Chapter 51

***Chastity***

I had truly enjoyed my time spent with Rowen, and Colby. It had been nice to have Rowen meet my friends, and help us even though he didn’t have to. I had been shocked that even as an Alpha he had rolled up his sleeves to help lower rank wolves move. He had been attentive, kind, and good with everyone the whole visit. It had been hard to watch him leave.

One thing that did surprise me was that I had not jumped when he touched me, nor did I feel fear at his touch. Holding his hand had felt so natural. Every touch from him had. I didn’t know what to make of it. The first couple of days after his visit I carried those good feelings with me. Even during my session with Dee-Dee on Tuesday all I talked about was his visit. She didn’t say much, just listened. She smiled when I did, and seemed genuinely pleased to hear all I had to say about the visit. I did keep the kiss we shared a secret. That was private.

Now it was Wednesday, and I was in the middle of self defense class. Matt had us in the gym as he started working with us on finding our core, how to strengthen it, and use it for all our movements going. forward. I had watched everything he had done, and was now practicing what he had taught us, with Lexi and Norm on either side of me.

I was slowly working through what I had just been shown a second time when I heard a sound echo through the gym that sounded like a whip crack. I instantly locked up, and began to tremble. As soon as I could move I dropped into the fetal position, covered my head, and continued to tremble as I whimpered. quietly, and tears rolled down my cheeks.

Someone had found out. Someone knew that I did something I shouldn’t have. They were coming to punish me for whatever it was. They weren’t even going to take me to the dungeon to whip me. They were going to do it here in front of everyone. My friends would finally see that I wasn’t good enough for them. I was going to lose it all.

I heard a voice calling through my thoughts, but I couldn’t speak.

“Chastity! Chastity! What’s wrong girl? What happened?” Lexi called to me.

“Do NOT touch her!” I heard her growl at someone.

Suddenly I felt someone gently pick me up in their arms causing me to tremble harder, and whimper. more. They were taking me for punishment now. I just knew it. I didn’t want to go through that again. I couldn’t. I wouldn’t survive this time. I tried to get out of the person’s arms, but they held me tight to them. “Shh. Chas. It’s Lexi. I’ve got you. You’re gonna be ok. Norm, grab her stuff, and we’ll take her back to her room.” Lexi ordered in a calm voice.

I tried to fight again, If she got me to my room she would hurt me. I just knew it.

“I said do not touch her. No you cannot help her. Now move!” Lexi growled at someone.

I continued to try to get away. I didn’t want to be alone where any one could hurt me. I wasn’t safe alone with any one. In moments I was laid down on a bed, and she moved away from me. Then I heard a familiar voice echo through the room.

“Hi sweet girl. How are you?” Came the voice of a male I knew so well.

“Rowen, It’s Lexi.” I heard Lexi say sounding odd.

“Lexi. Is Chastity ok? Where is she? What happened?” Rowen asked. I could hear the panic in his voice.

“I don’t know what happened. We were in the gym for self defense. All I know is Chastity froze then dropped to the ground, curled into a ball, and started whimpering and crying. I brought her to her room, but I can’t get her to calm down. I….I don’t know what happened.”

“Was anyone around, or did someone say something? Maybe snuck up on her or something?”

“No. Only Norm, and I were near her, but were still arm’s length apart. Rowen, what’s wrong? How do I help my best friend?”

“Do you see a green sweatshirt any where around?”.

“No I…Norm, hand me that sweatshirt. Ok. Got it.”

“Good. Put it on her. Do it carefully, but make sure it’s on, and pull up the hood.”

“But why?”

“JUST DO IT!” I heard Rowen growl, and my trembling got worse.

“O….ok. Norm help me.”

I heard the phone be set by my head, and then I felt hands on me. I tried to fight them off. I was scared about what they were doing. Just because Rowen told them to put the sweatshirt on, didn’t mean they were really going to. I didn’t scream because I was trained not to, but I was having trouble breathing.

“It’s ok Chas. We’re just trying to help you. We won’t hurt you, I promise.” I heard Lexi say gently, as she, -and Norm struggled to get the sweatshirt on me.

Once it was on, they pulled back, and Lexi picked the phone back up.

“It’s on. Now what?” Lexi asked.

“Get Lilac, and put her by Chastity. Grab her laptop, start it, and put it in front of her. I am almost to my office. I’m going to video call her. Just keep me on the phone.”

“Ok. Rowen, what happened? She was fine one moment, and the next, this.”

“It’s not my place to tell. Just stay with her.”

I heard moving around, and something be set on the bed. When a hand touched my shoulder I whimpered, and tried to pull away. I also felt something soft brush my neck. I couldn’t move though..

“Whatever you do, don’t touch her Lexi. Ok?” Rowen said.

“….ok. I’m sorry. I didn’t realize.” Lexi sputtered.

“It’s ok. There is a lot you don’t know. You know some, but not all. She has to be the one to tell you. I’m connecting video now.”

I heard a click, and his voice was stronger.

“Hey there sweet girl. I know you’re scared right now, but you’re safe. I promise. No one is going to hurt you” Rowen said calmly.

I could only whimper, and try to breath..

