Tangled

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231 Ava: Water

The rune for water swims before my eyes, its curves and lines blurring as I try to focus. My mind, however, has other plans. It drifts to Vanessa, her soft smile as she spoke of Vester. The ache in her voice. The longing.

I know that feeling all too well now.

Lucas. Where is he? Is he safe? Is the pack safe? Do we have more funeral rites coming? Are people hurting? Are our hospitals inundated?

Your brain is so loud I can't sleep, Selene's voice cuts through my spiraling thoughts.

Oh, I'm so sorry. Rolling my eyes at her nonexistent self, knowing she can feel it, I drawl mentally, Let me just turn down the volume on my anxiety for you. Wouldn't want to disturb your beauty rest.

Selene huffs, a sound somewhere between amusement and exasperation. Worrying about things you can't control is a waste of time. You'd be better off focusing on what's in front of you. The sooner you master this, the sooner we can leave.

She's right, of course. Doesn't make it any easier, but she's right. I take a deep breath, trying to center myself. "Okay, okay. You're right. Let's do this."

"Is it Selene?" Vanessa asks in amusement. "Whenever you talk to her, your entire face scrunches up.

Damn. Really? I've watched them all go a little vacant-eyed when they're talking to their wolves or pack members, but no one's ever

That's amharging

sghing me pep talk

"You can do this, Ava. Look what you accomplished earlier today? Civing me two thumbs-up that couldn't be more cheesy if she tried. Vanessa grins. "I have faith in you"

Heat flushes in my cheeks. No matter how much care and attention I've been given in my time at Westwood, it still feels

awkward and wrong to have someone so enthusiastic in their

praise of me.

Good, too.

Really good.

That rush of warmth and affection in my heart that's brought about with a few simple words and encouragement is a little scary. It reminds me a little of how I'd begun to feel a little like I should stay with Clayton, all because he was kind to me and gave me a place to live, despite knowing that it was wrong.

Knowing him a little more now-stijl not very much, but enough to recognize that he didn't exactly have any sinister designs to throw me back to my pack or anything-Ican see how he was just an alpha struggling to do the right thing and maybe a little too clouded by the heat-mating that occurred between us.

1 like him. Selene murmurs. But he is not the one who stirs your

heart, is he?

No, he isn't.

231 Ave Water

I wanted to lean on him and rely on him? They're the same ones I feel toward Vanessa, who's been in my corner from the first moment we met. Someone who's willing to help me, to talk

from Lucas, who's bonded to me. And aside from Lisa, who-despite being my best friend-doesn't understand

who didn't know who

Selene, who's another half

now, and it only gets clearer by the day. There's nothing wrong in appreciating those who care for

Selene murmurs.

to be smarter in the future. Make sure I'm not trusting

me well.

to trust. Or maybe that Magister Orion isn't the best choice of

thoughts again, Selene says, affection from her coming through our

everything you can to avoid what's in

Right.

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The magic.

I purge my head as best

to the

when I reach for it, it's like hitting a wall. I push against it, trying to find a crack, a seam, anything. But there's

Visualizing the magic as a door that I need to open doesn't feel right. I tug at an imaginary handle,

Nothing.

My shoulders slump.

now, too exhausted to keep fighting. My arms and legs shake with exhaustion, just like they did after I accessed the fire magic. But this time, I have nothing to

burst of power, no flickering flame. Just the

and the bitter

I want to crumple it up and throw it across the room, but I resist the urge. Barely.

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231 Ava, Water

you can

not the

act like one, she retorts, but there's no real bite to

from my

Vanessa is still and

looking anywhere except at me, knowing the

I'm convinced

wrong. Fire came to me in a moment of intense

do I associate with

the times I've felt most connected to water. The gentle lapping of waves at the lake near the pack house, escaping from yet another round of beating— No. Don't

sound of rain on the windows of Lisa's apartment. The refreshing coolness of a glass of water, after a hot day of

right. I'm missing something, but I can't put my finger on

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