Ex-Husband’s Regret by Evelyn M.M

59. A surprise

It’s been a month since the whole thing with Ethan happened. Am I okay? Definitely not. Does it

still hurt? Fuck yes. Have I moved on? Absolutely not.

Things haven’t been easy. Every day I find myself drowning further and further in a sea of pain and heartache. I thought I was doing okay when I decided to move on with Ethan. I realize now

that I was probably just lying to myself.

Ethan’s betrayal has drenched up all the other pains I tried burying. All the hurts I tried

forgetting. It was like I was now back to square one. Only thing is that I had a few more new scars

marring my heart and soul.

I go through the days in a fog. Just living numbly. Time and things pass me by because I wasn’t

really living. I am just surviving. Taking each day one at a time.

Everyone seems to have moved on, but I feel like I am just stuck. Stuck in a never ending cycle of

pain and heartbreak. My world right now is dark and cold and I feel all alone.

“Miss Sharp, are you okay?” Mark, one of my students asks me.

Fuck, I hate that name. It serves as a reminded that the people who gave it to me broke me. I

wanted to change it, but I didn’t know which name to take. I didn’t want to take the Howell’s name

given I don’t know that much about them. There is also the fact that I haven’t spoken to them

since that day at my house.

“Yes, I am…focus on the classwork” I reply to him before looking down at the books on my desk.

I loved teaching, but nowadays it has become like a chore. Every day I come to work, I can’t help

but wish the hours would fly by quickly so that I can go home. I wanted solitude but I wasn’t

getting enough of that with Letty and Rowan checking up on me every damn time.

My students have noticed something is wrong. Classes aren’t as fun as they used to be. I wasn’t as

cheery as I was before. I was like a robot. Lifeless. Because of this some of my students have

started skipping class. I just don’t know how to bring back the old Ava.

‘Instead of trying to bring the old you, why don’t you try to create a new version?‘ an internal voice

asks.

Was that even possible? Creating a new version. A version of me that is different from the child,

teen then woman who has been broken too many times to count.

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deeply about it, the bell rings Taking my things, I

my class without saying

as I rush to the teacher’s lounge. I just want to breathe a little before I have to go to my

to anyone

the teacher lounge and freeze up. I was expecting it to be at

packed. I release a groan as I walk to the

phone rings just as I sit down. Nora’s name flashes. I’ve ignored their calls not really

given their relationship with Ethan

accept button instead

Ava?” she calls

say anything. Just release the breath I was

don’t shut me out. Don’t shut

at

anything. I couldn’t even if I wanted

fucking word.

daughter, Ava and I want to be in your life. I want to be the

1. you’re hurting and I want to be there for you. I already lost one

lose another. Losing you again just after finding you would kill me”

breaks my heart.

I’ve been

her slowly. Trying to push back my

releases a breath. “I’ll give you time if that’s what you need,

you in my heart even when I thought

and know that I’ll always be here for you if

I don’t know if I can trust them yet. Only time

reply before hanging

just don’t know. What if she’s just looking for someone to

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gap. That’s what I’m afraid of. Of being used. Of being a second choice just like

Rowan.

wasn’t being cold or anything like that towards them.

pieces of my heart.

Carol says walking

I groan under

had a way of annoying the hell

her nose in

“With the way you’ve been eating and

would think you’re preggo” she finishes with

joking, but I freeze in my seat. Her words ring in my mind like a

fear through every

Ava? You have to

right?”

panic starts coursing through my body. Rushing out of the lounge, I blindly ran through the hallway till I am out of the school. I immediately jump into my car and

of the parking lot.

couldn’t be happening. Please don’t let

math, but my mind

drive fast, not caring that I will probably be pulled for over speeding. I needed

Carol was wrong.

car and rush out. Unluckily for me,