A Lifetime With You by Athrhteera

Chapter 42

Matteo

My heart sank at the sight of my beautiful wife as she slept away her sorrows. Alena had always been petite but ever since we lost Marco, she had been losing more weight. She skipped her meals, spent most of her time staring out the window and deep in her thoughts. My wife was always full of light, wherever she went..

Yet, all I wanted now was to wish for her peace.

The first couple of nights were rough for her as she kept having nightmares and ever since then, I had spent my nights. staring at her, watching her sleep instead of falling asleep beside her. Just incase she needed someone if she woke up.

I couldn't sleep even if I wanted to; the pain was too much to bear but Alena's situation was worse than mine, she needed the support more than me, she could cry her heart out and all I had to do was be there to help her heal. I had convinced myself to never cry in front of her right now.

Whenever felt the urge to cry, I had locked myself in the bathroom. It would take at least thirty-minutes for me to feel calm and kept on the pretence.

Despite the devastating news, I had never blamed Alena for what happened. It wasn't her fault-as a matter of fact had blamed myself more than anyone else. If I had taken better care of her, maybe we wouldn't be in this situation.

It was my fault. Not anyone elses. Not hers.

I slowly grabbed a hold of her hand, caressing the back of it with my thumb.

I missed her smile, her laugh, everything about her. I missed the way her eyes would light up whenever she looked at me.

shutting herself away. missed the way she reached out to me. Now, I felt as if I had lost her and she was

As much as I hated that, I needed to give her some time.

A tear had slipped my eyes and I quickly wiped it away, not wanting to succumb to the sadness.

Just like that, I saw my wife looking at me.

Neither of us said a word as we stared at each other. Her stare was empty and she had a straight face, leaving me awkward in my own spot-what was I supposed to say or do? Usually, it was normal for me to kiss her and wrap her around my arms but now, I needed to keep reminding myself not to invade her space

"I'm sorry if I woke you," my voice sounded more like a whisper

However, it felt loud. Maybe, just maybe, it was too quiet.

She didn't move. She didn't blink.

"Alena... "I breathed, slightly pulling her hand closer towards me but she pulled away.

It was unusual for her to pull away, yet she did it willingly. It was the closest I had been with my wife, feeling the warmth of her skin but it went away just like that.

son. I didn't want to lose

asked, as if

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and I thought I

"By staring at me?"

my wife. I'm just looking at my

You've done your

furrowed in confusion, not understanding the meaning

you mean by that?"

Nothing is going to be the same

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still my wife and I'm still your husband-we're married and very much in love. Not a single thing has changed despite what happened,"

cause of our marriage to drift apart. We were supposed to stay strong, in order for us to heal. We had lost our hope but we couldn't continue to behave this way, we were risking our relationship. I loved Marco. If I could, I would change every thing that happened just to make sure my wife was happy-just to make sure our baby had survived. It

happens next year? In the next two or three years?" She pushed herself

remained still in my spot,

Alena. This

is me, Matteo. I'm

You don't get to do that."

me away. Putting me on the

leaning

respected that; she couldn't be in a

talking to you." She looked

"I'm not."

did, I had decided it was best to step off the bed. I was standing in front of her as she stared at me as if I had lost my mind; she was different, even the way she looked at

could barely recognised

love in

Where was the adoration?

wrong all

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me alone,

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"Admit it, you want me here with you as much as I want to be here. You want me to help you as much as I want to help. Why are you doing this to yourself? Why are you saying all of these

one bit. It didn't matter if I sounded that

hold just to make sure we were

part of me had died with her. Not a day went by without me grieving her passing and wantng her to come back to me until I met