The Author's POV

'What did I just see?'

Kevin felt his heart grow cold.

'T...that can't be real, right? Re..n would never do that...'

He was in a state of complete denial. But, it was at this moment that he suddenly recalled his past flashbacks of what Ren had done with Emma, and it was from there that he was able to calm himself down.

'That's not the Ren I know. It's a different Ren.'

He repeatedly told himself. Recalling the conversation he had with Ren in the past and connecting everything with his visions, things were slowly starting to make sense.

'Why is it dark?'

Following his death, the scene once again shifted. This time, the world was dark. However, upon paying close attention, he could hear the sound of birds chirping in the distance.

Chirp. Chirp. Chirp.

'Birds? What's going on?'

Kevin could faintly feel the warm, gentle sunshine enveloping his whole body.

It was then that Ren opened his eyes and Kevin found himself inside a one-bedroom apartment.

Rubbing his eyes, he blinked a couple of times and once more looked at my strange surroundings.

'This place...'

It looked familiar. Kevin couldn't just quite remember where he had seen this room before.

The room was furnished with the basic necessities that comprised a clean white bed, an old wooden spacious desk, a tall wardrobe, and a small bathroom. It was neither too big nor too small, but it seemed to have all the necessary facilities one might need when living.

'...Just why is this so familiar to me?'

Kevin thought to himself as he continued to stare at the room. It was strange, but Kevin knew for sure that he had seen this room before.

...But no matter how much he tried to think about it, he couldn't exactly remember where he had seen it.

'How odd.'

Shifting his body, Kevin's head turned to face the nearby window.

Reflected on it was a familiar face.

Jet black hair

Pale white skin

Blue ocean-like eyes

It was Ren's face...but younger. A lot younger.

'What memory is this?'

Kevin wondered as Ren's body shifted and he pressed his foot on the ground to help his body up.

"...Another failure."

Ren muttered while he stood up, and headed for the nearby desk where he sat down.

Opening the drawer beside the desk, he took out a small notebook alongside a small pen.

Grasping the pen beside him, Ren's body froze for a small second. With his eyes locked onto the pen, he slowly brought it next to his neck.

Click—!

Pressing onto the top end of the pen, the sharp tip came out.

Ren gently pressed it against his neck. Slowly, he began to put more pressure.

'What is he doing?'

Kevin wondered as he felt the sharp tip of the pen press against Ren's neck. His actions didn't make sense to Kevin at all.

'Don't tell me that he's...'

"Haaa..."

Before Kevin could come up with an assumption, Ren let out a long sigh and lowered the hand that held onto the pen. The pressure on his neck disappeared.

Casually tossing the pen on the desk, Ren reclined on the chair and emptily stared at the white ceiling of the room.

Grasping his chest with his hand, he mumbled.

"...What's the point? It's not like anything will change."

Though his words were casual, they were enough to alarm Kevin who was watching everything.

At this point, no matter how much he tried to feel the emotions Ren was experiencing, he couldn't feel anything. He basically felt like an empty shell whose sole reason for living was something that Kevin was still unsure of...but from his earlier actions, Kevin had an inkling that perhaps, just maybe, Ren didn't really want to be alive.

It was as if something was stopping him from dying. Or maybe he was just overthinking.

...but as he thought back at the moment he pressed the pen against his neck, Kevin was left uncertain about his theory.

Leaning his body forward, Ren grasped the pen he had thrown on the table and opened the book.

He then began to write something.

I

Chills ran through his body as he had a hard

'I..it can't be, right?'

in a state of denial,

denying anything. He had already figured everything out after connecting the dots from his vision...yet, a small part of him still

that it was only wishful thinking

knew, but he was still nonetheless Ren. A stinging pain started to quickly spread across

'...Why? Just why?'

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words with his pen, Ren continued to write more

Kevin was close to in the previous loop before he comes in contact with them in this loop. Same goes for my family. It's better

the last words etched into the paper, the world started to

and debris appeared everywhere as corpses and limbs

enshrouded the

"Haa...haa..."

as the sound of his rough breathing broke the silence that was enshrouding the

'Where am I?'

looked around him. It was also then that he noticed that

scene. It

what he was seeing, Kevin suddenly had

Ren began to lift his head and his eyes laid on

on a broken building, the figure blankly stared toward the sky as a

no use, you won't be

the world as he proceeded to raise

to have come to a standstill as demonic energy gathered towards the palm of his hand, forming a small ball the size of

"Stay put."

form, Kevin felt his hand rise before he

Crack. Crack.

the red-eyed figure, cracks formed as the ground crushed against

the red-eyed figure was completely unfazed as he

deepened as their

with your useless

"Shut up."

the area around him pulverized into bits. The gravity around him started to warp, and the

Rumble. Rumble.

His power was overwhelming.

his body turn, he was once again shocked to see a figure resembling himself standing in the distance, and it

'This scene...'

"Your turn."

downwardly, Ren kept the other

his power wasn't enough to contain

you waiting

he urged his other self who was standing in the distance.

the other Kevin's lips trembled after glancing at the red-eyed figure and then looking at

outcome that

you

back. His brows furrowed tightly, and his voice became even

other Kevin pointed towards the

of humanity has been destroyed because of your actions, and yet, you

the other Kevin's fists clenched tightly, his voice rang throughout

sacrifice the whole of humanity! What's the point

mouth to say something. Matching

'Because I don't care.'

"...Because I don't care."

Kevin finally understood why felt a sense of Deja vu'

his vision. He could clearly remember each word that was about to be

"You don't care?"

of his body was very faint and almost invisible, the pressure it released

because of your actions humanity is on the verge of

"What are you doing?"

dull voice echoed

his palm to the space next to him

that I should've done the moment

Clank. Clank. Clank.

the ground

time in a long time, Kevin felt Ren's face crack when he looked at the other

do you think you're

but no matter how much force he applied, he

much of a predicament he was, his voice

you do to

who was watching the scene with an amused look on his face. Although he was also on the verge of death, there was a triumphant look on

like it's going

his teeth, the other Kevin proceeded to ignore

"khh..."

the other Kevin's body slowly

his sudden actions, for the first time in a while, Kevin suddenly started to feel emotions spring out inside of Ren's body as he opened his

him now, end this now! End it!!!! You know full well that you're the only one that

'Desperation.'

Kevin felt as he felt his

always the

to a pause a couple of meters away from Ren. Their two eyes

Clank. Clank. Clank.

the chains wrapping around his body become more and more numerous, before they completely wrapped his

reach the other Kevin, Kevin realized that Ren had stopped shouting and the previous emotions that were

head and glaring in the other Kevin's direction,

this will be

"I don't know."

other Kevin shook

least for now,