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It’s been a month since the whole thing with Ethan happened. Am I okay? Definitely not. Does it

still hurt? Fuck yes. Have I moved on? Absolutely not.

Things haven’t been easy. Every day I find myself drowning further and further in a sea of pain and heartache. I thought I was doing okay when I decided to move on with Ethan. I realize now

that I was probably just lying to myself.

Ethan’s betrayal has drenched up all the other pains I tried burying. All the hurts I tried

forgetting. It was like I was now back to square one. Only thing is that I had a few more new scars

marring my heart and soul.

I go through the days in a fog. Just living numbly. Time and things pass me by because I wasn’t

really living. I am just surviving. Taking each day one at a time.

Everyone seems to have moved on, but I feel like I am just stuck. Stuck in a never ending cycle of

pain and heartbreak. My world right now is dark and cold and I feel all alone.

“Miss Sharp, are you okay?” Mark, one of my students asks me.

Fuck, I hate that name. It serves as a reminded that the people who gave it to me broke me. I

wanted to change it, but I didn’t know which name to take. I didn’t want to take the Howell’s name

given I don’t know that much about them. There is also the fact that I haven’t spoken to them

since that day at my house.

“Yes, I am…focus on the classwork” I reply to him before looking down at the books on my desk.

I loved teaching, but nowadays it has become like a chore. Every day I come to work, I can’t help

but wish the hours would fly by quickly so that I can go home. I wanted solitude but I wasn’t

getting enough of that with Letty and Rowan checking up on me every damn time.

My students have noticed something is wrong. Classes aren’t as fun as they used to be. I wasn’t as

cheery as I was before. I was like a robot. Lifeless. Because of this some of my students have

started skipping class. I just don’t know how to bring back the old Ava.

‘Instead of trying to bring the old you, why don’t you try to create a new version?‘ an internal voice

asks.

Was that even possible? Creating a new version. A version of me that is different from the child,

teen then woman who has been broken too many times to count.

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answer that question or think too deeply about it, the bell

out of my class without saying a single

a little before I have to go to my next class Luckily, no one stops me in the hallway. I wasn’t really in the

to anyone

lounge and freeze up. I was expecting it to be at least somewhat empty, but

packed. I release a groan as I walk to the

down. Nora’s name flashes.

Ethan I go to hang up, but I press

accept button instead

she calls

anything. Just release the breath I was

my dear, please don’t shut me out. Don’t shut me and your father

at the

don’t say anything. I couldn’t even if I wanted

fucking word.

to be in your life. I want

  1. hurting and I want to be there for you. I already lost

you again just after finding you would

breaks my heart.

I’ve

tell her slowly. Trying to push back my

give you time if that’s what you need,

in my heart even when I thought you had

I’ll always be here for

I don’t know if I can trust them yet.

I reply

saying, but I just don’t know. What if she’s just looking

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what I’m afraid of. Of being used. Of being

Rowan.

being cold or anything like that towards them. I was just trying to protect

pieces of my heart.

girl” Carol says walking towards my table.

groan under my

highschool teacher and she had a

to stick her nose in other

me in shock. “With the way you’ve been eating and how moody you

you’re preggo”

she was joking, but I freeze in my seat. Her

through every fiber of my

okay, Ava? You

right?”

the lounge, I blindly ran through the hallway till I am out of the school. I immediately jump

of the parking lot.

Please don’t let

try to think back. Try to do the math, but my mind is so jumbled

not caring that I will probably be pulled

Carol was wrong.

park my car and rush out. Unluckily for me, I bump

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