Ex-Husband’s Regret by Evelyn M.M

59. A surprise

It’s been a month since the whole thing with Ethan happened. Am I okay? Definitely not. Does it

still hurt? Fuck yes. Have I moved on? Absolutely not.

Things haven’t been easy. Every day I find myself drowning further and further in a sea of pain and heartache. I thought I was doing okay when I decided to move on with Ethan. I realize now

that I was probably just lying to myself.

Ethan’s betrayal has drenched up all the other pains I tried burying. All the hurts I tried

forgetting. It was like I was now back to square one. Only thing is that I had a few more new scars

marring my heart and soul.

I go through the days in a fog. Just living numbly. Time and things pass me by because I wasn’t

really living. I am just surviving. Taking each day one at a time.

Everyone seems to have moved on, but I feel like I am just stuck. Stuck in a never ending cycle of

pain and heartbreak. My world right now is dark and cold and I feel all alone.

“Miss Sharp, are you okay?” Mark, one of my students asks me.

Fuck, I hate that name. It serves as a reminded that the people who gave it to me broke me. I

wanted to change it, but I didn’t know which name to take. I didn’t want to take the Howell’s name

given I don’t know that much about them. There is also the fact that I haven’t spoken to them

since that day at my house.

“Yes, I am…focus on the classwork” I reply to him before looking down at the books on my desk.

I loved teaching, but nowadays it has become like a chore. Every day I come to work, I can’t help

but wish the hours would fly by quickly so that I can go home. I wanted solitude but I wasn’t

getting enough of that with Letty and Rowan checking up on me every damn time.

My students have noticed something is wrong. Classes aren’t as fun as they used to be. I wasn’t as

cheery as I was before. I was like a robot. Lifeless. Because of this some of my students have

started skipping class. I just don’t know how to bring back the old Ava.

‘Instead of trying to bring the old you, why don’t you try to create a new version?‘ an internal voice

asks.

Was that even possible? Creating a new version. A version of me that is different from the child,

teen then woman who has been broken too many times to count.

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too deeply about

saying a single

breathe a little before I have to go to my next class Luckily, no one stops me in the hallway. I wasn’t really in

to anyone

lounge and freeze up. I was

packed. I release a groan as I walk to the furthest

as I sit down. Nora’s name flashes. I’ve

relationship with Ethan I go to hang up, but I press

accept button instead

Ava?” she

don’t say anything. Just release the

please don’t shut me out. Don’t shut me and your father

catching at the

wanted to.

fucking word.

my daughter, Ava and I want to be in your

1. there for you. I already lost one child,

after finding you would kill me” she pleads, crying

breaks my heart.

my eyes. Damn it. I’ve been so emotional these past

I tell her slowly. Trying to push back my

that’s what you need, but always remember that

always carried you in my heart even when I thought you had died. I hope you

here for

to be wanted, but I don’t know if I

I reply before

What

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being used. Of being a second choice just like

Rowan.

wasn’t being cold or anything like that towards them. I was just trying to protect the

pieces of my heart.

walking towards my table.

groan

junior highschool teacher and she had a way of

likes to stick her nose in other people’s

food” she looks at me in shock. “With the way you’ve been eating and

think you’re preggo” she finishes with a laugh.

was joking, but I freeze in my seat. Her words ring in my mind

fear through every fiber of my

behavior and frowns. “Are you okay, Ava? You have to know

right?”

my body. Rushing out of the lounge, I blindly ran through the hallway till I am

of the parking lot.

This couldn’t be happening. Please

think back. Try to do the math, but my mind is so

that I will probably be pulled for over speeding. I needed

Carol was wrong.

car and rush out. Unluckily for me, I bump into