The Girl He Craves

Sophie’s pov

As soon as I entered Mary, the tears I tried to desperately hold comes flowing out like a river.
I’m a hiccuping mess in a matter of a few seconds.

I sobbed, gripping the steering wheel and throwing my head on the horn.

It blares by accident but I don’t care.

I hate him.

I hate him for doing this to me.

Why does he always have to hurt me? I’m not sure how long I’ve been crying, all I know is that my throat is dry and throbbing by the time I’m done.

And having his essence still inside me was making this all the more worst.

It’s reminding me every second of him and what we did up there in his office.

It’s reminding me of what happened after.

Suddenly there’s a knock on the glass window and I stop crying altogether and freeze.

Was it Aiden? My heart slams against my chest as I lift my head and quickly wiped under my nose as I looked at who knocked on my glass.

I’m relieved yet disappointed that it wasn’t him, but an unfamiliar lady.

I rolled down the window which made a tiny screeching sound.

I cringed inwardly, already knowing how horrible I look right now.

“Yes?” I asked politely even though I wanted to drive away and not look back because of how embarrassed I was about how | currently look.

She smiled just as politely.

I’m sorry to disturb but I couldn’t help but notice that you were upset.

I just wanted to check up and see if you were okay?”
How sweet of her.

I nod and with a gentle smile, I respond.

“Yes, I am.” I lied smoothly.

“I’m okay, don’t worry.” God, I don’t know when I’ll ever be okay.

The woman nods but doesn’t look like she believed me.

“Okay.

If it helps, everything gets better after a while.” With a smile, the woman leaves and I watch her walk into the SUV parked beside my old car and drive away.

I can’t help but think about her parting words.

I didn’t think things would get better.

It was clear Aiden was still the same guy from high school.

And no matter how much my heart still craves for him, I knew that we would never happen.

Aiden didn’t know how to love, he only knew how to hurt
And I refuse to let him hurt our son.

I started Mary, thanking her that today she worked better than yesterday.

one last time and drive

I liked to run

away meant protecting my son, then that I will

counter, kicked off my

Bernard to tell him

didn’t think he’d understand and I didn’t know where to even

than

left without saying anything

he did go out of

I

like the mess I was after leaving Aiden’s office to go speak to

just call him later on, or

day after

guy? I really didn’t want him to see me as a monster

I know, he’d force me to tell Aiden or he would tell

as the thought rang

hate me even more

Ash, deny ever being with

Or he’d want custody.

and I

seat while throwing up and

Aiden ever finds out about Ash, would he fight me for custody? Because it was clear he didn’t

fear swirled in my

wouldn’t be such a good idea to

toilet and walked to the sink and looked at my reflection in the mirror

like

like it

the faucet and cupped my hand under the

from my mouth, I kicked the edge of the door so it

to go through Ria’s stash of plan b packets

faucet, and peeled off every layer of clothes

playing me into a trap after all,

then knew exactly what to do to bait me into going

him yet again and allowing him to mark me by cumming

disappointed that I

to pick up Ash today from daycare seeing as Mary was giving a bit of trouble on the way here and I

was a mess, both inside and

and staying under the warm sprinkle of water did

still looked miserable and felt

pick up Ash, I set my phone down and walked over to the

this but I really did need that ice cream tub more than her

ice cream tub out of the freezer

and frustration in cookies and cream ice cream

the tub and only woke up when I heard the

sounds at the door and I pinched the

at Noel to leave me

that I didn’t want to speak

Xavier, Mr.

“Enter,” I said, cutting

swings open and Bernard steps into my

closed the door behind him and when her footfalls fade he

chair, my legs kicked up on the desk,

but it was the only thing that was keeping my mind off

Well, a little bit.