1. A surprise

It’s been a month since the whole thing with Ethan happened. Am I okay? Definitely not. Does it

still hurt? Fuck yes. Have I moved on? Absolutely not.

Things haven’t been easy. Every day I find myself drowning further and further in a sea of pain and heartache. I thought I was doing okay when I decided to move on with Ethan. I realize now

that I was probably just lying to myself.

Ethan’s betrayal has drenched up all the other pains I tried burying. All the hurts I tried

forgetting. It was like I was now back to square one. Only thing is that I had a few more new scars

marring my heart and soul.

I go through the days in a fog. Just living numbly. Time and things pass me by because I wasn’t

really living. I am just surviving. Taking each day one at a time.

Everyone seems to have moved on, but I feel like I am just stuck. Stuck in a never ending cycle of

pain and heartbreak. My world right now is dark and cold and I feel all alone.

“Miss Sharp, are you okay?” Mark, one of my students asks me.

Fuck, I hate that name. It serves as a reminded that the people who gave it to me broke me. I

wanted to change it, but I didn’t know which name to take. I didn’t want to take the Howell’s name

given I don’t know that much about them. There is also the fact that I haven’t spoken to them

since that day at my house.

“Yes, I am…focus on the classwork” I reply to him before looking down at the books on my desk.

I loved teaching, but nowadays it has become like a chore. Every day I come to work, I can’t help

but wish the hours would fly by quickly so that I can go home. I wanted solitude but I wasn’t

getting enough of that with Letty and Rowan checking up on me every damn time.

My students have noticed something is wrong. Classes aren’t as fun as they used to be. I wasn’t as

cheery as I was before. I was like a robot. Lifeless. Because of this some of my students have

started skipping class. I just don’t know how to bring back the old Ava.

‘Instead of trying to bring the old you, why don’t you try to create a new version?‘ an internal voice

asks.

Was that even possible? Creating a new version. A version of me that is different from the child,

teen then woman who has been broken too many times to count.

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can answer that question or think too deeply about it, the bell rings Taking my things,

of my class without saying a single word

keep my head down as I rush to the teacher’s lounge. I just want to breathe a little before I have to go to my next class Luckily, no one stops

to anyone

up. I was expecting it to be at least somewhat empty, but

release a groan as I walk

phone rings just as I sit down. Nora’s name flashes. I’ve ignored their calls not really sure

relationship with Ethan I go to hang up, but I

accept button instead

Ava?” she

say anything. Just release the

me out. Don’t shut me and your

at

even if I wanted to. My mouth refuses to move. To utter a

fucking word.

daughter, Ava and I want to be in your life. I want to be

  1. know you’re hurting and I want to be there for you. I already lost one child, please

finding

breaks my heart.

I’ve been so emotional these past

slowly. Trying to

a breath. “I’ll give you time if that’s what you need, but

heart even when I thought you had died. I hope you

here for you if you need

don’t know if I can trust them

reply before hanging

but I just don’t know. What if she’s just looking for

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what I’m afraid of. Of being used. Of being a second choice just like I

Rowan.

anything like that towards them.

pieces of my heart.

Carol says walking towards my

groan under my

a junior highschool teacher and she had a way of annoying

her nose

at me in shock. “With the way you’ve been eating and

think you’re preggo” she

joking, but I freeze in my seat. Her words ring in

fear through every fiber

and frowns. “Are you okay, Ava? You have to know

right?”

I blindly ran through the hallway

of the parking lot.

couldn’t be happening. Please don’t let it be

math, but my mind

be pulled for over speeding. I needed

Carol was wrong.

park my car and rush out. Unluckily for me, I bump into

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