The Silent Alpha (Natalia)

Chapter 20

Chapter 20: First steps

***Jane***

Agnes and I spend the morning with Kota, Rosalie, Rosalie’s baby Emile, and Evan, fighting our own anxiety from our lack of activity.

In all my life, I had never had a moment to rest, to just sit and watch a movie or play games without a care in the world.

Even if there was chance that I completed my chores, my mind and self-hatred would torture me relentlessly.

As a pup, my father put me through rigorous schooling and speech therapies to make me the best Alpha I could be.

Of course, I could never live up to his expectations.

He would make me stand before him once a week to recite the history of our pack or the laws that governed it and the kingdom.

If I faltered in my pronunciation, I would be struck with a whip.

There was never a day that I made it out of a recital without shedding blood.

My mother would weep sorrowfully, begging my father helplessly to have mercy.

She would sometimes be beaten herself for attempting to shield me.

It hurt my soul to fail her so miserably but no matter how hard I concentrated, my tongue would only grow stiffer, and my words would slur like a drunk.

After I was demoted to Omega status, I became a field hand, carrying weapons for the warriors in training or helping maintain the equipment in the hot sun or cold winters.

As I grew older, I learned many things to make myself useful such as plumbing, mechanics, painting and other basic maintenance jobs.

Agnes is no different.

With her hearing gone, she had to make herself useful to earn her meals.

No one wants an extra mouth to feed.

She was beaten relentlessly by other Omegas if she slipped up.

She learned to be quick in the kitchen, never resting for fear she would be cast out or killed by the Omegas.

So, as we sit comfortably on the couch watching Aladdin with Kota, Agnes and I find it hard to rest, wondering if at any moment, this pack’s kindness would run out.

Even Grayson could not find the words to soothe my racing thoughts.

Feeling myself about to break, I get up quietly and search for a pen and paper before approaching Rosalie with a note.

“Are you sure there is nothing we can do to be of service 2” Rosalie reads aloud before raising an eyebrow at me.

“Are you bored?” She asks nervously.

“W-we can go to the park if you like.Kota could stretch his legs and play with some other pups.Let me just get the stroller for Emile,” she says as Evan gets up from his spot to find said stroller.I shake my head at her, writing out my response.

“We just don’t want to be a burden.”She stares at the note before smiling up at me.

“You are our guests, not a burden,” She chuckles.

“Gwen asked for this favor and need,” She smiles.

“Just relax and enjoy yourselves. Take this a small vacation while Gwen finishes up her work.”

Just then we hear the door open, and Natalia appears on her own, a thoughtful look in her eyes.

“You’re back!” Rosalie chirps.

“How was the walk? Did you see all of River Moon?” She asks with a cheerful smile.

Talia smiles sheepishly, her eyes staring at her hands.

“It was …eye opening…” she replies quietly.

“Aurora just had an emergency to deal with.”

There’s a serious tone in her voice and Rosalie appears to understand the true meaning behind her words.

“Well, you’ve come just in time.I think Kota might enjoy some time at the park,”

She gestures to Kota watching the movie on the floor with Rio lying lazily next to him.

“Yeah, mommy!” Kota cries, scrambling to his feet.

“Can we go to the park?”

before giving her consent, Kota bouncing with excitement

for Rosalie’s pup, some blankets,

explaining their purpose to

Kota like a hawk whenever he runs ahead of us with Rio

up a picnic for the girls, spreading out a blanket with snacks and pillows

Rio through the open field to the playground, several pups gathering around him

begin a game of sorts where they run after each

I could help comfort in

She is already frightened.

to scare her

perimeter of the park, picking flowers, thin sticks, and

begins weaving them into crowns, her nimble fingers delicately folding

over her shoulder, praising

the crown to Rosalie, placing it on top

me?” Rosalie asks with a smile as

says, remembering the ‘thank you’

flower crown

so focused on her pup and

Agnes “Sorry,”

a trembling hand, stepping

few moments before taking the flower

me, is all,” Talia apologizes, turning to me

smiles nervously and apologizes once

question I

afraid of werewolves?” She asks bluntly, placing her chin in her hand and looking at

Talia shifts uncomfortably on her pillow and shakes her

says with a

“How old is he?”

line, as if holding her tongue, before turning to the

months old… almost

smiles proudly before her face grows

us about her story,” she says with a

here so you can

have hurt you already if we wanted

watches Kota play

to have more questions but decides to keep them to herself for the time being.We remain at the park for lunch and a few hours thereafter until Kota and Rio tire themselves out and lifting his arms up for me to carry

but I can see the hurt in her

us to the guest house can feel a small pain in my heart as we make the small trek in silence and try

Maybe hold her hand…

Grayson suggests.

until I walk alongside her, Kota mumbling

I touch her hand, Talia flinching away

her to snap at me but instead,

she suddenly takes my hand, interlocking our fingers in a firm

my arm, but I can still

a small whimper escapes her throat and she squeezes

me for a little while

can’t.I’m sorry,” She explains, holding her hand as if

f**k!” she groans, wiping a few stray tears that rolled

face and holds her head

just tired,” She whispers, avoiding my

She instructs as she

the house, Talia prepares a warm bath for Kota, but he begs her to let me wash him in her place.Talia looks like she might burst into tears after being rejected by her son for the second time today but nonetheless, appeases

do it?” She asks, her voice

as she looks at me with glossy

know he is truly unaware of how much his simple request is hurting her.I accept and Talia hands me

him stay in there

him help you clean up if he makes a mess.He needs to learn that there are consequences to his

the hall, leaving me alone

tub, grabbing a handful of

to wash him so that he can enjoy the bubbles before

Talia forewarned, Kota tries to splash me many times, but I grab his two little hands and place them over his

Kota,” I

the hole much to Kota’s

the little boy in

is s-sad,” I whisper

his thumb, his blue and brown eyes blinking at

sad?” He asks, a patient look in

miss-misses home,”

“Oh,” he sighs.

my smile and finish

like i-it t-t-too,” I

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