Unspoken Pleasure by Erotica

Fantasies Of My Brother: 1

She has a crush on her older brother...

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Sean was my older brother and for a long time I'd had a crush on him. He was pretty much the worst guy I could possibly be attracted to as far as I was concerned. For starters, there next to no chance he would ever feel the same way about his annoying, eighteen-year-old little sister as I felt about him.

It wasn't just that he was completely unattainable, that was pretty common for crushes as far as I could tell. It was always having him around, never getting a break from the fantasies floating around in my head. Every time I met him in the hallway coming out of the shower with his hair still damp and a towel wrapped around his waist, every time I watched him swimming laps in the pool in our backyard, thoughts would surface in my head and drive me crazy.

He really was good looking, it wasn't just me who thought so. My friends talked about it sometimes, occasionally admitting their own crushes on him, but of course I could never tell them how I felt. That was one of the worst parts about it; I had nobody to talk to.

The guilt had been really bad when I first realized how I felt about him, but that had faded over time. These days the main concern I had as I lay in bed at night masturbating to images of my brother was that someone would find out. In my mind that would be disaster. Who would ever want to hang out with me if they knew something like that about me? Especially Sean. He was a pretty good older brother to me once he grew out of constantly picking on me but I was sure if he ever found out about my crush he would want nothing to do with me.

Fortunately he seemed completely oblivious to the attention I paid him. Given all the times I had caught myself staring at him it was a wonder he hadn't yet noticed.

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I was lying out on a lounger beside our pool working on my tan, nothing uncommon for me during the summer. Sean was just finishing up mowing the lawn and I had of course been surreptitiously watching him whenever he came into view. I had gotten quite good at leaving my eyelids open just enough to see through without anyone being able to tell. And when that was too difficult I could always fall back on simply wearing a pair of sunglasses.

Eventually he put the mower away in the garage and came over to sit down on the chair next to mine. He didn't speak for a minute or two, and I did my best to pretend I didn't even notice him.

"How's the tan coming Ashley?" he asked.

I shrugged, "not bad. Need more sunny days like this, it's been too cloudy lately."

"Should make sure you don't burn," he said casually.

"I'm being careful," I replied, completely failing to pick up on his tone.

we should

finally catching on

I surfaced and pushed my hair back out of

my top please?" I

lying on my stomach and had untied my bikini top to avoid getting a tan line across my back. Sean

away as I put it on, giving me what privacy he could. "Sorry about that Ash, I really didn't...

on

embarrassed as he was, probably should have been at least a little upset; I wasn't though. It really was just an accident, not

as he stood there awkwardly. Instead I picked up my towel and headed inside. A new fantasy was already building in my mind and I wanted to get to my room as quickly as possible. I forced myself to dry off properly first, no

door locked I was naked on my bed within seconds. Various scenarios played out in my head as my fingers worked furiously on

breasts as I passed him and I would pretend not to like it but he would ignore me. I would end

he would. I would just stand there as he felt me up, then our eyes would meet and he would kiss me. It would be gentle

was the part that turned me on the most. I came three times just thinking about it and

waiting for my breath to return to normal I looked over at the clock beside my bed. I had been at it for almost an hour which was a pretty long time even for me. My hand lazily stroked the

overdo it and pass out from dehydration or something, that

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he actually

talking to Julie on the phone when the story

whether I should tell anyone about it, but she was my best

kinda funny actually when he realized what he did. He was so

think its going to be awkward between

think its a big deal really. He probably doesn't even care except that I might

was a pause on the other end and I

been embarrassed because he liked seeing you, y'know, topless,"

second, I was worried that she somehow found out about my fantasies. I took a deep breath and tried to calm down. She didn't actually know anything, she was just speculating. It might even have just been a joke except that didn't seem like something she would joke