well now.

Lucas. Where is he? Is he safe? Is the pack safe? Do we have more funeral rites coming? Are people hurting? Are our hospitals inundated?

Your brain is so loud I can't sleep, Selene's voice cuts through my spiraling thoughts.

Oh, I'm so sorry. Rolling my eyes at her nonexistent self, knowing she can feel it, I drawl mentally, Let me just turn down the volume on my anxiety for you. Wouldn't want to disturb your beauty rest.

Selene huffs, a sound somewhere between amusement and exasperation. Worrying about things you can't control is a waste of time. You'd be better off focusing on what's in front of you. The sooner you master this, the sooner we can leave.

She's right, of course. Doesn't make it any easier, but she's right. I take a deep breath, trying to center myself. "Okay, okay. You're right. Let's do this."

"Is it Selene?" Vanessa asks in amusement. "Whenever you talk to her, your entire face scrunches up.

Damn. Really? I've watched them all go a little vacant-eyed when they're talking to their wolves or pack members, but no one's ever

That's amharging

sghing me pep talk

"You can do this, Ava. Look what you accomplished earlier today? Civing me two thumbs-up that couldn't be more cheesy if she tried. Vanessa grins. "I have faith in you"

Heat flushes in my cheeks. No matter how much care and attention I've been given in my time at Westwood, it still feels

awkward and wrong to have someone so enthusiastic in their

praise of me.

Good, too.

Really good.

That rush of warmth and affection in my heart that's brought about with a few simple words and encouragement is a little scary. It reminds me a little of how I'd begun to feel a little like I should stay with Clayton, all because he was kind to me and gave me a place to live, despite knowing that it was wrong.

Knowing him a little more now-stijl not very much, but enough to recognize that he didn't exactly have any sinister designs to throw me back to my pack or anything-Ican see how he was just an alpha struggling to do the right thing and maybe a little too clouded by the heat-mating that occurred between us.

1 like him. Selene murmurs. But he is not the one who stirs your

heart, is he?

No, he isn't.

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on him and rely on him? They're the same ones I feel toward Vanessa, who's been in my corner from the

to me. And aside from Lisa, who-despite being my

Mrs. Elkins, who didn't know who I was.

from Selene, who's another half of

expecting anything in return. I'm weak to that. I see that now, and it only gets clearer by the day. There's nothing wrong

Selene murmurs.

the future. Make sure I'm not trusting the

me well.

best person to trust. Or maybe that Magister Orion isn't the best choice of teacher. Maybe being here in the Fae

many thoughts again, Selene says, affection from her coming through

going through everything you can to

Right.

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The magic.

my head as

to the rune for

deep inside me where I felt the fire magic, but when I reach for it, it's like hitting a wall. I push against it, trying to find a

door that I need to open doesn't feel right. I tug at an imaginary

Nothing.

My shoulders slump.

too exhausted to keep fighting. My arms and legs shake with exhaustion, just like they did after I accessed the fire magic. But this time, I have nothing to show for

flickering

the bitter taste of

I want to crumple it up and throw it across the room, but I

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giving up too easily, Selene chides. Magic isn't something you can force. It's about finding the right

"You're not

one,

of the tension easing from my shoulders as

to shake off the frustration. Vanessa is

looking anywhere except at me, knowing the

I'm convinced

all wrong. Fire came to me in a moment of

I associate with

most connected to water. The gentle lapping of

soothing sound of rain on the windows of Lisa's apartment. The refreshing coolness of a glass of water, after a hot day of training with

something,

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