1. A surprise

It’s been a month since the whole thing with Ethan happened. Am I okay? Definitely not. Does it

still hurt? Fuck yes. Have I moved on? Absolutely not.

Things haven’t been easy. Every day I find myself drowning further and further in a sea of pain and heartache. I thought I was doing okay when I decided to move on with Ethan. I realize now

that I was probably just lying to myself.

Ethan’s betrayal has drenched up all the other pains I tried burying. All the hurts I tried

forgetting. It was like I was now back to square one. Only thing is that I had a few more new scars

marring my heart and soul.

I go through the days in a fog. Just living numbly. Time and things pass me by because I wasn’t

really living. I am just surviving. Taking each day one at a time.

Everyone seems to have moved on, but I feel like I am just stuck. Stuck in a never ending cycle of

pain and heartbreak. My world right now is dark and cold and I feel all alone.

“Miss Sharp, are you okay?” Mark, one of my students asks me.

Fuck, I hate that name. It serves as a reminded that the people who gave it to me broke me. I

wanted to change it, but I didn’t know which name to take. I didn’t want to take the Howell’s name

given I don’t know that much about them. There is also the fact that I haven’t spoken to them

since that day at my house.

“Yes, I am…focus on the classwork” I reply to him before looking down at the books on my desk.

I loved teaching, but nowadays it has become like a chore. Every day I come to work, I can’t help

but wish the hours would fly by quickly so that I can go home. I wanted solitude but I wasn’t

getting enough of that with Letty and Rowan checking up on me every damn time.

My students have noticed something is wrong. Classes aren’t as fun as they used to be. I wasn’t as

cheery as I was before. I was like a robot. Lifeless. Because of this some of my students have

started skipping class. I just don’t know how to bring back the old Ava.

‘Instead of trying to bring the old you, why don’t you try to create a new version?‘ an internal voice

asks.

Was that even possible? Creating a new version. A version of me that is different from the child,

teen then woman who has been broken too many times to count.

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I can answer that question or think too deeply about it, the

without saying a

breathe a little before I have to go to my next class Luckily, no one stops me in the hallway. I wasn’t really in

to anyone

was expecting it

damn packed. I release a groan

phone rings just as I sit down. Nora’s name flashes. I’ve

Especially given their relationship with Ethan

accept button instead

Ava?” she

don’t say anything. Just release the

Don’t shut me and your

catching at the

don’t say anything. I couldn’t even if I wanted to.

fucking word.

be in your life. I want to

  1. to be there for you.

again just after finding you would kill me” she

breaks my heart.

Damn it. I’ve been

time” I tell her slowly. Trying to push back

give you time if that’s what

carried you in my heart even when I thought you had died.

always be here for you

be wanted, but I don’t know if I can trust them yet. Only time will

I reply before hanging

saying, but I just don’t know. What if she’s just looking

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afraid of. Of being used. Of being a second choice just like I was

Rowan.

cold or anything like that towards them. I was just trying to protect the

pieces of my heart.

girl” Carol says walking towards my

I groan under

highschool teacher and she had a way of annoying the hell out of

she likes to stick her nose in other people’s

at me in shock. “With the way you’ve

would think you’re preggo” she finishes with a

my seat. Her words ring in

every fiber

frowns. “Are you okay, Ava?

right?”

the lounge, I blindly ran through the hallway till I am out

of the parking lot.

couldn’t be happening. Please don’t let it

to think back. Try to do the math, but my mind is so jumbled that

probably be pulled for over speeding. I needed to

Carol was wrong.

to the store, I park my car and

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