“Chastity, I want you to do something ok? Pull the neck to your sweatshirt to your nose, and sniff. Take at big sniff. There you go. Can you smell me? Good, keep doing that. I see Lilac is right with you, up against your neck. Feel her soft fur, and hear her purring for you? Focus on my scent, her purrs, and my voice for

me”

I did what he asked, and my trembling started to slow, and my tears stopped. I could feel myself start to calm down, but I was still scared. I kept to my tight ball. I still didn’t feel safe.

“Open your eyes for me sweet girl. Look at me.” Rowen coaxed gently.

Eventually I slowly opened my eyes, and saw his handsome face in front of me. He was sitting so close to the screen so all I could see was him.

“There you are. Hi my sweet girl.” Rowen said gently with a smile.

“Ro…Rowen.” I croaked.

“I’m here. I know you’re scared, but baby I promise you that you’re safe. I’m going to stay right here.”

“But….”

now. I’m so sorry that I can’t be. I’m so sorry that something scared you so badly. How are

I could barely nod.

to feel better. Do you want to tell me what happened? What scared you

“I…I don’t know.”

you know what was going on before you got

gym doing core exercises. I heard

No one will hurt you. Calm down for me please. You’ll make -yourself sick if

“……”

I’m here for you any way I can be. I

“Ye….yes.”

helped you get away from that sound. They protected you, and helped get you to

“I….ok.”

you. They’ll help you when you’re scared alright? They’ll get you to me anyway they can so I can help

“Ok.”

you feeling

his eyes. I realized I was calmer. He had helped me calm down. I was thankful for that. He was also right. Lexi, and Norm hadn’t hurt me. They protected me, and got me

4’m sorry I’m so

I know. You’ve survived horrific things. You can still smile, and laugh after those things. You succeeded despite those things. You worked hard for your dream, and now you’re living it. You are so strong. You’re allowed to be scared, and react to that fear.

“Thank… thank you.”

speaking

I didn’t believe him. How could I when this happened

happened.” I

“What’s that?” Rowen asked.

equipment. They were moving mats, and must have dropped one. That can sound like a whip

be. See Chastity, you’re safe. No

I only nodded.

“Are you hungry?”

I nodded slightly again.

her something to eat please? Something light.” Rowen requested

Lexi said

close then I felt something sit on the bed. A hand gently touched my leg, causing me to

Chastity. I won’t do

be comforting Chastity. She’s not

I felt the touch on my leg again. It squeezed gently, then

sorry I wasn’t paying attention to make sure it was just those of us in the class in the gym. I really am.” Lexi

out of the gym. Your instructor should know to stay in the

to be in an environment where distractions happen so we learn how

not a beginners class. None of you are being trained as warriors. You are learning to strengthen yourselves, and to be able to

“Should I say something?”

“No. I’ll handle it.”

“But….” I started.

right.”

nodded, and stared Rowen. I’m sure he was busy, and had work to do. He didn’t have time to be dealing with me. I was making his life harder in more ways than I originally realized. He deserved better. Someone who was there with him now, and that

Whatever you’re thinking stop it right now!” Rowen

started, but he cut

wrong. It’s not true. There is NOBODY better for me than you! NOBODY is

the way. Nothing you can say or do will change

“But….”

but I swear to you, you are all I want. You are what I

“I’m broken.”

You’re bruised, battered, and scared, not broken. You will heal. When you do you’ll look back, see how strong you are,

“How do you know?”

know what sweet

this. You

first. No matter what. Second, I know you will heal because in only a month you have already come so far. You are already able to smile, and laugh. Those smiles, and laughs aren’t forced either. You can look me, all of us in the eye without us asking you to. You hugged Colby on Sunday without flinching or freezing. You gave him permission to

“I…I don’t know.”

you. Today was

was nothing

what happened in self

really good. I never realized how many systems were in the body.” I

system are you working on right

“The skeleton of humans.”

brought dinner for all of us. Are you

moved Lilac away from me,

chef

“That’s good.”

of them handed Lexi her meal then sat on the floor next

can I ask what happened

I heard a sound from

“Of what?” Norm asked.

“…um…..” I sputtered.

and to do that maybe if we

or laugh at me. Or even

have a feeling it is a lot more than what

every way they can. They will not let

the screen. He was looking at me with a small smile. I saw pride in his eyes, and support. He nodded at me slightly. I looked back at my food,

way. Lexi was right, they needed to know so if something like what happened today happened again they

told them. I started from the very beginning. including what happened with Dimitri, Aurora, and my mom I told them about all of the abuse, being ignored, starved, humiliated, degraded, and turned into a slave. I also told

in her eyes. Norm was clinging to Marcus. Marcus looked at me with sadness, but also with

Rowen. She is very strong.” Lexi

need to help her

live through all of that?”

feel like this is all a

is real. This is your life now. You’re getting the education you dreamed of. You have friends and family who love you. You also have an amazing mate who is doing the opposite of what every Alpha I have ever known does. I promise you this is not a

off your panic attack

as he pinched his

taught outside of the designated classroom. The only time you were supposed to be in the gym was for the first couple of

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