Chapter 41: In Her Shadow
***Vanessa***
All morning, the pack medical team has been examining me, testing my brain function and my patience with their incessant questions.
What makes this entire experience upsetting, however, is the fact that my own husband has not even bothered to check up on me.
I don’t expect to be coddled or doted on as Christian is not exactly a very nurturing man even when he was with Natalia, but still, a simple “Hey, how are you feeling?” would have been nice.
To make matters worse, my head is pounding and it feels like every part of my body is overstimulated.
My ears are so sensitive and the sound of the heart monitor beeping is only making my headache worse.
Even my eyes burn from all the damn light coming in from the window and I’ve been given sunglasses to alleviate the pain.
All this stimulation seems to be playing tricks on my mind because I swear I hear whines and barks in my head throughout the examinations.
I don’t think much of the sounds though, chalking it all up to my imagination and exhaustion.
Where the f**k is my Gamma? I wonder, looking around the empty hospital room.
Shouldn’t Jordan at least be here to take care of me? He used to take care of Natalia all the time whenever she was sick.
No matter what I do, I will always be stuck in her shadow.
Growing up, Natalia was the perfect golden child.
She was naturally very smart, always landing a spot on the Honor Roll while I always struggled to keep up.
I had to work twice as hard to make the list and when I showed my mother my report card for a tiny bit of recognition, she just shrugged and tossed it on the table.
“What do you want? A reward?” she scoffed sarcastically.
“Estas pero bien pendeja {You are an i***t!}.This is the bare minimum.I did not leave my country for you to not take advantage of your education.You should always make the honor roll, just like your sister.Deja de andar con tus babosadas y ayudame a hacer de comer {Enough with your stupidity and help me make dinner}.”
I never showed her my report card again after that.
With Natalia being such a damn star in academics, I turned to the next best thing, sports.I joined the soccer team and worked my way to captain on the cheer team.
Did it matter? No.
her volunteering programs at the local nursing homes,
support group, seeking recognition in the amount of friends I had and attention from the football team.I was labeled a slut for most of highschool, though I never did could get attention
course, that
I met a college boy from the
a drink in the master bedroom and being the dumb
of that night, only that I woke up
I ran all the way home, convincing myself that nothing happened
reasons, I never told
was asking for it by dressing
would believe the promiscuous girl in school was raped? After that, I did everything I could to erase Skyler off my body, f*****g anything with a pulse to distance myself from
just an act, an exchange
an
knew exactly what she
not “Become an
“They make good money.”
towards her Medical Assistant certification with the ultimate goal of
the only thing I knew, partying and drinking to numb the emptiness inside that was slowly starting to
all changed when I
in a few classes but it wasn’t until we were paired
charming, always very polite whenever we got
most men I had met up until that point, Christian
and we’d
the first
Lady.Why didn’t I think of
whenever I got an idea for our sociology
the eyes of the man whose soul completes
“I’m sorry,”
murmurs, tears
“I’m very sorry…but…we-”
with his own
“Please…”
can stop it, a part of me hoping
his hands cupping my cheeks as he pulls me
of its problems fading away
have ever experienced, but the bliss lasts only for a
mate,” he whispers,
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