Ex-Husband’s Regret by Evelyn M.M

59. A surprise

It’s been a month since the whole thing with Ethan happened. Am I okay? Definitely not. Does it

still hurt? Fuck yes. Have I moved on? Absolutely not.

Things haven’t been easy. Every day I find myself drowning further and further in a sea of pain and heartache. I thought I was doing okay when I decided to move on with Ethan. I realize now

that I was probably just lying to myself.

Ethan’s betrayal has drenched up all the other pains I tried burying. All the hurts I tried

forgetting. It was like I was now back to square one. Only thing is that I had a few more new scars

marring my heart and soul.

I go through the days in a fog. Just living numbly. Time and things pass me by because I wasn’t

really living. I am just surviving. Taking each day one at a time.

Everyone seems to have moved on, but I feel like I am just stuck. Stuck in a never ending cycle of

pain and heartbreak. My world right now is dark and cold and I feel all alone.

“Miss Sharp, are you okay?” Mark, one of my students asks me.

Fuck, I hate that name. It serves as a reminded that the people who gave it to me broke me. I

wanted to change it, but I didn’t know which name to take. I didn’t want to take the Howell’s name

given I don’t know that much about them. There is also the fact that I haven’t spoken to them

since that day at my house.

“Yes, I am…focus on the classwork” I reply to him before looking down at the books on my desk.

I loved teaching, but nowadays it has become like a chore. Every day I come to work, I can’t help

but wish the hours would fly by quickly so that I can go home. I wanted solitude but I wasn’t

getting enough of that with Letty and Rowan checking up on me every damn time.

My students have noticed something is wrong. Classes aren’t as fun as they used to be. I wasn’t as

cheery as I was before. I was like a robot. Lifeless. Because of this some of my students have

started skipping class. I just don’t know how to bring back the old Ava.

‘Instead of trying to bring the old you, why don’t you try to create a new version?‘ an internal voice

asks.

Was that even possible? Creating a new version. A version of me that is different from the child,

teen then woman who has been broken too many times to count.

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question or think too deeply about it, the bell rings Taking my

without saying a single word to my

lounge. I just want to breathe a little before I have to go to my

to anyone

get to the teacher lounge and freeze up. I was expecting it to be at least somewhat empty, but it

packed. I release a groan

Nora’s name flashes. I’ve ignored their calls not really sure

Especially given their relationship with Ethan I go

accept button instead

Ava?” she

release the breath I was

Don’t shut me and your father out”

catching at the

even if I wanted to. My mouth refuses to move. To utter a

fucking word.

Ava and I want to be in your

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finding you would

breaks my heart.

my eyes. Damn it. I’ve been so emotional these past

tell her slowly. Trying to push

a breath. “I’ll give you time if that’s what you need, but always remember that I

heart even when I thought you had died. I hope you can

be here for you if you

good to be wanted, but I don’t know if I can trust them yet.

I reply

know. What if

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afraid of. Of being used. Of being a

Rowan.

towards them. I was

pieces of my heart.

says walking towards my table.

I groan under my

and she had a way of annoying the hell out of

she likes to stick her nose

“With the way you’ve been eating and

one would think you’re preggo” she

freeze in my seat. Her words ring in my mind like

every fiber of

and frowns. “Are you okay, Ava? You have to know

right?”

blindly ran through the hallway till I am out of the school. I immediately

of the parking lot.

Please don’t let

math, but my mind is so jumbled

caring that I will probably be pulled for over speeding. I

Carol was wrong.

my car and rush out.