1. A surprise

It’s been a month since the whole thing with Ethan happened. Am I okay? Definitely not. Does it

still hurt? Fuck yes. Have I moved on? Absolutely not.

Things haven’t been easy. Every day I find myself drowning further and further in a sea of pain and heartache. I thought I was doing okay when I decided to move on with Ethan. I realize now

that I was probably just lying to myself.

Ethan’s betrayal has drenched up all the other pains I tried burying. All the hurts I tried

forgetting. It was like I was now back to square one. Only thing is that I had a few more new scars

marring my heart and soul.

I go through the days in a fog. Just living numbly. Time and things pass me by because I wasn’t

really living. I am just surviving. Taking each day one at a time.

Everyone seems to have moved on, but I feel like I am just stuck. Stuck in a never ending cycle of

pain and heartbreak. My world right now is dark and cold and I feel all alone.

“Miss Sharp, are you okay?” Mark, one of my students asks me.

Fuck, I hate that name. It serves as a reminded that the people who gave it to me broke me. I

wanted to change it, but I didn’t know which name to take. I didn’t want to take the Howell’s name

given I don’t know that much about them. There is also the fact that I haven’t spoken to them

since that day at my house.

“Yes, I am…focus on the classwork” I reply to him before looking down at the books on my desk.

I loved teaching, but nowadays it has become like a chore. Every day I come to work, I can’t help

but wish the hours would fly by quickly so that I can go home. I wanted solitude but I wasn’t

getting enough of that with Letty and Rowan checking up on me every damn time.

My students have noticed something is wrong. Classes aren’t as fun as they used to be. I wasn’t as

cheery as I was before. I was like a robot. Lifeless. Because of this some of my students have

started skipping class. I just don’t know how to bring back the old Ava.

‘Instead of trying to bring the old you, why don’t you try to create a new version?‘ an internal voice

asks.

Was that even possible? Creating a new version. A version of me that is different from the child,

teen then woman who has been broken too many times to count.

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think too deeply about it, the bell rings Taking

class without saying a single word to my

a little before I have to go to my next class Luckily, no one stops me in the

to anyone

to the teacher lounge and freeze up. I was expecting

I release a groan as

I sit down. Nora’s name flashes. I’ve ignored their calls

with Ethan I go to hang

accept button instead

she calls

say anything. Just release

Don’t shut me and your father out” she

catching at the

even if I wanted to.

fucking word.

Ava and I want to be in your

  1. there for you. I already lost one child, please

lose another. Losing you again just after finding you would kill me” she

breaks my heart.

fill my eyes. Damn it. I’ve

need time” I tell her slowly. Trying to push back

breath. “I’ll give you time if that’s

heart even when I thought you had died. I hope you

always be here for you if you need me”

to be wanted, but I don’t know if I can trust them

reply before

get what she’s saying, but I just don’t know. What if she’s just looking

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used. Of being a second choice just

Rowan.

that towards them. I was

pieces of my heart.

walking towards

groan under my

highschool teacher and she had a way of annoying the hell out of

likes to stick her nose in other people’s

me in shock. “With

would think you’re preggo” she finishes with a laugh.

joking, but I freeze in my seat.

every fiber of

Ava?

right?”

as panic starts coursing through my body. Rushing out of the lounge, I blindly ran through the hallway till I am out of the school. I immediately

of the parking lot.

This couldn’t be happening. Please don’t let it

but my mind is so jumbled that

drive fast, not caring that I will probably be pulled for over speeding. I needed to

Carol was wrong.

car and rush out. Unluckily

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