The Alpha Who Saved Me

CHAPTER 104

It's been a month since I've talked to Declan, but I know he's been around my pack grounds, I can feel him every time he stops by. He never tries to see me, giving me the space that I need but still being able to keep his promise to Gavin about watching over me and Ash. It's one of the reasons why I didn't put a stop to him. coming until I was ready. I couldn't do that to Gavin.

Since that night that Declan and I got into it, I've talked to Demi about staying on at my pack house as Ash's nanny and she was quick to accept. She's been a bit hesitant to talk about Ayden being Ash's Beta when they are older, but I think I may have her talked into it. I know it will be Ayden's decision when the time. comes, but normally, once they get their wolves at seventeen, we bond the future Alpha, Beta, and if there is a Gamma, together, so they have a strong bond by the time the take over the pack. For now, I'll just be happy to have uncle and nephew grow up together.

Word came to me through the grapevine that the test results showed that Holden truly is Declan's child. Okay, Cici is the grapevine. She told me, when her brother told her, that he was in the room with Declan when he opened the results. I'm happy for Declan, truly I am, because I was dreading him finding out that the son that he has loved and nurtured for over a year isn't really his. So, I'm happy in that sense, but for some reason, I still feel a sadness over the whole situation.

I shake myself from thinking on it any longer, after all, not my circus, not my monkeys. It's my mantra every time my mind begins. to wander in that direction, which is often, unfortunately. I try so hard to keep my mind on other things, but it always wanders back to my other family. Yes, I've considered the Storm River pack my

family since I was fifteen years old, and they will always be my family. Declan and I are just having a little sibling's quarrel.

'Don't ever think of Declan and Duke as our siblings. That's just wrong!' Tala gives a little shiver.

'What's wrong with thinking of them as that?'

'They both are much more than that!' My wolf scoffs.

'Why do you say that, Tala?'

'I can't reveal my reason just yet, and I really wish you would learn to listen to me.' She has the audacity to lecture me, 'Had you listened, we wouldn't have been heartbroken over losing your chosen mate, because we wouldn't have mated them!'

Her words sting. I bring my hand to Gavin's fading mark on my neck. Soon it will be gone for good, 'I loved him Tala and I know you did too! Besides, we wouldn't have our pup had we not!'

My wolf sighs, 'I know this, Quinn, but we would have had a pup eventually, when it was time...'

'Tell me, Tala, did the Goddess Selene tell you that I was making the wrong choice?'

'Well, no but...'

can you say that I made the wrong choice? Deep down. everything felt right, it felt that I

to say to that, but I

our

how much it hurts.' She says softly.

well, unfortunately, I found that out the hard way. I just hope it isn't the reason that he died. I hope I didn't get him killed for loving him so much.'

think that. It was all his father's doing, never

when I really need her to be. She's the only one that knows me so well, and the only one that is here for me always. No mate can ever take the place of your

when I hear a baby laugh and I automatically know that it's Holden. I smile and pick up my steps, not even thinking that if Holden is here, then so is his father. I spot him playing on the floor with Ayden and I scoop him up and start smothering him in kisses. His little giggles go straight to my

he reaches out, "Dada, dada!"

but I don't care anymore, I'm over it, and I'm tired of giving him the silent treatment. He's respected me and given me my space for a whole month now. I think I can stop acting like

I finally end the torture, I set him back down on the floor with Ayden and squat down to smother kisses on the toddlers face as

who is nearby.

in Declan's arms, and I smile. I'm glad that Declan has still been coming around, so Ash can get used to him. I don't want to break that bond over my own selfish ways.

fall asleep in your arms

seems as though I may be a bit boring to the

back to the two other little ones, "How about we go

over at Demi, "I'll switch you kids for a bit. You stay

I'm getting the best part of the deal!" She

Holden wobbles behind as fast as his little legs can take him,

while, but he was

can't quite do it just yet. I swing him up in the air and then place him on my hip giving each step of mine an extra

reach the bottom, I let him go once more, just

on the bench by

softly and out

truly mine but too scared to really find out the truth. I was only upset, because I was afraid of finding out that he wasn't really mine." Neither one of us