Ex-Husband’s Regret by Evelyn M.M

59. A surprise

It’s been a month since the whole thing with Ethan happened. Am I okay? Definitely not. Does it

still hurt? Fuck yes. Have I moved on? Absolutely not.

Things haven’t been easy. Every day I find myself drowning further and further in a sea of pain and heartache. I thought I was doing okay when I decided to move on with Ethan. I realize now

that I was probably just lying to myself.

Ethan’s betrayal has drenched up all the other pains I tried burying. All the hurts I tried

forgetting. It was like I was now back to square one. Only thing is that I had a few more new scars

marring my heart and soul.

I go through the days in a fog. Just living numbly. Time and things pass me by because I wasn’t

really living. I am just surviving. Taking each day one at a time.

Everyone seems to have moved on, but I feel like I am just stuck. Stuck in a never ending cycle of

pain and heartbreak. My world right now is dark and cold and I feel all alone.

“Miss Sharp, are you okay?” Mark, one of my students asks me.

Fuck, I hate that name. It serves as a reminded that the people who gave it to me broke me. I

wanted to change it, but I didn’t know which name to take. I didn’t want to take the Howell’s name

given I don’t know that much about them. There is also the fact that I haven’t spoken to them

since that day at my house.

“Yes, I am…focus on the classwork” I reply to him before looking down at the books on my desk.

I loved teaching, but nowadays it has become like a chore. Every day I come to work, I can’t help

but wish the hours would fly by quickly so that I can go home. I wanted solitude but I wasn’t

getting enough of that with Letty and Rowan checking up on me every damn time.

My students have noticed something is wrong. Classes aren’t as fun as they used to be. I wasn’t as

cheery as I was before. I was like a robot. Lifeless. Because of this some of my students have

started skipping class. I just don’t know how to bring back the old Ava.

‘Instead of trying to bring the old you, why don’t you try to create a new version?‘ an internal voice

asks.

Was that even possible? Creating a new version. A version of me that is different from the child,

teen then woman who has been broken too many times to count.

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too deeply about it, the

without saying a single word

have to go to my next class Luckily, no one stops me in the hallway. I wasn’t

to anyone

teacher lounge and freeze up. I was expecting it to be at least somewhat empty,

release a groan

phone rings just as I sit down. Nora’s name flashes. I’ve ignored their calls

handle them. Especially given their relationship with Ethan I go to hang up,

accept button instead

Ava?” she

Just release

shut me out. Don’t shut

at the

still don’t say anything. I couldn’t even if I wanted

fucking word.

be in your life. I want to be the

1. want to be there for you. I already lost

again just after finding you would kill

breaks my heart.

my eyes. Damn it. I’ve been so emotional these

her slowly. Trying to push back my

give you time if that’s

I’ve always carried you in my heart even when I thought

I’ll always be here for

to be wanted, but I don’t know if I can trust them yet.

reply before

just don’t know. What if she’s just looking for someone to hang on

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gap. That’s what I’m afraid of. Of being used.

Rowan.

being cold or anything like that towards them.

pieces of my heart.

says walking towards my table.

groan

a way of annoying the hell out of

she likes to stick her nose

“With the way you’ve

one would think you’re preggo” she finishes with a

but I freeze in my seat. Her words

through every fiber of

you okay, Ava? You

right?”

my body. Rushing out of the lounge, I blindly ran through the hallway

of the parking lot.

couldn’t be happening. Please don’t let it be happening.

but my mind

will probably be pulled for over speeding. I needed to confirm

Carol was wrong.

I park my car and rush out. Unluckily for me, I bump