The Author's POV

"Pathetic, isn't it?"

As I mumbled those words, I turned to face the people in the seats across from me.

My throat tightened as I felt the gazes of the people in the room.

Their gazes...

They felt rather suffocating. Especially when I met the gazes of Ryan and the others that were close to Smallsnake. I felt a deep sense of guilt when I saw the pained expression on their faces.

A part of me felt responsible for this mess.

It wasn't just that. As I spoke, memories of Smallsnake started to resurface inside my mind. Each and every one of them caused me to experience intense anguish.

Time stood at a standstill, and a great sense of wariness washed over me. Enough to give me the impression that my body had completely lost all of its vigor.

'...I look pretty pathetic, don't I?'

I lowered my head and stopped speaking.

I probably looked a far cry from how I usually acted, but I couldn't help it. Never did I expect a loss to impact me so much.

Unlike the other me, I still had emotions, and they weren't something I could just turn off with the flip of a switch.

I wish I could...

...I really wish I could.

I slowly raised my head and opened my mouth to speak. My eyes quietly swept the room in the process.

My gaze halted in a certain area just as I was about to speak.

My body began to tremble. A flood of emotions burst out from deep within my body while my eyes focused on a particular person in the distance.

He...

He looked just like me.

Black hair, blue eyes, and an indifferent look...it would be more appropriate to say that he was me.

He was standing near the rear of the room with shackles around his hands and feet. Everything around me started to vanish at that very moment, leaving only him to fill my field of vision.

Everything around me felt dark.

It seemed as though the world had ended and the two of us were the only people remaining in this world. Breathing and standing got a little more difficult, which intensified the feeling of unease that I felt.

'All of this...'

Blinking once, the world around me cleared up and I found myself inside the chapel again. He was still standing there.

His image continued to haunt me in my mind.

'...All of this is his fault.'

I quietly mumbled to myself.

Everything that was happening to me, and Smallsnake's death. It was all his fault.

I was sure of it.

Smallsnake's death was something he had planned.

At first, it didn't make sense to me, but by this point, I was positive. Smallsnake's death was planned by him. He had planned his demise with the sole purpose of inciting animosity between Jezebeth and I.

actions didn't make sense to me, but I

was his fault. He was cursed, yes...but so was

He was my curse.

That's why.

mouth, I quietly

'...Please die.'

***

lasted for

that time, several individuals walked up to the podium and shared their memories

didn't quite know Smallsnake. They were mostly there to support those that were affected by his

the number of people that were actually close to him didn't number more than ten. It

faces of those

unfold,

understood just how much this individual known as

seemed to be in

But...

'Please die.'

of his words, Kevin found himself unable

expression as he said those words, and the direction he was looking

he talking about

Why?

want him to

just didn't

weird to Kevin. In a way, he looked like the bad guy. He was the guy that turned Ren

felt that something

way, his actions made sense

he was presented with a choice to restart the world when half of it was destroyed as a result of Ren's actions, he would make

Ren was going through

His actions...

were no worse than

understood that...yet he couldn't bring himself to hate him. In a way, he felt sympathy

after understanding just how much pain he went through, and the reason for

doubt that he would behave the same way if put in the same

wasn't the thing that bothered

'...There's something missing.'

else was

but at the same time, Kevin knew that there was more to

it's time

his attention on her, he turned around and swept his gaze around the room. Soon his eyes paused on Ren who seemed to be with

his figure for a few seconds, Kevin's eyes drooped. Then, turning around,

"Let's go."

going to talk

"...Not now."

Kevin quietly mumbled.

repeated in

"Not now."

***

others back toward the headquarters

a lot of things that needed to be sorted out

Clank—!

thing that

be greeted

'You're finally here, Ren.'

'Shut up.'

'Fuck you.'

"Haha."

escaped from my lips