Unspoken Pleasure by Erotica

Fantasies Of My Brother: 2

Being able to talk to Julie helped a lot; I didn't feel nearly so alone anymore. All the worrying I'd done about telling her seemed silly in hindsight since she was nothing but supportive toward me. If she felt any negative feelings toward me at all she never showed so much as a hint of them.

The rest of my life remained pretty consistent, I still fantasized about Sean and masturbated way too much. He was unsurprisingly awkward around me at times, particularly when I was sunbathing. I ignored it for the most part since I assumed everything would get back to normal soon.

Everything did not, however, get back to normal. I was usually really good about keeping my door locked when I was feeling horny, someone would have caught me masturbating long ago if I wasn't. Obviously I wasn't quite as meticulous about it as I should have been.

I was just coming down from yet another self-inflicted orgasm when I saw Sean standing in the doorway, his hand still on the doorknob. We stared at each other stupidly as we shared a moment of panic for what seemed like hours.

"I thought I heard my name..." he mumbled and looked down at the floor.

"Jesus fuck Sean, get out!" I shouted, finally reacting to the situation.

I pulled my blanket over my naked body even though it was too late to do much good, then pulled it over my head before burying my face in my pillow. Hiding wouldn't help but I couldn't think of what else to do. The floorboards creaked quietly as Sean approached the bed.

"Go away!" I tried to yell but my words lacked the proper force.

Tears were welling up in my eyes, he knew my secret now. He heard me say his name, I didn't remember doing do but it could easily have slipped out while I was cumming. He definitely knew I was masturbating when I said it too. Maybe if I'd had clothes on at the time I could have passed it off as something else, but getting caught naked with my hand still lying on my cunt was pretty incriminating.

"Ashley, are you okay?" He sat down beside me on the bed. Why wouldn't he just leave me alone?

"Th'fuck do you think?" I said, still talking into my pillow.

"I think you're upset." I was going to say something sarcastic to that but he cut me off. Art, 1'uthin' things are yetting wenior Jettveerrus amorluorn' warntutlar: r&r wrathis worth I'm willing to pretend this didn't happen. It's not worth losing our relationship over."

I didn't answer immediately. What did he mean 'pretend it didn't happen' anyway? It was still going to be lurking at the back of his mind whenever he saw me. Can't just reset everything.

On the other hand he wasn't reacting nearly as badly as he could be so that was something. He could have been angry, or pitying, or even disgusted with me instead of trying to work things out. The least I could do was play along.

"M'sorry," I mumbled.

"It's alright Ash, you can't always help...."

I waited for him to finish his sentence, but instead he abruptly rose and walked out of the room. I knew what he was thinking though; you can't always help who you're attracted to. I knew that all too well.

****

Despite what he had said Sean didn't do a very good job of pretending nothing was different. He was the one watching me now instead of the other way around. It wasn't just paranoia, I had watched him long enough to notice him doing the same to me. I ignored it for a while, again hoping that time would take care of my problems for me; but of course it didn't.

I said abruptly

up

made things all weird but could you at least not

was getting upset more easily these days, what I really needed was to talk to Julie and I decided to give

up from breakfast. He was still sitting there even though it

say I would pretend it

dishes as well as his and set them on the

"Fine, whatever," I said.

out loud. Sure he thought I was a complete freak but at least there was a certainty to it

even in my dreams. I don't know how you

it."

taking a very different turn from

you mean?" I asked. My hand was developing that slight tremble it got

shouldn't but I keep

behind me and I turned around toward

Sean, don't you dare," I

"I'm not."

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other at the same instant and my eyes closed as our lips met. It was so much better than all the times I had imagined it. His arms wrapped around my back and pulled my close as our

away and backed off. I looked at him uncomprehendingly and took a hesitant

Ash, I shouldn't have done

okay Sean, it's really

sorry. We can't, you know we

backed off further. The momentary happiness that

came crashing down. Why was he doing

Sean, I told

with you,

I shouted after him

Having my fantasies constantly dangled just out of reach was nothing new, but to actually touch one and have it yanked away cruelly

after and found me with my arms wrapped around my knees still on the kitchen floor. I told her everything about what happened with Sean, all the details as best

with me for a while if you want, until this blows over," she offered. "It might help to get some distance from

Julie, I think I'm okay though. Maybe this was what I needed, a sign that I

good as I pretended to be but I didn't want to worry Julie too much with my problems. We put our bikinis on and went outside where