Tangled in Moonlight: Unshifted (Ava and Lucas)

Chapter 230 Ava: Change of Balance

"I'll get the Magister," Marcus offers. "You focus on the those other ones. Try not to flood the room or something."

"I can swim," Vanessa says. "I can probably keep her afloat until you get here."

Their faith in me is so touching. "I'm not going to flood the room, guys."

"Did you know you were going to set a paper on fire before you did it?" Marcus looks stern, but there's a slight twinkle in his eyes, and a little quirk to his smile, that tells me he's becoming more comfortable around me.

At least he's not trying to escape the general vicinity of magic, after being in the Fae Ward for a few days. He's getting used to its existence around him, though he admits that it feels itchy. Vanessa doesn't seem to have the same problem.

Selene, on the other hand…

I'm not sneezing, but all I can smell is refuse. She sounds sour in my head. There's an alley with garbage cans. I guess no one wants to ward their trash.

As Marcus leaves to fetch Magister Orion, my heart clenches in sympathy for my wolf. I wish there was a way to make you more comfortable.

It's fine, Selene replies, though her mental voice sounds strained. I'd rather be here than leave you alone.

Vanessa settles on the bed, her fingers tracing the edges of the rune papers scattered across the covers. She looks up at me, her eyes filled with concern. "How are you holding up, Ava?"

Falling onto my back, I throw my arm over my eyes, blocking out the lights. Every one of my feelings presses down on me, shoving me deeper into the mattress. "Honestly? I feel like I'm missing something huge. Like there's this... I don't know, this looming disaster just waiting to happen, and I can't see it coming."

good news, right? And Lucas is an experienced alpha.

"But I can't shake this feeling that I should be doing more.

your powers is the best help you can be right now. Think about it—if you can master this, you'll be able to protect the pack in ways no

unease won't leave me alone. Pulling out my phone, my fingers hover over Lucas's number. I've left him twelve messages since

answer. I try again, my heart rate picking up with

Vanessa says, but I can hear the slight uncertainty

be able to give me an

suddenly feeling very small and very scared. "How

reaches out to squeeze my hand. "It's hard," she admits. "There's no easy way to deal with it. The amount of times I've been left at the hospital while Vester's out on a mission is not

what did you

something, or more wounded coming in. There are things that you need to do,

Lucas being unreachable is hard for me—newly mated and spending more time away from him than with him—I can only imagine how hard it is for a couple mated as long

ache I've become familiar with. It was there the moment I

now, and driving me

near, it's like... like I'm missing an arm or a leg. Missing a lung. I can't breathe a full breathe, and I can't walk at

realize how much you rely on

many times I just got busy, too distracted thinking and doing to even remember to call Lucas. It seems stupid that I ever got that complacent before, when now my

can't call me; only I can reach him. It's been an eye-opening experience. Once I accepted him into my life, as my partner, and the responsibilities of the position it

still was complacent, knowing he was there to hold us up. He's always been the glue of our relationship, and I've been like a flighty hummingbird, flitting from

our distance, I realize how much I relied on him. On his