I can’t help but cover my mouth to not shout out. I can’t believe it. It’s really him. My heart just goes insane, beating like a drum and threatening to jump out of my chest. I have to be wrong, why the hell would Rick be in New York?
“Hera?”
I don’t react. I’m just completely stunned, in shock. A wave of memories suddenly takes over my mind, driving me insane with melancholy and bitter, stinging feelings I had buried deep before they drowned me. Rick’s gotten older by a few years, but there’s no way I’d forget the face of the only man I ever loved. On the screen, he looks like any other cop standing perfectly calm in his NYPD uniform. Since when the fuck did he even become a New York City Cop?
“I was about to leave,” Abe answers the question I already forgot.
Rick nods, and lets him walk away, while Charles still seems suspicious. My God, those two on the same screen is like a nightmare come true. What the hell is Rick doing at my funeral? Abe walks away, but then, he suddenly darts to the side, to stay behind and witness the scene. The camera goes dark, and we can’t see the two men’s actions nor faces, but we can hear them just fine.
“…Long time not see.”
“Agent Rivera,” Charles comments. “That’s funny, I don’t remember you being part of the NYPD?”
“I moved departments recently.”
“New York is quite far from your hometown.”
“I had personal interests here.”
The shots are being fired and my heart’s being cribbled with bullets. Someone amongst the female vampires chuckles, visibly excited by the tension, but I’m not quite the same. It’s horrible for me to listen to this, and I’m just glad I can’t see it. I want to scream, but instead, I just muffle it behind my palm.
“…My condolences,” Charles mutters. “I know you had some feelings for her too.”
“I did.”
The answer’s angry tone clearly means he held more than “some feelings” for me, but Charles pretends not to hear it. He clears his throat.
“I understand you’d want a minute,” he calmly says. “After all, you didn’t get to… see her again.”
He tries to walk away, the brunette’s heels right behind him, but before we hear more than three steps, Rick’s voice echoes in the church.
“It’s strange, isn’t it?”
Charles stops.
“…Excuse me?”
“How she was alone, the night of her death?”
“I’m very sorry, Agent Rivera. I was attending a Charity Party on the other side of Manhattan. I should have had someone stay with her, but June barely accepted anyone but me by her side in the… last weeks.”
That’s not true. I just didn’t have anyone else to turn to.
“So you left her on her own, in a hotel room?”
“She chose to stay there herself, she felt safe in the hotel. You can ask her manager, she’d picked it hers-”
“There were lots of blades in that room.”
“…Excuse me?”
“There were razors, kitchen knives and many other dangerous things.”
June didn’t get out, she needed the things that are used in an actual
no issue leaving her alone
the screen, despite it being completely dark. Wherever
trying to do here, but I’d suggest you deal with your grief in a better way than accusing me of neglect. I was her fiancé, you were her ex-boyfriend. For you to come into the picture now
that
was interesting,” says Rebecca, raising her
Agent Cutie for the stuck-up dude?” Cecily frowns. “Is there something wrong
all of them, and stand up, turning around
put me through this? What was the point?! Show me how little people actually cared about my
you that, Darling,” says Cata, looking genuinely
this? Even if some people cared about me, it’s too fucking late now! I can’t just
“Hera, stop it.”
I can’t just keep screaming my agonizing feelings out. His
choose to
the other vampires are just about as confused as I am. My emotions at their wits’ ends, I nervously laugh,
just say?” I
was not
shake my head. Perhaps Richard’s mad, or he
suicide,” I mutter. “I did. I’m… grateful, if you’re trying to console me, but I remember very precisely what I did.
you remember
again. What is he playing at with this strange question? I hesitate, but glance around, and there’s a whole room of vampires waiting for me to answer him as if his question made
I remember that… void. That deep, overwhelming sadness that just kept me in that dark place. It… it was like I couldn’t laugh or smile ever again. Like I’d never get out of it. I wanted to, but I always just wanted to cry, to disappear. It was like that every day, for weeks. Nothing could make me smile, I just felt completely… void. like there was a heavy, heavy weight on my heart that just sucked all the happiness and joy away. Like I wasn’t in tune with the rest of the world, as if… it could just go on and keep spinning without
try to pretend like I don’t know I’ve got tears running down my cheeks. The mere memory of that… horrible turmoil, the maze of sadness, loneliness and pain trapping me all over again. It’s not just my actual death; I remember days and days going by without me seeing anything that could end my torture. The depression kept me stuck in bed, or on the floor, with just no idea what to do with my pathetic self, almost hoping that feeling would magically go away someday, and knowing there was
about it,” mutters Benedict, crossing his arms. “And I
do,
up here, in London?”Daily
right back into the rollercoaster. I shrug, utterly
suppose.
doesn’t make
to Anna, who’s staring at me as if I’m some confusing problem.
“There’s no way, right?”
are you talking about?”
doesn’t magically disappear,” Cecily rolls her eyes, as if it was obvious. “You don’t just get rid of it within two days, certainly not because you’re transformed. Most of us took days, if not weeks, to get over whatever trauma caused our deaths, Baby.
to Richard, but he’s also staring
“Because
says Rebecca. “It just doesn’t make sense. Clinical Depression isn’t just a state of mind,
a psychiatrist, and that’s how they…
you have
just meds. …I’m sorry but I still don’t get it.
the means to get someone who could have helped you,
one but him and perhaps a couple of staff for weeks, so now, can you tell me
“Everything.”
but stares at it, quickly reading the lines with her eyebrows slowly tilting from upwards to downwards. I barely saw anything, but it looked like a lot of
this?” Bart asks, glancing over her shoulder and
proof that our Baby didn’t commit suicide of her own
confusing by the minute. While most of us
interesting mix of Beta-blockers, Corticosteroids, isotretinoin, carbidopa,
mutter, recognizing only that word. “Like drugs?
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