Ex-Husband’s Regret by Evelyn M.M

59. A surprise

It’s been a month since the whole thing with Ethan happened. Am I okay? Definitely not. Does it

still hurt? Fuck yes. Have I moved on? Absolutely not.

Things haven’t been easy. Every day I find myself drowning further and further in a sea of pain and heartache. I thought I was doing okay when I decided to move on with Ethan. I realize now

that I was probably just lying to myself.

Ethan’s betrayal has drenched up all the other pains I tried burying. All the hurts I tried

forgetting. It was like I was now back to square one. Only thing is that I had a few more new scars

marring my heart and soul.

I go through the days in a fog. Just living numbly. Time and things pass me by because I wasn’t

really living. I am just surviving. Taking each day one at a time.

Everyone seems to have moved on, but I feel like I am just stuck. Stuck in a never ending cycle of

pain and heartbreak. My world right now is dark and cold and I feel all alone.

“Miss Sharp, are you okay?” Mark, one of my students asks me.

Fuck, I hate that name. It serves as a reminded that the people who gave it to me broke me. I

wanted to change it, but I didn’t know which name to take. I didn’t want to take the Howell’s name

given I don’t know that much about them. There is also the fact that I haven’t spoken to them

since that day at my house.

“Yes, I am…focus on the classwork” I reply to him before looking down at the books on my desk.

I loved teaching, but nowadays it has become like a chore. Every day I come to work, I can’t help

but wish the hours would fly by quickly so that I can go home. I wanted solitude but I wasn’t

getting enough of that with Letty and Rowan checking up on me every damn time.

My students have noticed something is wrong. Classes aren’t as fun as they used to be. I wasn’t as

cheery as I was before. I was like a robot. Lifeless. Because of this some of my students have

started skipping class. I just don’t know how to bring back the old Ava.

‘Instead of trying to bring the old you, why don’t you try to create a new version?‘ an internal voice

asks.

Was that even possible? Creating a new version. A version of me that is different from the child,

teen then woman who has been broken too many times to count.

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too deeply

of my class without saying a single word

I rush to the teacher’s lounge. I just want to breathe a little before I have to go to my next class

to anyone

to the teacher lounge and freeze up. I was expecting it to

packed. I release a groan as I walk to

just as I sit down. Nora’s name flashes. I’ve ignored their calls

Especially given their relationship with Ethan I

accept button instead

Ava?” she

Just release

out. Don’t shut me

at

don’t say anything. I couldn’t even if I wanted to. My mouth refuses to move.

fucking word.

in your

1. I know you’re hurting and I want to be there for you. I already lost

lose another. Losing you again just after finding

breaks my heart.

fill my eyes. Damn it. I’ve been

slowly. Trying

“I’ll give you time if that’s what you need, but always

you in my heart even when I thought

I’ll always be here for

wanted, but I don’t know if I can trust them yet. Only time

I reply

What if she’s

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Of being used. Of being a

Rowan.

being cold or anything like that towards them. I was just trying to protect the remaining

pieces of my heart.

walking towards my

groan

she had a way of

to stick her nose

shock. “With the way you’ve been eating and how moody you

you’re preggo” she

seat. Her words ring in my mind

every fiber of my

okay, Ava? You have to know

right?”

starts coursing through my body. Rushing out of the lounge, I blindly ran through the hallway till I am out of the

of the parking lot.

couldn’t be happening. Please don’t let it be

try to think back. Try to do the math, but

I will probably be pulled for over speeding. I needed to confirm

Carol was wrong.

to the store, I park my car and rush out. Unluckily