The Alpha’s Fated Outcast: Rise Of The Moonsinger

189 The truth of her birth III Miriam .

Its been two weeks since I came back to the Moon Temple with an empty womb and a heart heavier than Id ever known .

The stillness of the temple at all times which used to ground me in such a way I couldnt understand , broken occasionally only by the soft rustling of robes or the distant chant of prayers had now become a prison to me .

I was the secret , trapped in a prison and the only people who knew were my wet pillow each night and my conscience .

I couldnt believe I was a mom well a half mom actually but that experience changed my life in ways I never expected .

Each day felt heavier than the last my belly was still round and protruded .

I was still too tired from carrying another human for nine months and still forced to get on with my life like nothing just happened .

Of course , no one noticed since I returned in Spring and we were always at our busiest at this time of the year because a lot of special flowers , herbs and seeds are found at this time .

I simply went out of my way and kept myself away from unnecessary interactions .

Except for Terra my bosom friend , Mother Liora and the other priestesses who were Mother Lioras closest friends no one else knew .

For instance , at the morning Assembly today when I was asked to lead the e prayers , had recited a ritual prayer instead of the prayers designed to kickstart our day .

Superior Priestess Dianas eyes had narrowed on me as she assessed me from head to toe .

Miriam , she called out coldly .

You look … different .

Sluggish in your movements , forgetful and fat .

Is there something you wish to share ? My breath caught in my throat , my heart pounding in panic as I tugged at my uniform , stretching the already stretched fabric .

The pregnancy had made me add a lot of weight on my hips and chest .

Although the midwife had prepared a special routine for me to follow to lose the baby fat , she had told me it was a gradual process .

Everyone was staring at me in the hall , especially Jemimah who had a smirk on her face .

Miriam ? she called out impatiently again .

15 189 The truth of her birth Im sorry , Mother ! I muttered .

I didnt ask for an apology , she responded , her voice was filled with frustration .

T simply want an explanation as to why youre looking out of place from all the girls in the temple .

Your uniform is too tight , your face is round and are those dark circles I see around your your eyes ? I opened my mouth , looking for an explanation but no words came out .

Before the silence could become suspicious , Mother Liora intervened .

The little self discovery trip I sent her on must have been harder on her than I thought , she said giving me a reassuring glance .

Its not uncommon for children to go outside this pack and come back looking the same .

Think of all the overly processed food and all … Mother Liora said .

conversation turned to something else

my bed staring

inside me anymore , but my body hadnt accepted

was still soft and rounded and my muscles still ached with the strain of carrying a child that was

onto my side , clutching my blanket tightly and cried myself to sleep

days that followed ,

the cruellest

my hands would instinctively move to

times when I bend to pick something up

my knees first just like how it had done when I was

swollen painfully and hard as stone and still leaking

midwife had given me to stop it , it still

morning , I would pad my breast with several clothes to hide the milk stain and for the entire day , I would be

would have to sneak back to my room and nurse my

at hiding my tears and my pain

excuse myself under the pretence of needing solitude for prayer , only to sit in the corner of my small room , rocking myself and

were the worst

squeeze in pain and I would

, I started hearing

The truth of her birth !!! 10 when the sound of

filled with

my room , searching the hall for the

met

must have seen the wild desperation in them

? Its after

walking about ? My baby ! I murmured , trying to

, I need to

to make sure

my room and a moment later , she

tried to calm my racing heart and the endless cries that

morning , I saw Mother Liora sitting at the edge of

I murmured

asked

nodded giving her

here ?

you feel guilty but

excuses I can give for

it not to go beyond that ?

You were roaming

priestess Tania

the medications the midwife recommended ?

must try , Miriam

it is with you but you have duties that are suffering

long and Im not sure how long

Miriam … I

Ill do better .

Liora reached out , placing a

been through a great deal ,

I understand that .