The Alpha Chose Me by Missy Elliottxo

"I'm just having a really tough time right now".

"Baby it's only been three days since-....

"Don't say it". I whispered. "Please don't say it". I was trying my hardest not to cry. The lump was already forming in my throat, the tears filling in my eyes. I know I had a miscarriage; I know I was no longer pregnant, but I wasn't ready to hear those words yet. "Okay, okay". Bringing my hands to his mouth he pressed his lips against my fingers. "Whatever you need, whatever you want just let me know".

I showered and changed into something other than pjs. I cried my heart out, broke down but surprisingly felt better. So much so I wanted to go for breakfast with my friends.

I couldn't keep myself locked away in my room. What good would that do? Isolating myself wasn't going to make anything better. Deep down I knew bottling everything up wasn't the way to deal with this.

into my leather jacket and grabbed my black boots from the closet

think I want to

to drive

catch a ride

we can

of this happened that's where we would be right now. Enjoying the peace and quiet. Enjoying spending time together but right now I wasn't sure the peace and quiet would do me any

the downtime because it gave me time to think. It left me alone with my thoughts and my

to come. I just wasn't sure when that was going to happen. Or spending time just us was exactly what I needed. Time for us to heal

was sick of having these arguments with myself.