The Silent Alpha (Natalia)

Chapter 20

Chapter 20: First steps

***Jane***

Agnes and I spend the morning with Kota, Rosalie, Rosalie’s baby Emile, and Evan, fighting our own anxiety from our lack of activity.

In all my life, I had never had a moment to rest, to just sit and watch a movie or play games without a care in the world.

Even if there was chance that I completed my chores, my mind and self-hatred would torture me relentlessly.

As a pup, my father put me through rigorous schooling and speech therapies to make me the best Alpha I could be.

Of course, I could never live up to his expectations.

He would make me stand before him once a week to recite the history of our pack or the laws that governed it and the kingdom.

If I faltered in my pronunciation, I would be struck with a whip.

There was never a day that I made it out of a recital without shedding blood.

My mother would weep sorrowfully, begging my father helplessly to have mercy.

She would sometimes be beaten herself for attempting to shield me.

It hurt my soul to fail her so miserably but no matter how hard I concentrated, my tongue would only grow stiffer, and my words would slur like a drunk.

After I was demoted to Omega status, I became a field hand, carrying weapons for the warriors in training or helping maintain the equipment in the hot sun or cold winters.

As I grew older, I learned many things to make myself useful such as plumbing, mechanics, painting and other basic maintenance jobs.

Agnes is no different.

With her hearing gone, she had to make herself useful to earn her meals.

No one wants an extra mouth to feed.

She was beaten relentlessly by other Omegas if she slipped up.

She learned to be quick in the kitchen, never resting for fear she would be cast out or killed by the Omegas.

So, as we sit comfortably on the couch watching Aladdin with Kota, Agnes and I find it hard to rest, wondering if at any moment, this pack’s kindness would run out.

Even Grayson could not find the words to soothe my racing thoughts.

Feeling myself about to break, I get up quietly and search for a pen and paper before approaching Rosalie with a note.

“Are you sure there is nothing we can do to be of service 2” Rosalie reads aloud before raising an eyebrow at me.

“Are you bored?” She asks nervously.

“W-we can go to the park if you like.Kota could stretch his legs and play with some other pups.Let me just get the stroller for Emile,” she says as Evan gets up from his spot to find said stroller.I shake my head at her, writing out my response.

“We just don’t want to be a burden.”She stares at the note before smiling up at me.

“You are our guests, not a burden,” She chuckles.

“Gwen asked for this favor and need,” She smiles.

“Just relax and enjoy yourselves. Take this a small vacation while Gwen finishes up her work.”

Just then we hear the door open, and Natalia appears on her own, a thoughtful look in her eyes.

“You’re back!” Rosalie chirps.

“How was the walk? Did you see all of River Moon?” She asks with a cheerful smile.

Talia smiles sheepishly, her eyes staring at her hands.

“It was …eye opening…” she replies quietly.

“Aurora just had an emergency to deal with.”

There’s a serious tone in her voice and Rosalie appears to understand the true meaning behind her words.

“Well, you’ve come just in time.I think Kota might enjoy some time at the park,”

She gestures to Kota watching the movie on the floor with Rio lying lazily next to him.

“Yeah, mommy!” Kota cries, scrambling to his feet.

“Can we go to the park?”

looks anxiously at Rosalie and I before giving her consent,

the stroller for Rosalie’s pup, some blankets, and Rio’s

chatters away, pointing out different buildings and explaining their purpose to us to keep

stays close to me, watching Kota like a hawk whenever he runs ahead of

up a picnic for the girls, spreading out a

to the playground, several pups

they begin a game of sorts where they run after each other

eyes remain vigilant, and I wish with all my heart that I could help comfort in some way, but I know better

She is already frightened.

need to scare her

walks around the perimeter of the park, picking

with a large pile of foliage and begins weaving them into crowns, her nimble fingers delicately folding the flower

watches with awe over her shoulder, praising her

the crown to Rosalie, placing it on top

smile as she puts her now

the ‘thank you’ sign from

crown and places

with fright at the gesture, having been so focused

Agnes “Sorry,”

with a

for a few moments before taking the flower crown

me, is all,” Talia apologizes, turning to me

and apologizes once

a question I had been

you so afraid of werewolves?” She asks bluntly, placing her

uncomfortably on her pillow and shakes

have a lovely pup…” she says with a forced smile,

“How old is he?”

a tight line, as if holding her tongue, before turning to the

four months old… almost

before her face grows

us about her story,”

safe here so you can stop looking at us

hurt you already if

remains silent and watches Kota play with the

at the park for lunch and a few hours thereafter until Kota and Rio tire themselves out and lifting his arms up for

but I can see the hurt in her eyes

can urge Kota to go to his mother, Talia shakes her head at me to stop and walks on ahead of us to the guest house can feel a small

Maybe hold her hand…

Grayson suggests.

pace until I walk alongside her, Kota mumbling with sleepiness in

her hand, Talia flinching away at the sensation of the

mentally prepare for her to snap at me but instead, she just stares

mouth to apologize when she suddenly takes my hand, interlocking our

arm, but I can still feel her hand

lower lip as a small whimper escapes her throat and she squeezes my hand with all her

me for a little

can’t.I’m sorry,” She explains, holding her hand as

she groans, wiping a few

hardens her face and

She whispers, avoiding

She

her to let me wash him in her place.Talia looks like she might burst into tears after being rejected

She asks,

heart returns as

his mother’s heart, but I know he is truly unaware of how much his simple request

in there too long,” she

splash you so be firm and have him help you clean up if he makes a mess.He needs

hall, leaving me alone with the cheeky pup grinning at

climbs into the bubble filled tub, grabbing a handful

him so that he can enjoy the

but I grab his two

m-no-more, Kota,”

slowly draining down the hole much to Kota’s dismay glance at the door and

I dress the little boy in a pair of

mommy is s-sad,” I whisper to him, sliding his socks over his

thumb, his blue and brown eyes blinking at

He asks,

s-she miss-misses home,”

“Oh,” he sighs.

like it here.” I hide my smile and finish

like i-it

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