The Silent Alpha (Natalia)

Chapter 20

Chapter 20: First steps

***Jane***

Agnes and I spend the morning with Kota, Rosalie, Rosalie’s baby Emile, and Evan, fighting our own anxiety from our lack of activity.

In all my life, I had never had a moment to rest, to just sit and watch a movie or play games without a care in the world.

Even if there was chance that I completed my chores, my mind and self-hatred would torture me relentlessly.

As a pup, my father put me through rigorous schooling and speech therapies to make me the best Alpha I could be.

Of course, I could never live up to his expectations.

He would make me stand before him once a week to recite the history of our pack or the laws that governed it and the kingdom.

If I faltered in my pronunciation, I would be struck with a whip.

There was never a day that I made it out of a recital without shedding blood.

My mother would weep sorrowfully, begging my father helplessly to have mercy.

She would sometimes be beaten herself for attempting to shield me.

It hurt my soul to fail her so miserably but no matter how hard I concentrated, my tongue would only grow stiffer, and my words would slur like a drunk.

After I was demoted to Omega status, I became a field hand, carrying weapons for the warriors in training or helping maintain the equipment in the hot sun or cold winters.

As I grew older, I learned many things to make myself useful such as plumbing, mechanics, painting and other basic maintenance jobs.

Agnes is no different.

With her hearing gone, she had to make herself useful to earn her meals.

No one wants an extra mouth to feed.

She was beaten relentlessly by other Omegas if she slipped up.

She learned to be quick in the kitchen, never resting for fear she would be cast out or killed by the Omegas.

So, as we sit comfortably on the couch watching Aladdin with Kota, Agnes and I find it hard to rest, wondering if at any moment, this pack’s kindness would run out.

Even Grayson could not find the words to soothe my racing thoughts.

Feeling myself about to break, I get up quietly and search for a pen and paper before approaching Rosalie with a note.

“Are you sure there is nothing we can do to be of service 2” Rosalie reads aloud before raising an eyebrow at me.

“Are you bored?” She asks nervously.

“W-we can go to the park if you like.Kota could stretch his legs and play with some other pups.Let me just get the stroller for Emile,” she says as Evan gets up from his spot to find said stroller.I shake my head at her, writing out my response.

“We just don’t want to be a burden.”She stares at the note before smiling up at me.

“You are our guests, not a burden,” She chuckles.

“Gwen asked for this favor and need,” She smiles.

“Just relax and enjoy yourselves. Take this a small vacation while Gwen finishes up her work.”

Just then we hear the door open, and Natalia appears on her own, a thoughtful look in her eyes.

“You’re back!” Rosalie chirps.

“How was the walk? Did you see all of River Moon?” She asks with a cheerful smile.

Talia smiles sheepishly, her eyes staring at her hands.

“It was …eye opening…” she replies quietly.

“Aurora just had an emergency to deal with.”

There’s a serious tone in her voice and Rosalie appears to understand the true meaning behind her words.

“Well, you’ve come just in time.I think Kota might enjoy some time at the park,”

She gestures to Kota watching the movie on the floor with Rio lying lazily next to him.

“Yeah, mommy!” Kota cries, scrambling to his feet.

“Can we go to the park?”

anxiously at Rosalie and I before giving her consent, Kota bouncing with excitement while

with the stroller for Rosalie’s

and explaining their purpose to us to keep the

Kota like a hawk whenever he runs ahead of us with Rio

up a picnic for the girls, spreading out

through the open field to the playground, several pups gathering around

of sorts where they run after each other and freeze in place

with all my heart that I could help comfort in some way, but I know

She is already frightened.

do not need to scare her

the perimeter of the park, picking flowers, thin sticks, and

large pile of foliage and begins weaving them into crowns, her nimble fingers delicately folding

with awe over her shoulder, praising her

to Rosalie, placing it on top of

asks with a smile as she puts her now sleeping pup away

she says, remembering the ‘thank

flower crown

fright at the gesture, having been so focused on

Agnes “Sorry,”

with a trembling

a few moments before taking the flower crown and

scared me, is all,” Talia apologizes, turning to

and apologizes once again for scaring

before asking a question I

you so afraid of werewolves?” She asks bluntly, placing her chin in her hand and looking at

Talia shifts uncomfortably on her

pup…” she says with a forced smile,

“How old is he?”

purses her lips in a tight line, as if holding her tongue, before turning to the

four months old…

smiles proudly before her face

to us about

us.But just FYI, you are safe here so you can stop looking at us like we’re going to eat you,” she says with a

hurt you already if

and watches Kota

herself for the time being.We remain at the park for lunch and a few hours thereafter until Kota and Rio tire themselves out and lifting

smile, but I can see the hurt

go to his mother, Talia shakes her head at me to stop and walks on ahead of us to the guest house can feel a small pain in my heart as we make the small trek in silence and try to

Maybe hold her hand…

Grayson suggests.

until I walk alongside her, Kota mumbling with sleepiness in my

of courage I have, I touch her hand, Talia flinching away at

as I mentally prepare for her to

to apologize when she suddenly takes my hand, interlocking our fingers in a

my arm, but I can still feel her hand shaking in

a small whimper escapes her throat and she squeezes my hand with

holds onto me for a

explains, holding her hand as if

wiping a few stray tears that rolled down her

her face and holds her

tired,” She whispers, avoiding my

She instructs as she walks ahead

for Kota, but he begs her to let me wash him in her place.Talia looks like she might burst into tears after

it?” She asks, her

returns as she looks at me with glossy

for breaking his mother’s heart, but I know he is truly unaware of how much his simple request is

stay in there too

you so be firm and have him help you clean up if he makes a mess.He needs to

down the hall, leaving me alone with the cheeky

and climbs into the bubble filled tub, grabbing a handful

to wash him so that he can enjoy the bubbles before the

Kota tries to splash me many times, but I grab his two little hands and

m-no-more, Kota,” I

in the tub, the water slowly draining down the hole much

are alone, I dress the little boy in a pair of blue

is s-sad,” I whisper

blue and brown eyes blinking

mommy sad?” He asks, a

thi-thi-think s-she miss-misses home,” I

“Oh,” he sighs.

my smile and finish putting

like i-it t-t-too,” I

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