The Beast And The Blessed

Chapter 98

Ninety-Eight: Natalie

Natalie's P.O.V.

I could hear Her melodic voice on repeat, telling me to let go. She wanted me to lose control, control I had tried so hard to maintain. But she had been right.

I had lost control. I had let my emotions rule my magic, and now thousands were dead. It didn't bother me that they were. They needed to die to save the lives of my people. I would do it again in a heartbeat if I needed to.

But that was the problem. That was what I was scared of. What if I accidentally did it again?

How many of my own people would die because I got too angry, too scared, or too sad?

I wanted to celebrate with my pack as the city was alive with excitement. Bonfires were lit throughout the city, and people ate and drank to their hearts' content.

What we had anticipated being a long and drawn-out war, had ended in a matter of hours. We had lost so few that while they would be mourned and missed, the joy of so many returning home was something to celebrate.

Yet, I had difficulty enjoying myself when I felt like a ticking time bomb. I was too exhausted to think it would happen tonight, but what about tomorrow or next week?

My hands gripped the cold stone as I sat on the front steps of the castle, watching as Killian laughed and cheered with a drink in his hands. I had never seen him so carefree. It took almost an hour of me encouraging him to enjoy himself before he agreed to one celebratory drink.

He would be back at my side in a few minutes once his drink was gone, caring for me.

He understood that I needed a minute alone, and he respected that. Still, his eyes never strayed from me for more than a few minutes as he watched me with concern.

'It gets easier.' The voice came through the pack link, startling me.

left as Tobias moved to sit on the step below me, close enough to reach out and touch him if I wanted to but far enough away that I still felt

someone?' I asked before biting my tongue as I felt the lump in my throat grow more

fear that your strength may one day rule you. That you may hurt those you love.' His quiet admission felt more personal than I had expected,

lines of bonfires through the streets, with children

forward, and his hand was clenching and unclenching as it hung over

that the loved ones he

with several other wounded warriors in the infirmary. I knew it was her choice because

knew what had happened on that mountain yet. Agatha had been lost to her

wasn't sure what Joselin had witnessed in those mountains or what it was like to be stabbed, but she was fighting

to talk to me?’ I wondered,

Tobias was bothering me.

in annoyance when Tobias didn't respond. Our conversation already had him saying more

again as he impatiently waited for me to be ready for him to come back. I winked with a small smile, and

of me. I leaned against his stomach, and he wrapped his arms around me as he kissed my

it?’ Killian asked quietly, but I shook my head right away. "Would you like to go back to our room and sleep?’ Concern was laced in his voice. I knew

to return home. With her here, I would get answers about my father, we could continue

worked out in our favor this time. What if the next time

with the man I suspected to be my father would make meeting him easier, or I would be in trouble for sending him after she said she hadn't wanted to see him. She loved him, and based on how he hovered over me when he thought I was her, he still

piece of my hair between his fingers. The relaxing and gentle pulling sensation made me look up at him as my head fell back against his shoulder. "No, not yet. It is nice out here to

long as you would like." His lips pressed against the side of my head

to stand guard to the side, and I felt guilty that he was here

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