Ex-Husband’s Regret by Evelyn M.M

59. A surprise

It’s been a month since the whole thing with Ethan happened. Am I okay? Definitely not. Does it

still hurt? Fuck yes. Have I moved on? Absolutely not.

Things haven’t been easy. Every day I find myself drowning further and further in a sea of pain and heartache. I thought I was doing okay when I decided to move on with Ethan. I realize now

that I was probably just lying to myself.

Ethan’s betrayal has drenched up all the other pains I tried burying. All the hurts I tried

forgetting. It was like I was now back to square one. Only thing is that I had a few more new scars

marring my heart and soul.

I go through the days in a fog. Just living numbly. Time and things pass me by because I wasn’t

really living. I am just surviving. Taking each day one at a time.

Everyone seems to have moved on, but I feel like I am just stuck. Stuck in a never ending cycle of

pain and heartbreak. My world right now is dark and cold and I feel all alone.

“Miss Sharp, are you okay?” Mark, one of my students asks me.

Fuck, I hate that name. It serves as a reminded that the people who gave it to me broke me. I

wanted to change it, but I didn’t know which name to take. I didn’t want to take the Howell’s name

given I don’t know that much about them. There is also the fact that I haven’t spoken to them

since that day at my house.

“Yes, I am…focus on the classwork” I reply to him before looking down at the books on my desk.

I loved teaching, but nowadays it has become like a chore. Every day I come to work, I can’t help

but wish the hours would fly by quickly so that I can go home. I wanted solitude but I wasn’t

getting enough of that with Letty and Rowan checking up on me every damn time.

My students have noticed something is wrong. Classes aren’t as fun as they used to be. I wasn’t as

cheery as I was before. I was like a robot. Lifeless. Because of this some of my students have

started skipping class. I just don’t know how to bring back the old Ava.

‘Instead of trying to bring the old you, why don’t you try to create a new version?‘ an internal voice

asks.

Was that even possible? Creating a new version. A version of me that is different from the child,

teen then woman who has been broken too many times to count.

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I can answer that question or think too deeply about it, the bell rings Taking my things,

of my class without saying a single word to

as I rush to the teacher’s lounge. I just want to breathe a little before I have to go to my next class Luckily, no one stops me in the hallway. I

to anyone

teacher lounge and freeze up. I was expecting it to be at least

a groan as I walk to the

rings just as I sit down. Nora’s name flashes. I’ve ignored their calls not

Especially given their relationship with Ethan I go to

accept button instead

she calls

don’t say anything. Just release the breath I

out. Don’t shut me and your

catching at

couldn’t even if I wanted to. My mouth refuses to move. To utter

fucking word.

and I want to be in your life. I want to be the

1. I want to be there for you. I already lost one child,

after finding you would kill

breaks my heart.

eyes. Damn it. I’ve been so

her slowly. Trying to

“I’ll give you time if that’s what you need, but always remember that

carried you in my heart even when I thought you had died.

be here for you if

wanted, but I don’t know if I can trust them

reply

don’t know. What if she’s just looking for

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being used. Of being a second choice

Rowan.

or anything like that towards them. I was just trying to

pieces of my heart.

girl” Carol says walking towards my table.

groan under

she had a way of

she likes to stick her nose in other

“With the way you’ve been eating and how moody

you’re preggo” she finishes with a laugh.

freeze in my seat. Her words ring in my mind

every

notices my behavior and frowns. “Are you okay, Ava? You have

right?”

body. Rushing out of the lounge, I blindly ran through the hallway till I am out of the school. I immediately jump into my car

of the parking lot.

happening. Please don’t let it be

try to think back. Try to do the math, but my mind is

caring that I will probably be pulled for over

Carol was wrong.

my car and rush out. Unluckily for