Tangled

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231 Ava: Water

The rune for water swims before my eyes, its curves and lines blurring as I try to focus. My mind, however, has other plans. It drifts to Vanessa, her soft smile as she spoke of Vester. The ache in her voice. The longing.

I know that feeling all too well now.

Lucas. Where is he? Is he safe? Is the pack safe? Do we have more funeral rites coming? Are people hurting? Are our hospitals inundated?

Your brain is so loud I can't sleep, Selene's voice cuts through my spiraling thoughts.

Oh, I'm so sorry. Rolling my eyes at her nonexistent self, knowing she can feel it, I drawl mentally, Let me just turn down the volume on my anxiety for you. Wouldn't want to disturb your beauty rest.

Selene huffs, a sound somewhere between amusement and exasperation. Worrying about things you can't control is a waste of time. You'd be better off focusing on what's in front of you. The sooner you master this, the sooner we can leave.

She's right, of course. Doesn't make it any easier, but she's right. I take a deep breath, trying to center myself. "Okay, okay. You're right. Let's do this."

"Is it Selene?" Vanessa asks in amusement. "Whenever you talk to her, your entire face scrunches up.

Damn. Really? I've watched them all go a little vacant-eyed when they're talking to their wolves or pack members, but no one's ever

That's amharging

sghing me pep talk

"You can do this, Ava. Look what you accomplished earlier today? Civing me two thumbs-up that couldn't be more cheesy if she tried. Vanessa grins. "I have faith in you"

Heat flushes in my cheeks. No matter how much care and attention I've been given in my time at Westwood, it still feels

awkward and wrong to have someone so enthusiastic in their

praise of me.

Good, too.

Really good.

That rush of warmth and affection in my heart that's brought about with a few simple words and encouragement is a little scary. It reminds me a little of how I'd begun to feel a little like I should stay with Clayton, all because he was kind to me and gave me a place to live, despite knowing that it was wrong.

Knowing him a little more now-stijl not very much, but enough to recognize that he didn't exactly have any sinister designs to throw me back to my pack or anything-Ican see how he was just an alpha struggling to do the right thing and maybe a little too clouded by the heat-mating that occurred between us.

1 like him. Selene murmurs. But he is not the one who stirs your

heart, is he?

No, he isn't.

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lean on him and rely on him? They're the same ones I feel toward Vanessa, who's been in my corner from the first

from Lucas, who's bonded to me. And aside from Lisa,

Mrs. Elkins, who didn't know

Selene, who's another half of

weak to that. I see that now, and it only gets clearer by the day. There's

Selene murmurs.

me. I'm going to need to be smarter in the future. Make

me well.

the thought that maybe Sister Miriam isn't the best person to trust. Or maybe that Magister Orion isn't the

running through too many thoughts again, Selene says, affection from her coming through our bond to

You're going through everything you can to avoid what's in front of

Right.

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The magic.

I purge my head as

back to the

its lines with my eyes. There's that place deep inside me where I felt the fire magic, but when I reach for it,

the magic as a door that I need to open doesn't feel right. I tug at an imaginary handle, knock on its surface, even try

Nothing.

My shoulders slump.

barrier now, too exhausted to keep fighting. My arms and legs shake with exhaustion, just like they did after I accessed the fire magic. But this time, I

no flickering flame. Just

and the bitter taste of

its stillness. I want to crumple it up and throw it across the room, but I resist the urge.

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something you can force. It's about finding

you to say," I grumble. "You're not

just the one watching you act like one, she

tension easing from my shoulders as I let

breath, trying to shake off the frustration. Vanessa is still and silent in her corner, and

She's probably looking anywhere except at me, knowing the stress her regard would put

I'm convinced she's an

again, maybe I'm approaching this all wrong. Fire came to me in a moment of

do I

close my eyes again, thinking of the times I've felt most connected to water. The gentle lapping of waves at the lake near the pack house, escaping from yet another round of beating— No.

the windows of Lisa's apartment. The refreshing coolness

quite right. I'm missing something, but I can't put my

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